Sorry for mistakes and such a long time for an update, I was in the hospital yesturday which is why I didn't updat yesrterday. I hope you guys understand :)

After waking up three or four times, I decide that I'm going to actually get up this time. It is still dark out-side and River isn't in the room. I look over at the alarm clock that is sitting on the table next to the bed. Wow it's only 8:30 PM. Where is River? I quickly jump out of bed and run downstairs, looking for him.

When I see him on the couch watching a movie, I jump into his lap and laugh at his reaction. He wraps his arms around me, and a smile of amusement shows on his lips.

"Hello there Mila, how was your nap?" River asks me and I laugh.

"I woke up like four times." He laughs with me and we sit there in silence for a minuet or two before I hear a door open. A boy who looks River's age walks in and I hold my breath. I guess River feels me tense up because he quickly introduces the stranger.

"Mi this is Bradley, my best friend." He tells me but that doesn't stop the panic attack that happens. I try to breath and I try to focus on Rivers arms around me, but I can't. Why am I like this?

At this point there is a pain in my chest, and I can't breathe. I hear a voice though.

Breathe, you have to breathe. Mila, Breathe. Take a deep breath.

I follow the voices orders as best as I can but I'm still having trouble breathing. I take one breath in, and slowly exhale. It burns my chest, but the voice is telling me to do it, so I do.

I didn't know I was crying until my vision cleared up, and when it did, I saw that it was just River and I on the couch. Except he is now in a sitting position, with me still in his lap.

I try my best to avoid his eyes, but that's near impossible when he puts his finger under my chin. I still try to avoid eye contact, but he then talks.

"Mila, look at me." His voice is soft and is laced with concern. I look at his eyes and that makes me break again. His eyes are worse than the tone of his voice. They are watering and the fear and worry is obviously there.

"I-I'm s-sorry." I whisper looking away from his eyes. He moves his hand to where I have to look him straight in the eye.

"Don't you ever be sorry for that. None of this was your fault, so I don't ever want to hear that your sorry again, okay?" The whole time he was talking, I cried. For some reason I feel like everything was my fault. I can't remember what happened exactly, but I feel it was my fault.

"I should've been more careful with Bradley. I should've told you he was over, so you didn't have a panic attack. I didn't think it would be that bad." He said while wiping my tears away with his thumb.

"Are you willing to meet him now? I promise he won't hurt you, and I will be by you the entire time." He assures me and I think for a second. As long as he is with me and if the strange person stays away from me.

I nod my head and he smiles. I love his smile.

"Bradley you can come in now!" He yells and the boy enters the room, more slowly this time.

"Mila, meet Bradley. Bradley, this is the girl I was telling you about." River introduces us and Bradley waves awkwardly. I don't follow the movement and study him.

He has blonde hair like River, but his eyes are baby blue. He's tall, just like River, and obviously he works out or something. His muscles are showing through his shirt, but I think River's are better. What am I saying?

"So your Mila......River has talked about you a lot. When you were in a coma, he would never leave your side and wouldn't stop talking about you." He said and I can feel myself heating up. I try to mask it as best as I can, but Bradley laughs.

"Anyways, I'm going to go cook some dinner. You two don't have to much fun now." Bradley says and walks out of the room and into the kitchen. My stomach growls just at the thought of food.

River hears it and laughs.

"I think one of your favorite things so far is food. He's making homemade pizza in there. Later you can go pick put your toppings after he gets done making the dough." He tells me and I nod. Pizza sounds good. Like really good.

"What do you want to watch?" River asks me and turns on Netflix. I shrug my shoulders and he goes through many different movies and tv shows. When he passes one in particular, I have like a flash back. I don't know how to explain it.

Flashback*
"Mom Mila is hogging the tv again!" A small boy yells and a woman walks into the room.

"Mila, finish up your episode and share with your brother." The woman tells the little girl, or I should say me because they are saying my name.

"But momma it's the new episodes! Please, please, please let me finish them, there is only three more!" I cry out. The boy also starts to cry. He has to be around six or so, with brown hair and grey eyes just like mine.

"No Mila, finish this episode and get off. Don't argue with me." My mom said and the boy starts to laugh. I ignore him and finish my episode.
End of flashback*

Then it ends. The name of the show is called The 100, I can't remember what it was about but I know I loved it. Was that a memory?

"Hey, you okay Mi? You kinda got lost in the moment there." River says with a small chuckle.

"Um, yeah I fine. I think I just had a flashback or something." I tell him while looking at the tv.

"Wait what really? Mi that's amazing! What was it about?" River is now perked up and his eyes are shining with happiness.

"It was about me watching a movie and a little boy was complaining about me being on it all the time, and my mom telling me to finish my episode and get off. That's like literally all it was." I tell him and he smiles.

"At least your getting somewhere. On the day you woke up too." He says and I return the smile.

"Can we watch The 100? That was the show I was watching on the tv in the flashback, but I can't remember what it's about." I tell him, and he nods.

"Do you want to know what it's about or do you want to actually watch it?" He asks.

"Um I want to know what it's about and if I like it then I want to watch it." I tell him and he laughs. I send him a hard glare, but soon smile when he rolls his eyes. He turns on the show and we read what its about.

From what I can tell, 100 people go to the ground after living on a spaceship. I want to watch it for sure.

"Do you want to watch it?" River asks me and I nod.

"Do you?" I ask him and he smiles.

"It looks good, so why not?" My smile widens and the first episode starts to play.

After three or four episodes, Bradley finally calls us into the kitchen to pick out our toppings. It turns out he made some other things before he even started the dough. On the counter he has all kinds of vegetables and meats and all kinds of stuff.

"Are you cooking for a family that has 20 kids or something?" I pop off before I even think about what I said. I look down, embarrassed and I hear both boys laugh.

"He does this every time he makes pizza because he can eat a lot." River says and It Bradley's turn to look down embarrassed. I giggle and pick out what I want on my pizza.

I choose bacon, green bell pepper, pineapples, peperoni, cheese, and some black olives. After I put the toppings on the way I want, Bradley takes the pizza and puts it in the oven.

"Okay, you guys can go be all lovey and watch your show. I don't need either of you anymore so shew. Leave my area." Bradley kicks both of us out of the kitchen and I laugh when River mumbles it's his kitchen.

"Well we can say he loves the kitchen huh." I laugh even harder at his remark.

"How long have you two been friends for?" I ask him in between my laughing.

"Ever since pre-k when he arrived at our school. We met in the strangest way ever too." He chuckles at the memory.

"How did you guys meet?" I ask him. He sighs and gets right into the story.

"Well on the first day of school, the bathroom signs had been switched. Bradley and I didn't know that so when I went into the bathroom, there he was peeing in the sink. Not know that it was a girls bathroom......we continued to do our business and then a teacher walks in......" I am laughing so hard I can't breathe. I swear you can seriously get abs by laughing.

"Oh that's not the end of it. When the teacher takes us to the office, we both explained how the sign said it was the boys bathroom. The principal didn't believe us, so we had to take him to it but when we got there, the sign had been changed back." River is now full out laughing and I'm dying on the floor. Boys are stupid.

"Yeah, yeah, I know it's funny, but it's not that funny." He says as he is laughing so hard, he is wheezing.  After another three minuets or so of uncontrollable laughter, we die down, but we still giggle thinking about it.

"I can't believe you guys did that. I would've like died." I tell him and he chuckles.

"Yeah, my weren't expecting a call like that from the school that day." I laugh again and he follows after. This feels good. Being able to laugh.

"Okay weirdos, why were you dying just a second ago?" Bradley comes in and asks us. River and I look at each other and laugh again.

I think I'm going to be okay.

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