EVERYTHING THAT WAS UNSAID
::  ii. | pre homecoming party

School was now over and Sarah was heading to the car where her brother and sister were waiting and well her other siblings —— they had stuff to do.

She slipped in the backseat and just stayed in her little bubble. It was awkward during the car ride home. Since everything happened, they practically walk on eggshells around her. Well not Brandon. He says what he says and he may or may not get in trouble for that.

The car pulled up to the house on the driveway and she got out. Just as she was walking up to the door, Mariana rushed out with open arms and the biggest smile she's ever seen, then wrapped her arms around Sarah.

"Ok . . . happy pills?" Sarah questioned. Last time she was this happy, she took pills. So it was an innocent question.

"She heard about abigail's and wants to go." Callie mentioned from the front door and Sarah slowly nodded understanding.

Mariana unwrapped her from around Sarah. "Seriously? You could've just asked. You didn't have to be so weird about it." Sarah started walking into the house, "I told you to just treat me like how it was before."

Mariana had followed after her, "I can't! Nobody can!"

Sarah was so frustrated. When they wanted something or to talk, they would talk in some sweet tone. Then half the time she walks into a room, they would quiet down like it would trigger her or something. They literally walk on eggshells around her. She just couldn't take it anymore.

She rushed her hand through her hair and turned around to face Mariana, "It was an overdose! I'm still here! I'm not dead!"

"You're right, you're not dead! But that doesn't mean you couldn't have died. You were being selfish and you never even apologized for it!" Mariana lastly said before storming upstairs.

Those words, they didn't hurt Sarah. They just made her more angry. She felt like she wanted to scream. She felt like calling my dealer. It was then she saw her parents hesitantly walking towards her like they could do the wrong thing. Sarah didn't give them a chance to say anything though. Instead, she rushed past them and left out the front door.

As she walked down the sidewalk, she pulled out her phone and called Chanel. She knew Abigail is suppose to pick her up in a few but, she just had to get out of there. So she pressed her name and waited two rings until Chanel answered.

"Hey, so we're not on our way yet so . . . " Chanel said on the other line.

"Yeah, i know. Can you pick me up . . . like now?" Sarah sat on the curb with her legs open.

"Yeah, ok. Be there soon." And with that, the call ended.

Sarah continued to sit on the curb for a good twenty minutes before she saw a car pull up, but it wasn't Chanel's car. She looked more closely and it was one of her brothers, Brandon. He got out the car and walked over to her. No words were said, he just sat next to Sarah. Sometimes silence is the best comfort anyone can have.

As time went by, Chanel finally pulled up. As Sarah got up, she glanced back at her brother and gave him a small smile. She then made her way to the car and got in on the passenger side. Chancel just took off and that was that.

                                           • • •

Time flew and Sarah was now at Abigail's. The party was going on downstairs while she finally decided ( after hours of saying no ) to put a dress on. She snatched the black, thigh high dress off of Abigail's bed. She then proceeded to remove her clothes and slipped in.

Seriously, out of everything other dress in the world, she had to go with this one? That was the only thought that was roaming her mind. After she slipped into the dress, Sarah made her way back down stairs and saw everyone dancing around or drinking.

She walked to the kitchen and jumped on top of the counter to sit. Just as she was scanning the area a bit, a dark haired girl popped into her view.

"So i see a pretty girl in a hot dress, sitting by herself, looking like a bum." The girl jumped and sat beside her on the counter, "Alexa." She told Sarah her name.

"Sarah." She crossed her legs, "But if we're going technical, Sarahjean."

Her and Sarah talked practically a majority of the night. They danced a bit and maybe drank a little.

After a few, Sarah went away for sometime to get her regular dose of heroin. Once she got back, the two girls continued to party as one would say.

After how many hours past, the party was still going on strong. Sarah and Alexa were on the dance floor. They were looking at each other, it was like Alexa was looking deep down into sarah's soul. Before she knew it, Alexa grabbed sarah's hand and dragged her to who knows where.

The two approached a room and she turned the light on. It was a bathroom. She pulled Sarah in, closed the door and locked it.

She was so confused, she didn't know what was happening. Alexa walked over to Sarah and stood in front of her, moving a tiny bit closer. Sarah was oblivious to whatever what was going on. Then Alexa's lips were on on sarah's.

She kissed her, then pulled away.

"I guess you can say I met Sarah in the bathroom." She chuckled.

Sarah chuckled along with her catching the reference, before kissing her back. As their lips moved against each other's, Sarah realized in that moment that she was definitely not even a little bit straight. She wasn' even sure if she was fully gay. All she knew is that she liked what was happening and she was still attracted to the guys that she laid eyes on half the time.

As the night slowly was coming to an end, Alexa and Sarah stayed in the bathroom. They were sitting on the floor with their backs against the wall.

"How did you know I wasn't straight?" Sarah turned her head to look at her.

"I have a vibe —— sort of." Alexa replied.

"I don't want you going around telling people." Sarah mentioned, biting the inside of her cheek. She tends to do that in nerve racking situations.

She knows she has two moms and they would be completely fine with it. She wasn't worried about that. However, she was afraid of looks at school, people not accepting her, or thinking she's changed. She already has too many problems on her plate and she doesn't need anyone else leaving because she likes girls . . . maybe.

"Don't worry. No one knows about me either."  Alexa gave Sarah a small smile which she returned.

a/n:
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