probably internalised homophobia or something but i am so tired of being a lesbian. i'm tired of the awkward laughs when family members ask if i have a boyfriend. i'm tired of having to be afraid of being outed when a relationship or friendship ends badly. i'm tired of feeling like a shitty girlfriend when i'm in a relationship because we can't even hold hands when we're in public. i'm tired of having other lgbt people judge me because i'm not out to my family and don't intend to come out any time soon. i'm tired of being told i'm not valid because i'm not an athlete with short hair that exclusively wears baggy clothes.

it's exhausting.

idk. will probably feel different in the morning.
good night.