My dearest friend,
You're gone. Taken from this world too soon. There are no words to describe how i feel at this moment in time, as the realization that you are gone hasn't set in yet. It feels wrong to say that "she was" "she wanted" instead of "she is" and "she wants" but you have just been taken from this world too soon. The years we spent together are ones that I will never forget and cherish until I see you again. You were one of my very best friends from a very young age, you made me laugh, you made me cry, and everything in between. Do you remember that one time during school where you stole my phone all day? You wouldn't give it back until lunch. I can't remember why we did that, just that it was cool and we wanted to. Do you remember the stories we said we were going to write? The Youtube channel we were going to start? The endless phone conversations? The secret text messages? Do you remember when we stopped being friends?
It seems like just yesterday we found each other again, that our friendship was never really gone. I miss the way we used to talk like it was the end of the world. I miss hearing the sound of your voice. 
I just miss you.
But that fateful night just days ago, your life was taken. You were called to his side to serve and protect, finally earning your angel wings, leaving us all behind.
I try not to think about how it happened, or why it happened. All I can register is the picture of your car against the tree and wondering the terror that you must have felt and if it was quick and painless or if those flames licked at your body until you just couldn't hold on anymore. I wish something could be done so we could all go back and change what happened, so we could all have just one more moment with you, one last look, one last conversation, one last hug.
Had I know that June 14, 2018 would be the last time I saw you wandering the school hallways and laughing in class, the last time you'd ever sit in a desk and learn things to help us in the future, I would have told you just how much you meant to me. How much I valued our friendship. How much I wish we'd never given our friendship up. I would. I would do it all in a heart beat. And I wouldn't regret a thing.
But time cannot be altered and the past cannot be changed. But I will say this, I truly valued you as a friend, you were there for me when no one else was. You knew the old me, the me that I had lost, but you helped me to find her and bring her back again. You made me realize how much a friend can impact your life and change you, help you see.
I wish I could have told you that.
As I remember the good memories and the bad, I smile knowing that you are where everyone truly belongs, and that you'll guide all of those who loved you and continue to love you, that you give us all the strength and all of the love to continue on without you. That you make each and every day of my life worth living, so that one day, when my time is up and I can no longer hold on, that you'll be there, waiting for me to come home.
This is my last and headrest goodbye to you my dear friend. And I do not write it lightly. I will miss you every day of my life with every fiber of my being.
I love you, and miss you.

Rest easy my friend, for now you are home.

"For no one is cast off
    by the Lord forever.
Though he brings grief, he will show compassion,
    so great is his unfailing love.
For he does not willingly bring affliction
    or grief to anyone."
- Psalms 4-5

In loving memory of J.E.B

Love, Cami