❛ 13 ─── EX. ༉‧₊˚✧
let's just pretend todoroki
has a standard room bc i-

" I'M SO SORRY. "

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"shou," midoriya spoke softly, stepping into his room. "i need to talk to you."

todoroki's nerves skyrocketed.

the entire day, he had a feeling it would come to this. midoriya had been stealing glances at him the entire day- like he wanted to say something, but too many people were around. so he was already prepared for the knock on his dorm door an hour after school.

todoroki hummed and looked up from his phone in acknowledgement as midoriya sat where he usually did everytime he hung out in todoroki's room, his desk chair. he swivled himself a few times and frowned, "wait- you aren't busy right now, right?"

todoroki shook his head, "not at all, you're fine," he smiled as well as he coud and placed his phone to the side. he was tense and nervous, and he tried to wipe his hands on his pants to get rid of his sweaty, clammy palms. "are you okay?"

"we're best friends, right?"

todoroki paused, but nodded. "i consider you my closest friend, yes. am i yours?"

midoriya nodded quickly, "of course! of course! i just... you can be honest with me about things, okay? like everything. i mean it."

he didn't like where this was going. he was obviously leading up to something, stalling.

todoroki's stomach drop and he tried to keep his breathing calm as his stomach twisted with nerves. he didn't want to have this conversation. todoroki swallowed and chose his words carefully, "did something happen?"

midoriya shook his head, "no..." he sucked in a shaky breath, "but... it's just that i'm... i-i'm sorry," midoriya shook his head, wiping at his eyes, suddenly.

todoroki's eyes widened at the sight of midoriya in tears, "what?" he shifted from his position, on the side of his bed and moved closer to midoriya with a deep frown, "are you okay, izuku? what happened?"

"it-it's you. you and y/n," izuku breathed, words quiet, "i know what's happening, shouto,"

todoroki blinked. he had to think of his response- what was he supposed to say? he'd rehearsed it in his head millions of times if something like this ever happened. if midoriya figured it out before todoroki could own up to what he did.

right, right- get you. text you, call you- it was a conversation for the three of you, right? or now that todoroki was thinking about it... wasn't that unfair to you? it's not like you couldn't sleep with who you wanted.

he snapped his eyes back to midoriya, "izuku. i understand how you-"

midoriya shook his head, "no it's okay, i really understand- i didnt mean to cry about this. it's just... you guys are tip-toeing around me, and avoiding me... i-i've seen you guys hanging out and i'm not someone who gets upset at others for having friends besides me, but i think i'm more upset with myself for making things weird."

wait, what?

midoriya grasped the fabric of his pants tightly between his fingers, tears streaking his freckled cheeks, "with the breakup, and avoiding her, and then asking you for help, it must've been stressful for you to handle. i put you in the middle when i promsied i wouldn't and god, and then the tension between us that i caused for no reason-"

"tension?"

"with the cereal conversation," midoriya threw up an arm in despair. "i know i made things weird, but i was trying to figure out if you guys knowing i was trying to put myself where i didn't belong would make you not want to hang out with me at all, but i didn't know how to bring it up directly- i feel like i ruined things and that's the last thing i wanted to do, i'm so sorry. i wanted us to go back to normal, but-"

what the hell was he even talking about?

todoroki couldn't hear him. his heart was loud in his ear, there was a buzzing and he was pretty sure he was panicking because fuck fuck- what the fuck.

midoriya was blaming you and todoroki's strange behaviour on himself when he was technically the victim in the picture.

"if-if you guys want to distance yourself from me, i completely understand!" midoriya sniffled, his tear filled eyes hard and earnest, expression to determined as his cheeks were stained wet. "i'll give you the space you need- space maybe we all need- until things smooth over, with this tension- and my feelings and us as friends- i p-promise!

"i'm still... just not over her yet and it's weird seeing her spending time with a guy that isn't me- a-and i know it's not like that, i promise i'm not accusing you of anything, but... i'm just a mess. i'm sorry, i'm really a mess, i'm all over the place, and i hate that you guys to feel like you have to hide the fact that you're friends for me. so please, please don't, okay?"

todoroki didn't know what to say.

his face was blank for a solid moment before the corner of his eyes burned and he dropped his head, hair falling over his face as he nodded, "okay." he said quietly. his eyes were wet with unshed tears and his chest felt tighter than his throat.

he couldn't swallow, couldn't breathe, he was shaking with guilt and the urge to just admit his wrong doings was too strong. if he looked midoriya in the eye- he'd tell him everything. "okay izuku, th-thanks."

"okay." midoriya sniffled before todoroki was suddenly pulled into a tight hug. he couldn't even find it him to lift his arms and hug back. midoriya said quietly, "i'm sorry i made you feel like you couldn't tell me how you felt."

and todoroki didn't get the chance to say anything else before the green haired teen rushed out of his dorm.

todoroki covered his face with his hands, breathing deeply, wetting his fingers with his damp eyes. this was all so fucked. how did he make his friend feel like he was to blame for- "ugh," todoroki groaned. he pulled away and looked up at his ceiling for a moment.

he needed to tell midoriya. he had to. and he sure as fuck wasn't doing it alone.

ilyyy <33