"Fuck!" Empty.

It can't be. Please no............ what am I supposed to do now?

"Woah, you good bro?" Kirishima stopped walking after noticing I was behind the group. We were just at the school gates. If I can just stop being selfish for one second he wouldn't need to be worried about me.

"Yeah, just shocked myself." Just laugh it off. Stupid Denki doing stupid things, as always. Kirishima already has a lot on his plate anyway. I can see the bags under his eyes from the lack of sleep. How long have you been up worrying about him?

'Sparky is just being a dumbass.' I bet Kacchan would say, but he's not here. Not with us.

"Yeah, how can you shock yourself with your own quirk dummy!" Mina joked. She's struggling too. I can see the strain in her smile, she's trying to lift everyone's spirit after the event. She shouldn't have to do that though. Behind her is Sero, who's trying to form a smile, but he just can't. They're all hurt, while I'm over here thinking about my own problems. How selfish could I be?

"Ha, I know right!" Maybe if I smile, they wouldn't have to be hurting so much.

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"As you can see here..." Mr. Aizawa isn't okay either. He's always had bags under his eyes. I think it's because he works at night, but this whole Bakugou ordeal has been hard on him. A lot of people blame him for Kacchan getting kidnapped, while his parents just cry to him in hope that it'll motivate him to find Bakugou faster. Our whole class isn't even here. A portion of us are at the hospital right now, which I don't even want to think about. 

We had a couple of days off, but we decided as a group to show up to school today. Maybe act as if everything is normal? But there's no Bakugou yelling, no mumbling from Midoriya, and just the general happiness is gone. I'm trying to lift everyone up, but it's hard. I'm only one person....... that shouldn't be an excuse though.

If only I was born smarter, then maybe I could make a plan, or at least focus on what Mr. Aizawa is teaching. I glance back at him instead of the wall. Yeah, he's still talking. I'm not all that lost, I think, but when did we get this far in the chapter. Aren't we in the beginning of this?

"Kaminari. If you could pay attention to what we're learning, that would be nice." He's staring me down. I can feel it. I don't like this feeling. Everyone around me is snickering. I turn to look at my peers, Mina is struggling to hold in a laugh, for a moment Sero's smile comes back up, and Kirishima is sighing behind me like a disappointed mother. At least they're happy.

"Oh, uh sorry."

"Maybe now you can tell us why this matter is important?"

What matter? I look back at the board. 

I can't understand a thing.

I didn't even know we got this far.... 

"I- uh." My eyes dart from information to information on the board to maybe find something that looks familiar, to trigger my memory, or maybe just a clue. I come with nothing. "No I can't. sorry" I drop my head low. I can't look at that disappointing look on his face that he always gives me. I just can't.

"As always." He says softly. I know he isn't mad at me, right? He's probably just tired from the lack of sleep? That must be the reason why! It's not because I'm a complete fuck up and can't focus to the point where I don't even know what chapter of the subject we're on. That can't be it!

I'm fine. I'm okay.

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"We were planning on going to the hospital to check up on Midoriya and everybody. Did you want to come with us? You know, the more the merrier!" Kiri offered. Everybody has been going to the hospital at least everyday to see the rest of the class. I haven't been going at all.

"I'd love to, but you know I gotta go home right after school, Kiri." I have responsibilities. I wish that wasn't the excuse, but I seriously have things that I need to take care of after school and I just can't miss them. I sound like a shitty friend, don't I?

"Can't you just come home late? We know you aren't really doing anything at your house anyway. Plus these are your friends we're talking about, Kaminari! We can't just abandon them!" Mina pouted. I know everybody is probably mad at me for not showing up to these visits, but I can't just spend my whole day at the hospital.

"I really can't guys." Usually they just let me go. Go off and do whatever I have to. Wonder why today's different.

"What are we supposed to say to Jirou when she asks where you are? Just say that your home because you didn't want to see her. Didn't want to see one of her best friends? It's as if you don't care, Kami. The whole class is going because our friends got hurt trying to protect others and you just want to go home and play video games all day. We know it's not studying or homework." Mina lashed out.

"How do you know I'm not studying. I'm a very studious guy." I tried to joke. I want to change the subject. I don't like where this conversation is going.

"Not to be rude, Kami, but your the lowest in the class. I thought you just didn't care enough to study." Sero was rubbing at his arm. I know he probably didn't mean it in a hurtful way, probably just an observation or a guess. Doesn't mean it didn't hurt my feelings though. I thought him of all people would understand that I try.

"Getting a F just means that my papers are fantastic!" I stretch my arms up. Just keep smiling, and maybe they'll smile too.

"It means fail, Kami." Sero's eyes are glued to the floor.

"God, can't you take anything seriously! You're always joking around and yeah it's funny, but we're trying to be heroes here! None of us were strong enough to save Bakugou, and you definitely can't! You can't even control your quirk! You've had it since you were 4, what were you doing the whole time? At least Midoriya is saving people when he breaks his arms, you just go stupid and become even more of a burden! If you don't get your shit together, your probably gonna be expelled!" Mina exclaims before she storms off. 

"Wait, Mina!" Sero chases her. He's probably gonna go calm her down. I don't know.

I don't try hard enough, maybe that's why? But I'm trying right now! Is it not good enough?

"You know she's not serious. Kami, she's just upset over the whole Bakugou thing and lashed out her feelings at you. You know she's insecure about her quirk and everything. You don't have to go to the hospital with us. We understand, your parents are probably worried about you, more than ever. Your super strong too! Don't doubt that!" Kiri outs his hand on my shoulder, but it feels as if it's adding more weight. 

"Ha, Yeah! I'll give Mina her distance. Let her cool off a bit. This must be hard on everyone, I should respect that. Maybe next time I can go?" I guess I can miss one day. If it's for my friends.

"Definitely! I'll tell Jirou, see ya!" He waves off before joining Mina. She'll probably talk about me on the way there. Hopefully she'll want to say sorry tomorrow, but until then I'll just leave her alone. It's better if I don't annoy people like I usually do.

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"I work my ass off, and all you can do is sit there and fail?! What the fuck is this! A 45 on a test?!"

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Goddammit Denki! How could you be so stupid?! I thought maybe I didn't check hard enough this morning, or maybe my eyes were playing tricks against me, but no. It's empty. I'm screwed. This makes no sense! How could they be empty?! Didn't I just refill them? I knew I should've gotten the larger pack, but the STUPID doctor said to wait! I shouldn't have waited! 

I don't even think I have the money for it this time, do I? If I pick up overtime at the market and maybe convince Mr. Akagi to let me stay just an hour or so later..... but I have to do grocery shopping this week, plus the water and electricity bill for last month. It's already been a week. To make matters worse it's winter and getting cold..... I'd have to buy coats and boots. Maybe a couple of hats and gloves? Oh, and the book for Haru! I can't forget that, I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if I did. That's already ...... $1474?! I didn't even include the pills. The pills! Maybe I could wait a month or so for the them and don't buy any personal items they'll be fine. Right? 

God I hope so.