Hawks is oddly a deep sleeper. Him and Ethan don't wake up to anything, which is a little concerning but it's good for me now. All I have to do is go back to the house and get some of my stuff. I don't have much there anyways, just a few clothes if I ever slept at the house and some money. That is if Dad didn't find it. He found the last stash I had and took it. That was a month of hell since I couldn't pay for the heating. It's fine though I pushed through it and I can push through this too. Hawks is letting me stay here for the time being. I can't be a burden here too.  I have to help him with anything he needs. It's only fair.

Ethan already left to Mr. Sho. Hawks saw him off when I was asleep but he must've fell back asleep because he's knocked out on the couch. He let Ethan and I sleep in his bed since he hasn't brought a bed for him yet. I felt bad but he said it wouldn't have been comfortable with his wings anyway so that's what I'm hoping.

On the way back I could get some groceries and make Hawks and Ethan a dinner. No offense to him but I'm pretty sure Hawks can't cook for shit.

"bye hawks." I whisper before closing the door. I left him a note on his refrigerator which I'm hoping he sees. He'd have to eat before his patrol right? yeah.

The walk home isn't a long one. If anything I'd think it's shorter than before. I was hoping to arrive later. He could be home.  Hawks told me he didn't want me to see him again unless it was with him but I lied. I told him he wasn't home today.  It's fine. What he doesn't know won't hurt him.

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I hear the window open and a small breeze comes through. I'm sitting on the middle of my bed. All alone. But not anymore.

"Sitting by yourself in the dark? Pathetic isn't it?" He laughs before walking towards the bed. I hear him drop his jacket and feel the bed dip. "Why so quiet? Thought you'd love to see me."

I glance at him wearily. I'm too tired for this.

"I'm tired. Can we not?" I ask. I can see his eyebrow raise before I turn my attention to something else.

"Okay? Did you just want to lay down?" He brushes through my feathers and I feel him tense once he touches a freshly cut one. "What did you do."

"They called. I don't want to talk about it."

"okay."

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He was asleep. Or so I thought.

"So you don't show up when you're supposed to and you think you can just sneak back in without saying a word to me?" He was there when I left my room. He was standing right outside it. Practically caging me in.

"I didn't mean to sir. I'm really sorry for causing you to worry." I bow my head. The grip on my bag tightens. He didn't take the money I hid, but if he goes looking through my bag now then he'd definitely take it.

"Me? Worried about a pathetic little thing like you? That's hilarious. Even I cared more for your mother and she was a downright whore. But you're more beautiful than she was." was? He steps closer to me to brush my cheek. I rest my face to his palm. "I suppose I can forgive you. But you'd have to tell me where you were. Come on, tell your Dad." His unclipped jagged nails poke at my skin. He drags them down my face before grabbing my chin and pulling my face up. When I look at his face I immediately tense. His eyes are focused and piercing. His patch of hair is cut and he no longer has his scuff of a beard. His blackish grey hair is still somewhat long yet it looks washed and it's pulled back into a ponytail. He's even wearing his glasses again. It's a thin grey rectangle pair that I've only seen him wear whenever he's sober. He's sober. He looks like the pictures. He looks like his age, young.

I smile when I answer. "I was at school."

"Don't lie to me boy." He slaps my face. This isn't so bad. He could do so much worse if he wasn't sober. I should be thankful that he only slapped me. It's discipline. Every parent disciplines their child. It's not-

"I was at the nurse's office. I stayed the night." I chuckle quietly. It's just a little game. I don't need to win. I just have to play and that's fine.

"What for?" He must think I got sent in for the bruises I had. I didn't even go to Recovery Girl. I know that if she healed me then she would see all my injuries. I need to let them fade away before seeing her. I just need to wait it out and take care of any injuries I have in my dorm.

"Injuries during training. I short circuited." I quickly answer. His eyebrow raises and I remember that he doesn't really know about my draw backs. "It's when I use too much of my quirk, I can-"

"I didn't ask nor did I care." He let's go of my face harshly. "And what's with all of this shit. I know damn well I didn't buy you those clothes and even if I didn't I know you couldn't afford anything like that." He smirks. "Oh did I strike a nerve?" He laughs for a bit before zoning into my bag. "What's in the bag? You hiding shit from me again?"

"N-no Sir, it's just a few clothes for school. I thought I should bring some over." And the money. Clothes and the money. The money I purposely hid from him.

"So you were just planning on coming in here, taking your crap and leaving? That's it? No hi Dad? How are you? Nothing." He crosses his arms.

"I thought you were asleep. I didn't want to wake you especially if you had work last night." He doesn't work. At least not that I know of. The most he does is sometimes sells illegal merchandise. Other than that he doesn't do a thing. I can't let him know that I know. Sometimes I slip him a "paycheck" from his job so he can open it in front of me. It's fine though. It's not like I give him all of my pay. Just a reasonable amount so I can still pay for the bills and anything else necessary. Now it's a lot easier since the Aiko is taking care of the kids. I don't need to buy food for them anymore since she takes care of it. It's kind of relieving to have one less thing to worry about. But I shouldn't be thinking like that. The kids are a joy to be around and I'm burdening Aiko by not being capable to watch them on my own.

"You know I wasn't asleep. I was waiting for you." His hand rests on my left shoulder before moving downward. "I was worried. What if something happened to my dear Danuja? I couldn't live with myself knowing that happened." I feel myself tense at the name. The thought of his hand slowly reaching the area isn't relevant anymore. "Come on, let's go have some fun."

"Yes Fumihiro, I'd love to." Like I said. It's better to just go along and play his game. Especially when he's like this.

The bag slips from my hand as he leads me to his bedroom. The moment I hear the door close I close my eyes. I start to peel off the jacket I'm wearing. He comes up behind me and slides his hands down my chest.

"I love you Danuja Kaminari."

"I-I love you t-t too Fumihiro."
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It's gone. H-he took it.

When I woke up it was somewhat dark out. The sun was just setting probably. I had about 3 missed calls, those from Aiko and 2 new texts. One from Hawks and the other is Shinsou. I decided that maybe my voice isn't the best for talking at the moment. I'd just have to call Aiko back another time. Though I can open the texts.

Hawks' is simple. Just a short little message 'you didn't run away did you?' I snort at the text before replying, 'you wish'.

Shinsou's isn't so simple.

'We need to talk.'

Talk about what? The rumors? Did they actually tell him I am the U.A. traitor? All Might, I don't want to go back to school tomorrow. With all their states and the pity from Momo. I just can't take it. So I don't answer him. I leave his message on read before shutting off my phone.

I look around my room to see it bare. I hope he didn't rummage through it when I was asleep. There's nothing left here but it still doesn't mean that I found a sense of comfort in this room. He's never done anything to me here. It's kind of a safety room. Whenever I need it. He can still drag me out, but that's fine.

When I woke up he was gone. And the money too. He must've stopped when I blacked out then proceeded to check my bag. He probably went to the club tonight. Maybe that's why he was sober when I came. He ran out of money. It's surprising to think about since he has a drawer where he hides his own. I guess he used it all for something. He should've used it for food. I haven't cooked for the house in weeks. He's starting to become too lean. Maybe I should leave him a meal next weekend.

It's not important right now. What I need to do is go back to Hawks' apartment. I left for longer than I intended. Maybe he was patrol or paperwork to do today. I should check what kind of foods he has in his fridge. Since Dad took the money I can't buy groceries. And I'm pretty sure Hawks can't cook. I wonder what Ethan has been eating then. 

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I went to knock on the door, but I saw the door is slightly. Unless Ethan came and didn't close the door all the way I couldn't see a reason why it's open. Hawks is a pro hero, he'd be able to take care of any danger. But what if he's not home? But at a pro hero's home? That's crazy. I hope so. I close my eyes before pushing the door open. I peak a bit at the floor before slowly raising my here.

"What the fuck?!" They're on the couch. Making out. Hawks and Dabi. The same Dabi that's a villain. The same Dabi that targets my class. The same Dabi that kidnapped one of my best friends. "Get off of him at least!" I yell at Dabi who is pinning my mentor down on the couch. He lifts his hands in the air before getting off of him. He stands next to the couch while Hawks calls all his feathers back. He stumbles over his feet as he walks up to me.

"Denki! Denki oh you're back much sooner than I thought! When I texted you and you didn't answer I assumed you left for the day." He laughs sheepishly while scratching the back of his neck. His hair is all ruffled and his clothes are in disarray. 

"And so you decided to fuck a villain when I was gone?! Not only that but he's one of the most dangerous villains! He's targeted my class multiple times! He probably still is!" I point at him and he just shrugs back. When I look at Hawks he's just glancing back and forth between us. "Well?!" 

"Oh my god is this Dabi?! Damn, I knew he looked familiar! I didn't even notice...." His voice dies out in the end. 

"Cut the bullshit!"

"Well it seems like a little birdy got himself in trouble and so I guess that's my que to leave. " He walks closer to us which makes me shuffle away. He looks at me before sighing and standing in front of Hawks. He whispers something in Hawks ear which makes his eyes widen before giving him a kiss. He glances back at me before walking over to Hawks' bedroom. I hear the window shut and fall to the floor.

"He goes through the window!" I yell at Hawks but he doesn't seem to notice. His face is still in shock since Dabi whispered whatever to him. What did he say? Is it bad? 

"Stay quiet." He slaps me before pressing hands on my neck. "Pathetic, you actually listened? What? Do you think I'd hurt you? No, Daddy would never." He whispers the last part in my ear. 

Oh god I think I'm going to be sick.

I rush up off the floor and run to bathroom. I keep the light off and collapse in front of the toilet. It doesn't take me long to throw up, I do it almost instantly. I wasn't able to brush my teeth at the house. I couldn't even change my clothes. Everything is still there. The taste is still there. It's still on me. Still in me. 

I need to shower.

"denki." it comes out as a whisper. I wouldn't have been able to hear it above my gagging but he was closer than I thought. "what happened."

"I-i I." I break down into sobs. I've never had anyone with me after it happens. I've always kept a brave face for the kids and I never told anyone else what happened. Hawks doesn't even know about this.

"You went home. He was there wasn't he." I slowly nod my head. His arms wrap around my head and shoulders as he pulls me closer to his chest. I let myself cling onto his shirt. "God Denki, what did he do." I can tell him. He said he'd help me. It's okay now.

"H-he was so sweet." I tighten my grip. "He only gets like this when he's sober. I didn't mean to look so much like her! I didn't mean to remind him!" It's my fault. If I didn't look so much like her then this would've never happen. I was the one who started it that day. If I could just go back and change it all!

"It's not your fault. It's never the victim's fault. No matter what you did he would've done it eventually, so you can't blame yourself for this. Okay? Say it."

"I-i It's not my fault."

"That's right. It's not our fault." His hand that's rubbing my head is nice. Peaceful almost which is surprising for him. It makes me want to take a nap.

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"No offense to you or your horrid cooking, but I just don't think I can stomach food right now." I try to smile at the "soup" in front of me. If you could even call it soup.

"I'll have you know Ethan loves my cooking."

"Ethan loves everything. He wouldn't know the difference between back cooking and good cooking."

"Well I'm hurt." He takes his empty bowl and my full one to the sink in the kitchen. According to him I passed out on the bathroom floor and woke up an hour later. I'm glad Ethan isn't home yet.

I took a shower immediately after and cleaned my mouth. If Hawks asks, I didn't throw up a second time while doing it. Hawks acted like nothing happened anyways. Which I'm kind of thankful for. I wouldn't know what to do if all of a sudden he was pampering me. Though I know he'll talk about it soon. It's just not now.

"So." I clear my throat. "Are you a villain or-."

"A villain!" He cuts me off. "What makes you think that?!"

"Well you were just making out with Japan's #2 villain in your own apartment as if it was nothing. Unless he was forcing you.... oh my god Hawks was he forcing yo-."

"No no. T-Dabi has never forced himself on me. He always asked me. I always had a choice." He looks at me to make sure I get it. "Look I know this seems bad but I have a reasonable explanation for why I'm close with Dabi."

"There is literally no way that you can prove to me that kissing Dabi, a villain might I add, on the couch is justifiable."

"You see I." He points to himself.

"Mmhm?"

"Amaspyintheleagueofvillains."

It takes me a moment to process. "You're a what?!"

"See, justifiable."

"Hawks isn't that dangerous! You didn't have to accept my offer to watch Ethan!"

"So you're just going to brush over the whole spy thing?"

"Well you're a pro hero, it's probably top secret information. And even though it doesn't explain why you are dating or at least hooking up with Dabi, I trust you. I don't like the guy, and I'd rather not see him or any other member of the league I feel like you've gotten close with them and I'm not going to ruin that if it makes you happy."

"Kid-,"

"But they better not hurt Ethan! I don't want Ethan to meet them."

"Funny you mention it..."

"They've met Ethan." He shakes his head yes. "And Ethan likes them doesn't he." He nods. "And they like him back." He laughs. 

"I'm so DONE WITH YOU! Hawks get back here so I can electrocute you!" Hawks runs out of the kitchen and into his room.

"And why would I want that?!"

"He's a child, he'll like anything you throw at him!"

"Well you should've told me that first before agreeing to let me watch him! These are essential things every parent should know!"

"Oh so now you're his parent!"

"Of course I am! Are you jealous?!"

"Of course not!"

"Awww that's okay! Since you're my little brother maybe you could be his uncle!" He jumps on the bed.

"I'm not your little brother!"

"Classic little brother sayings!"

"Oh my god!"

You know, I'm starting to like this.