Disclaimer :" Another one shot written during the time of the show ,this disclaimer is for the purpose of letting you know the end may not be what you expect "
                                 

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Swara Sanskar Maheshwari had a moral compass that always lead her every decision in her life , when her own sister tried to kill her and separated her parents . It was the first time she let her heart dictate the terms by bending the rules a little by entering her sister sasural as Sanskar bride when she wasn't even married to him .

She didn't like lying to her family but she had no other way , and when her sister continued to make her life harder by lies and deceit , she continued to fight with her in the right way as per her moral compass.

Except Sanskar ,her partner in crime had been the one who believed in results than the way , it was the reason he went as far as using her as a pawn in his revenge until he stopped when he learnt how it had been affecting her. 

It was the reason in his  quest to  help her ,he had went to extremes like kidnapping laksh , like almost strangling her sister and even placing sindhoor on her forehead just to shut up his cousin.

And each time she told him ,why his methods were wrong and tried to get him back on track and follow her plan, and he always understood her . Except the one time when he  failed to listen to her.

They been through a lot together that she had never imagined there would come a point when Sanskar would do something  that will make to impossible for her to forgive him .
 

Now six months later , after she walked away from her sasural .  Swara was  going back home with Laksh and her sister .

Just as she vowed to do so and because she always followed her instincts and it lead her to Laksh this time ,she had insisted Sanskar follow the trail of Laksh stolen phone but he failed to listen to her and so she did it instead                 

Though her husband did come and help her fight off the goons during one such instance of her mission. But he didnt choose to listen to her first. And once again he was wrong not to trust her. As all those leads did lead her to find Laksh. It was Pari bhabhi and her mom who had kidnapped Laksh and this time she send them to jail while she may have forgiven her bhabhi for helping rajat kidnap her .

She couldn't quite forgive anyone threatening her sister happiness .  And now just like she wanted her family was happy, Bade maa was  literally crying with those ever shone gratitude towards her, Bade papa once again declared her as the daughter of the house, her father in law stood silent as always and even her mother in law thanked her for bringing back Laksh.

And most important of all, her sister was happy to be back in her husband arms. Swara was happy and content and there is one more list to be ticked off, that to face off her husband and let him know how wrong he was in not to trust her.

He was apparently searching for a clue in some other city, he should have listen to her instead and then bade papa has to call him to let him know about laksh return. He is on his way back home. Swara was happy, that one she talked with him everything would return back to normal. 

It took him few hours to return, and Swara was waiting for him, for some reasons those few hours were the only time she was actually thinking about his reaction,would he be angry she found laksh , would he be still break his relationship with her , and those few hours she really beginning to worry a lot.

But when he entered the house he was smiling and that somehow calmed her down. He immediately went to see his brother completely ignoring her who was waiting for him.

And as the door was locked what he talked with Laksh she didnt get to know but then he walked out and headed straight towards her. For the first time in this six months Swara was scared as she really didnt know how her husband would react.

" I am sorry. I should have listened to you, lucky told me how you found him and Thanks for bringing back my cousin home " her husband spoke up making her feel like a weight was lifted off her chest .

He apologized , She was happy ,maybe he is not angry on her anymore. After all she did save laksh. His apology calmed down her anger at him for not listening to her . And as always she love to forgive anyone who apologies, so she did.

" It okay Sanskar, I  am just glad Laksh is back . I know you were angry hence choose not to listen to me, but Sanskar finding laksh was important you should have listened but anyway it all fine now right." Swara graciously forgave him with a smile , happy that things could return to normal now .

" Yeah ,everything is fine" , he answered back and walked away leaving her more confused .

Isnt  it the time to talk about them she wondered , Why did he leave just after the apology.  And the fact that might he still be angry refused to surface into her brain.

So she decided to wait for him as being back means lot to catch up with her family , but when it has been an hour and still no sign of him, she decided to go and have a talk with him.

Totally clueless about the storm that brewing on the other side. She opened their room door and entered.And his words stopped her in her tracks.

" You should knock before you enter into someone else room . Swara." her husband words stopped her in tracks

 Shock would be an understatement. What was happening ,it was her room too. He used to love when she called it our room, now what happened. Before she could speak up he continued.

 " And let forget about knocking , i would be grateful if you didnt enter this room ever again " he finished speaking up. 

" What are you saying Sanskar, This is our room and are you still angry at me. Do you still want to punish me. Fine do whatever you want,as i said before i will accept any punishment."  Swara replied back hurt that he can't see beyond his ego and anger          

          
" Punishment, How can i punish someone who just saved my brother. And ended my torture of being blamed guilty for no crime of mine. My whole family is happy Swara "he spoke up with sarcasm dripping out each of those words .

"Then why are you rude towards me"she  asked him affronted by his words .

" You really dont get it ,do you Swara. Okay fine, I thought this would be the case. So let me explain . I am grateful you found laksh and i apologized for not trusting you that one time.

But it doesn't change anything between us. And actually my decision remains the same.  Our relationship is broken beyond repair. So let us not try to mend it. Talking about it will only reopen the scars .So let just not talk about it "her husband back making her furious

" You cant just break up without telling me the reason, Why are you angry at me. Laksh is found . Everything is okay now. Why are you still holding on to the ego of being right " She lashed back at him

"  Really , I am the one trying to prove i am right. It was you trying to prove i am guilty of laksh going missing , it was you trying to prove your methods of trying to reunite the family was right and my anger was so wrong, and you know what i did, just searched like an maniac for six months to prove i didnt kill my brother and i am not guilty .

I need to prove to you ,my family that my brother is alive and safe. And it not my fault that he went missing, And that why i am thankful, you ended this torture of mine.

My cousin is found, so now i dont have to spend sleepless night waking up with an nightmare that something horrible happened to my brother ,or an nightmare when all of you accuse me for being the reason for his death. So yeah i am happy my cousin is back home safe and sound and i am free from this never ending blame.

And yes i wanted to bring him back home to show you that i really cared about my cousin and to prove to you that i really searched for him. But well i also wanted  not to be proved right but to prove how wrong you were for blaming me like that.

Yes i took a stone to throw at my brother and it makes me a murderer in your eyes , so be it but where did the swara who fact check everything went when it came to me , did I kill my cousin, did you see with your very own eyes that I killed him.

When you blamed me for Ragini's kidnapping , in some way I understood given how prone I was to reckless plans but I appreciated the fact you came to me with your doubts instead of the police , a time when we were just friends .

But when  laksh went missing , you just didnt blame me and asked me to explain as before then i would have told you even back then that i had nothing to do with laksh's disappearance.  Instead, you went as far as to declare my punishment. 

Because you know nothing would get me hurt more than you walking away from my life, haven't I lost  you countless time before and haven't I told you how each time destroyed him.

Yet you walked away six months ago because you was trying to make a point. It was loud and clear ,Swara . " he answered back leaving her speechless.

          
" Because i was angry, you didn't listen to him when i was trying to say to you not to fight with laksh, and laksh went Missing and it was all because you didn't listen to me" Swara spoke up haven't she spend countless night wishing sanskar listened to her once before reacting in anger .

" Really and what about you.Did you listen to him when i told you not to try and reunite us, Did you.  Have you ever listened to me swara, you do what you want to do regardless of how i feel. And i didnt leave you for that but you did" he answered back in anger .

" Well you did broke our relation in the phone because you were angry as well , I said all those things to you that day because I was angry and so did you ,If I could get past those words why can you " Swara asked her husband .

" Yeah i did in an moment of anger, words i really didnt mean . But still that  why i begged you not to go and asked for one more chance. Because i did accept i crossed the line in anger . But you didnt.

Swara i fell for you because you forgiven someone who did great injustice to you. And i really really thought you were an amazing person whom i don't deserve. And i tried to stand by you through thick and thin, i faltered once and you walked out. If that how strong our relationship was then i am sorry to say i dont want to be a part of it. ", he answered back without anger that it scared her more .

And Swara broke down when the enormity of his words finally began to make it way into her mind. Her tears still bothered him. And this time there was no white kerchief, and no hands that wiped her tears. He remained as stone faced as he can possibly be, It hurt him to see her cry, but well one moment of weakness she will know there is still hope for them and he doesn't want her to believe in that.

She slowly made her way out of his room but turned around to ask him one question that might haunt her forever.

"Sanskar, Why do i always suffer, am i that bad. Dont i deserve happiness What did i do so  wrong that i always had to suffer" she asked him that stripped him out of all his anger .

                 
" You are not wrong Swara but right. This might hurt to hear it from me, But i know you more than you do. So i had to say it. Because i hope you dont hurt yourself like this again. You try so hard to be right swara.

Wanna know why because the famiy you cherish as your own ,never accepted you without being perfect. They would ask for proof of your innocence each time before accepting you as your sister,daughter,grand daughter, daughter in law.

And each time you would do everything,  under the sky to prove it to them and i will stick by your side because i know you love them. And i had enough of it, so asked you to stop trying to fix everything but you weren't able to let go, So you went ahead .

 And i was hurt, Do you know why you left me because you thought i was wrong. I ruined your grand reunion plans. And you took out your anger on the one person who don't need any proof to stay by your side.

And you turned like them, you asked me to bring back laksh and prove my innocence . If i want you to be part of my life. You did the same just like them Swara. And i dont think i can ever move on from that.

 Also you thought if you were right, i would take you back as my wife too. Because you think why would i not do it when you were right. I am sure that why you look so confused about us. But you did forget Swara. I didn't need you to be right to love you, i just needed you to be my side without leaving me.

And it too late ,and there is nothing we can do about it , I can lash out at you millions times but that all useless. So let just end it now. And i am sorry that i become a part of your life, i know you love this full circle of family but you always gonna miss the puzzle that will be me.

Learn to live on without me swara. I am just a puzzle piece in your life. And learn to live without your family too,you might lose those puzzle pieces tomorrow. Learn to live for you Swara. Try to be happy with what you got and just move on. "he spoke up once again .

" How can you just ask me to move on, Can we be okay without each other.  What happened to your love the declaration that you will go crazy with out me. How can you simply let me go for one mistake of mine, yeah i admit it was a huge one" Swara asked him instead

" Because i am already crazy Swara. For the past six months i was crazy. Each minutes, each second i felt like i might go crazy but i gotten used to that feeling by now. I got the drinks which i assured you i would never drink.

Dont worry, i still love myself more than you. Well lying i love myself a little less than you but nevertheless i do ,so i wont kill myself. I will try to survive each passing day as i did for the past six months. And i really hope you can do that too. Because it over between us.", he answered back

"  Sanskar, Cant you give me one more chance.I admit i refused to give you one. But why should you make the same mistake as i did.Just one chance." She had resorted to pleading with him. 

" I would love too Swara. But i cant, wanna know why. I lost trust in us. I lost trust in our love. I believed it was powerful enough to bring you back from dead but now i dont believe in us. And without trust no relationship can hold strong, So why try to fix something that can break later."had been his answer .

" I still do trust in us Sanskar, Maybe someday, you will find it in you to forgive me.I will wait till then. Because as you said, i don't give up on my ideal family and i don't intend to start now.

I trusted in us so much that i thought no matter how much i damage it, it will still be mended back. I was foolish i admit, I hurt you i admit. But i still do trust in our love.

Do You remember telling me that you want our story to be told even after we are no longer part of the world. And what story it will be if our love wasn't able to conquer this hurdle. And who would tell others our story if we couldn't overcome this one . And Sanskar. I was wrong, i was wrong.

If i was right then i possibly couldn't have hurt  someone like you to this extent and if i was right then i possibly couldn't have made you lose hope in love.

And i realize i was wrong very wrong. And all i can do now i hope our love is stronger than my mistakes, stronger than your heartbreak and we will get ourselves an second chance to be happy. Because we both know there is no happiness for us otherwise. "Swara  spoke up for the last time as she walked away from their room .

  Swara walked out, not knowing when she will return back to that room or will she ever be able to return back.

And with that Sanskar reached out to his comfort, Fully aware that he wont be able to find comfort in it not today not ever. Because without her, he is never gonna be happy. Was he right in breaking their relationship or was he wrong.  He honestly dont care.

Well he doenst care about anything anymore. She left him and his world stopped spinning that day. And for Swara today was that day when her world stopped spinning as for the first time she began to regret her actions.

Because she realized how much she hurt him. And an year passed both of them survived without each other but just like he predicted she started to lose more of her puzzle pieces but she doenst care any longer she just want that one puzzle piece she lost first.

Because it just not an puzzle piece it him, Her Sanskar. And she lost him. Regret can be very powerful and all consuming but so is love.bWill destiny provide them one more chance she doesn't know but she really hopes it does.

Because their story cant end like this.. And he did say-"you are special for me and i want our story to be special and after we leave i want people to remember Swara and Sanskaar" .

So how can it end like that, Is it the end she wondered. Nope she wont give up hope. As long as she live,she will keep hoping someday their story will start again.            

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Juanita Reid