"Why didn't you tell me?" He asked. His grandmother motioned she was going to the car. "I just found out and i didn't want to say anything to you in case i decided no to go." I said. "Well isn't that nice?" Devin said angrily. "Devin look this isn't about you! OK? it's about me and needing to find some of my family that isn't bat crazy!" I said.  "Yea well just because they are family means nothing. You need to understand that you don't need family in your life to be happy. Blood means nothing. Surrounding yourself in people you love and who will love you back is all that matters." He said.

                               "I know you're right, and i never said i was going to go. I have no idea if they even want me ok? It's just a thought. Honestly if it were freshman year or even sophomore i'd consider it. But it's my last year of high school and I'm looking at colleges and honestly I'm getting old. To old to need parents or somebody looking after me. I mean i had to take care of myself after my dad died my mom just couldn't deal." "And when Carl came along?" He asked. I kicked a rock with my shoe. "I thought maybe things would be better. My mom would have somebody to chill her out. And he wasn't around me much while they dated so i didn't know he was like that."

                                "Still when your mom found out he was like that she should've left him." Devin said. "Yea but i think my mom honestly blames me for my dad's death. Like legit. She didn't want me in cheer-leading and was mad my dad went over his head." I said. "Not to change the subject but i'd love to see your moves sometime." He said. "Oh really?" I asked. "Oh yea, do you still have your uniform?" He asked. "Yea but it was from Junior high. I got more curves then i had then." I said. "Oh so this thing would be a little tight?" He asked his eyes lighting up. "Ok, you're loosing it. I might show you some moves but no uniform." I said. "Hey, I'll take what i can get. Let's go home." He said taking my hand in his.

                           Once we had made it home Devin went to help his grandmother with lunch and i went outside to call Kami. "Hey Jess, how're you?" She asked. "Ok you are not going to believe this. But i just got out of court." I said. "Court? But who? How?" She asked. "My mother. She's been planning this for a while...who knew." "Oh my gosh i can't believe she didn't tell you." Kami said."Yea she was worried i would try to stop her." I said. "Yea i see you doing that." She said.

                      "My mom didn't win, even if she had i would've said no." "Right, that's good. How are things with your aunt? I mean she was ok with you maybe leaving?" She asked. I sighed. "I'm not living with her anymore. That didn't really work out. My aunt wasn't the nicest lady, i don't even know what else to say." "So where are you at? Foster home?" She asked. "Weeell I'm kind of staying...with Devin..." "From group!? Omg he is so hot! You know if i trusted men...What? How?" She ga sped. "Well we've been hanging out outside of group. I don't know we just hit it off....he kind of kissed me." I said. "What he good?" She asked. "I don't know i kind of punched him." "Kind of?" "OK i punched him. Hard. I feel so bad." I said.

                     "Don't be if you punch a guy im sure he deserved it." Kami said. "That's the thing though. I'm not so sure he did. I just went into reaction mode. My step dad would try to kiss me and i had to get away always be on my toes. And i just did it. But Devin is a nice guy and." "You like him?" "I don't know how i feel. I know he likes me. He told me so. But maybe living with him will be weird if we date." I said. "Why?" She asked. "What if he catches me coming out of the shower?" I asked. "Then you have a steamy make out session?" Kami asked. I laughed. "Maybe not, his grandparents wouldn't like that." I said laughing. "I haven't really even kissed that many guys. What if i do it wrong?" I asked. 

                       "Well i know something about Devin. He's a good guy. After what his dad did to his sister i don't think he's wanting to move to fast. But if he likes you. He likes you and not because you're a good kisser. I think you should give it a shot. You can't be single for ever. And really can you find a better guy then him?" She Asked. "You're right. He is a great guy. I'll think about what you said. Thanks for listening." "Anytime Jess i'm always here for you." She said. I let her go and headed inside to find some lunch. 

                    Devin was sitting slumped over in the chair. I sighed. I just couldn't win for loosing. I didn't know if i was ready to date him, i was still rather confused but i couldn't have him upset it wasn't fair to him. But i at least needed to figure out why he was upset. "Hey, can i talk to you for a minute?" I asked. "Sure thing." He said scooting over and making room for me. I sat down next to him and snuggled into him. "What's wrong?" I asked. "You kept telling me how you felt so unwanted. Did it every occur to you that maybe i do to? My dad didn't care about me and if my mom had she wouldn't of let that stuff happened to kenzie or me. I'm with my grandparents because my parents didn't want me.

                  "No, no that is never how i wanted to make you feel. Look i like you. Ok? I like you a lot i'm just scared to jump in. I may swim...but what if i sink?" I asked. "Then i'll be right there to save you. I'll jump in and save you." He said looking into my eyes. His blonde hair hung in it his and i bit my lip. He was just so cute. I brushed his hair out of his eyes and he leaned in a bit. "Only if you're ready to jump." He said quietly. "Ready as i'll ever be i guess." I said brushing my lips against his. He linked his hand through mine and i pulled back laughing.

                   "What's wrong?" He asked smiling. "You're holding my hand so i don't punch you again?" I asked. "Maybe a little, i just like holding your hand." He said. My stomach growled. "Ok it's time for lunch." I said standing up. "Ok, and hey thanks for kissing me...but i don't know what this means?" He said. "Well...i guess it means...you're my boyfriend...." I said. "Right on!" He said pumping his fist. I laughed. "So you're funny." I said rolling my eyes and smiling. We headed into the kitchen for tacos.