I looked around and all I saw was thin pieces of wood I moved some of it around just to see if there was any of our stuff left I saw a couple pieces of burnt bread and I saw some burnt cards from our deck and burnt cigarettes then I saw something that was fairly burnt I picked it up and it was gone with the wind I opened it and a few corners of the pages were burnt and some of the sentences weren't finished because of the fire it burned it as I was holding it I thought to myself this is the last thing I have of Johnny "Ponyboy you alright?" Two-Bit asked from his truck then walking towards me I handed him the book and he rubbed it over a few times to see what it was "oh" is all he could say "didn't you read this to Johnny?" he asked. I nodded and said "can you take me to the dairy queen up there" I pointed to the road that Dally took us down to get food "sure let's go" he daid then he handed me the book back I was looking through the pages again who will listen to me read? Then my mind switched from Johnny to Dally and I looked out the window and I fely as if I was with him in the car that day we went to Dairy Queen "Dallas don't drive crazy" I said then I looked at the drivers seat and it wasn't him I was kinda embarrassed but mostly hurt even though me and Dally weren't so much on speaking terms like everyone else I still miss him he was the cocky one in the gang the fighter the pretender everybody needs someone like that in their life "sorry kid, I ain't Dallas" Two-Bit said I looked down at the floor board of the truck then we turned into the Dairy Queen and I got a barbeque sandwhich with french fries and a coke Two-Bit parked in the same spot we were at that day and he started eating I wasn't eating that much I was just looking around. "Shoot I know its hard not to think about Johnny and Dally but could you try? I mean you eating the fun outta the gang by making people worry about you, we lost them to but you still have to live your life just like we are I cared about them I did but you have to move on just be your old self" Two-Bit said breaking the silence I ate a french fry and for once I thought about what he told me I never think about what anyone tells me because its always the same with people saying how I need to move on and get a life and stuff well its not that simple when your best friend died because of you and its not that simple when you finally figure out that Dally is a good friend and then its too late to actually get to know him instead of always by passing him like I used to. Finally I got mad at people not understanding how I feel but saying that they do so I said "No you do not know how I feel just because you say that you know how I feel to comfort me doesn't mean that you do, you don't understand how mr and Johnny were we were the closest out of all of y'all me and Johnny were real close friends and he would actually listen to me unlike all of you and as for Dally he might not have been the sharpest greaser around and we never really talked but I still feel bad because-" I got cut off by Two-Bit saying "Ponyboy calm-" I cut him off by saying "it's all my fault" then it got quiet I felt my face get hot and my vision was blurring and then I just the tears fall "if wasn't for me to jump out of the car and go in the burning church Johnny would still be alive if Johnny was still alive then so would Dally its all my fault" I said then I sighed and looked out the window again "I knew you felt something but I didn't know you felt like that" Two-Bit said "come on let's just go home" I said. Then he started the truck and we were on our way home the car ride was silent until Two-Bit said "Dallas is something different" I didn't quite know what he meant so I didn't say anything so he continued "you know everyone thinks they knew him but honestly only you and Johnny knew who he really was" I was still quiet "look at it this way, Dallas always got what he wanted he wanted to die because he couldn't live without Johnny and Johnny probably couldn't live with himself knowing that there were kids in that church and you and him just let it burn down on them so don't blame yourself" he finished I said "yeah" then we were at my house I think Two-Bit was right I'm not sure it does sound like a good way to think but maybe he's only right about Dally I got out of the truck and stopped walking when I got to the porch I sat on the steps and looked at the sky it was almost night then I did something I haven't done in a while I watched the sunset and I held gone with the wind in my hands and somehow I felt okay with Johnny dying and Dally to I went inside and everyone was talking and laughing just as they did with Johnny and Dally around. "Hey pony whatcha got there?" Soda asked reffering to the book I looked down at it and said "the book me and Johnny were reading when we was down in windrexville" "well how'd you get it?" he asked I looked at Darry then said "Two-Bit took me" Darry looked at me and then back down at the newspaper I sat on the couch "no bedroom today? Wow" Steve said shocked and sarcastic because I didn't walk straight to my room when I got home. I shook my head no then he laughed lightly then I looked over at the door and I remembered when Dally used to come here drunk as ever ready to play poker I looked at the tv for a few seconds then back at the door and I saw Dally walking in I looked away then looked back and he was standing in the doorway I gave him the weirdest look and he just smiled. "Ponyboy you alright?" someone said but I didn't care to answer I was to focused on how Dally was here "hey" he said "pony" Darry said then I looked at Darry abd back at the door and he was gone I got a little mad because even though he wasn't really there it was still nice to see an old friend "what are you doing?" soda asked I just looked at the tv and didn't answer. "Everything alright?" he asked I just nodded "can we talk?" soda asked uh I ish he would just leave me alone but me being me I got up anyways and walked to our room Soda sat next to me on the bed "so why were you so intrested in the front door? Everyone wants to know" he said I didn't want anyone to know because I'd just get messed with more so I just shrugged "ah come on pony you can tell me" I shook my head no then I got up and started walking around then I think I heard a knock on the front door so I walked to the front door and no one was there I stepped out and looked at the sky just like I did when me and Johnny looked at them at the lot I almost fell asleep then I looked away from the sky and I saw someone almost like Johnny walking down the street "pony its time to come in" Darry said opening then closing the screen door I stood up from the steps and walked over to him "Johnny?" I said "hey pony how you been?" Johnny asked man was I happy to see him "a wreck without you abd Dally" I said he laughed and looked at my house and said "everyone in there?" I nodded and said "come on inside its freezing" he smiled and we started walking up the porch steps I didn't really know how Johnny got here but I didn't care as long as I had my friend back "looks just the same as always" he said I laughed and walked inside then Johnny came to "hey guys" I said happy "well look ho came around" Two-Bit said everyone was stunned that I even said hi I looked at Johnny then back at them "so where were you?" Soda asked "I was at the street in front of our house with Johnny" said then I moved over a  bit so they could see Johnny he walked up a little "Ponyboy are you okay?" Soda asked "yeah" I said confused they all gave me confused looks "Johnny's back" I said smiling thinking now I just need to find Dally "um no pony Johnny's not here" Soda said me an Soda were the only ones talking everyone else was just watching like an audience "well sure he is, see" I said pointing at Johnny then looking at him "I think the kid's lost it" Two-Bit said then everyone starting laughing "didn't know you could put on such a good act for so long pony" Steve said which made me mad I looked over to where Johnny was and he wasn't there anymore that tore my anger that they were just laughing and they didnt even care to know that it hurt my feelings. I picked up something glass and threw it at the wall it wasn't a big decoration but it sure did make a sound everyone stopped laughing and making jokes and I just stood there looking at them.