"Although you hurt me so much, again and again, I never gave up on you. Believe me, I never did." She paused briefly, trying to hold back the tears. "I had hoped you were... different from what they all told. They had warned me about guys like you. But I didn't want to believe them. I was totally blinded by your kiss." She hesitated and stared at his lips that were covered in raindrops as if in this moment she wished to touch is lips with hers for the last time. "And now, as I am here again, laying in the same pain as before, without you even giving a shit about my well-being, I made a decision." She swallowed her sobbing as the rain constantly crashed into their heads and washed away the salty tears. "That I'll never trust anybody again. Because this is when you're vulnerable." Now tears rolled down her cheeks uncontrollably, in the same rhythm as the pouring rain, but abruptly she straightens up and her face hardens. "I know now what I'm worth, and I shouldn't give myself to anybody who isn't able to pay this. I..." She hesitated again because the crying and sobbing took control over her. Her hair sticked to her face. "I will move on, without you. But... I'll tell you this: I never wanted it to end that way. I never wanted to disappoint or even hurt you. I still love you. I truly do." She covers her face with her arms as even more tears come out. "And I... I hate myself for it." She screamed it out, screamed like her heart was torn apart just in this moment. "I hope, when I leave all our memories behind, I can be happy again." - excerpt of a book I'll never write