Dear (c/n),

I was meaning to send you this letter but I was too scared to send it thinking it might be weird for the both of us, it took me a lot of courage to write this to you and to write all of my feelings towards you. (C/n), I really liked you ever since we were in 5th grade I never knew EXACTLY why I liked you very much maybe it's because the way you look, and how you would make us laugh and you're always there for me at good and dark times... you would stand up for your friends and never make us feel left out. I've always admire you're kindness and how you treat other people and many other things that I can't describe. To be honest up until now my feelings weren't very clear to me and I'm still trying to understand them so I played the denying game. When we were in the 7th grade I stopped having a crush on you ever since I found out that you already with someone, I'd be lying if I said that it didn't really bothered me in the slighthest, it did and I felt so shattered and I was trying to get the pain to go away and try distracting myself but it didn't work I didn't even realized that I was keepping my distance towards you... until you sent me a message and asked me why I'm avoiding you ever since that day I didn't respond because I didn't know what to say, well now to answer your questions you know why I was avoiding you that day because I don't wanna feel the pain I felt when I see you with her I don't wanna feel like the 3rd wheel with you guys and I don't wanna be in the way between you two and I don't wanna be reminded everytime that I lost you to someone else. What am I even hoping for why would someone like you like someone like me? It's not like there's anything admirable about me, and I hated myself for feeling like this towards my best friend and for feeling very awkward. Before you could even blame yourself don't, just forget about everything I said on the letter earlier, I'm sorry for worrying you and for making this weird as it already is I just wanted to get all my feelings out because this has been eating me for years, and sorry for not letting you know either I was just too scared to say anything and I was afraid that I'm gonna lose you as my best friend and I don't want that. Don't worry about me, I'm not okay now but someday I'll be, as long you're happy then I'm okay with that even of it's painful, just keep smiling for me and be you be the (c/n) that I knew I'm not really good at expressing my feelings but I hope you managed to understand this I'll try to stay positive and happy for you and follow every advice you gave me.

Yours truly,
Anonymous

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A/n: whew! That was intense I nearly cried when I was writing this, because this actually happened to me. I guess my fear got the best of me... I never realized I had a crush on him until I noticed how I acted towards him. Anyways, I hope you enjoy!! (o^▽^o)

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