this was requested by @aleclightwood18 so enjoy! I had a lot of fun writing this even though I wasn't to happy with the out come. So WARNING bad chapter ahead. 

~ Evan's pov~

I was sitting on the couch channel surfing because there was nothing better to do when I felt my phone buzz.

Connor: Hey babe, it's been awhile since we've gone out. wanna do something?

Evan: Sure!

Connor: I'll be there in a minute.

Evan: okay. Where do you wanna go?

Connor: it's nice out and I know this orchard, we could go there.

Evan froze. He knew the orchard, he knew it well, heck it was one of his favorite places on Earth, that's why he tried to kill himself there, that way he'd be near something he loved when he died, clearly it didn't work out that way.

"EVAN!"

"YEAH MOM."

"I'm going to a class, you stay out of trouble." she said walking into the living room.

"Okay."

"Who are you texting? Is it jared? He 's such a nice boy." she looked over my shoulder.

"No it's Connor. We're going on a date."

"Where?"

"Undecided." she looked at my phone and saw the last text.

"Evan, don't go to the orchard, it worries me you know." we heard the door open.

"Why would it worry you Mrs.Hansen?" Connor stepped in the room looking perfect as usual. My mom looked at me in shock. Dammit, I knew it wasn't a good idea to tell him where the spare key was.

"You haven't told him?! That's not healthy Evan, he deserves to know!"

"Haven't told me what?" connor asked very confused.

"Of course I haven't told him! Do you have any idea how embarrassing it is?!" I was starting to get angry and so was she.

"IT'S NOT EMBARRASSING! IT'S A SERIOUS PROBLEM!" yep... she was pissed.

"IT USED TO BE A SERIOUS PROBLEM! I'M BETTER NOW!"

"YOU'RE NOT BETTER! YOU STILL HAVE TO WRITE THOSE GODDAMN LETTERS TO YOURSELF DON'T YOU!?"

"THOSE LETTERS NEVER DID ONE GOOD THING FOR ME, EXCEPT HELP ME MEET CONNOR!"

"If you don't mind me asking, what the hell did I miss?" Connor interjected.

"Whatever Evan. It's your unhealthy relationship. You do what you please." and with that she walked out the door. I slumped down on the couch. What a nightmare.

"Sorry you were here for that Connor." I mumbled quietly looking up at the ceiling fan spin. The fan was soon replaced by connor's face looking down at me, he gave me a small kiss on my forehead.

"It's okay. But can you tell me what happened."

"My mom didn't want me to go to the orchard."

"I gathered that, but why." I bit my lip. Mom is right, he should know, Here goes nothing.

"doyourememberawhilebackwhenIbrokemyarmbecauseIfelloutofatreewellIdidn'tfallIjumpedbecauceIhatedmylifeandjustwantedtoenditand-"

"Woah slow down! Take a deep breath, and tell me again."

"D-do you remember awhile back when I broke my arm." he nodded.

"Yeah, you fell out of a tree," he was smiling at the memory of when I told him."man that was the saddest fucking thing I've ever heard." we both chuckled a little bit as he sat down next to me lazily putting his arm around my shoulders.

"W-w-well I.... didn't fall..." he looked a bit confused but his smile still remained. "I-I-I jumped..." his face fell completely. He wrapped his other arm around me holding me close.

"Evan..."

"Life wasn't going to well, I didn't have a dad, I had no friends, I hated my homophobic therapist, my mom was never around, we were tight on money,I was being tortured at school, and I was starting to realize I was gay.... It was rough. I thought suicide was the best way out, no one would even realize I was gone, I thought I deserved to just... disappear, ya know."

"D-d-don't say things like that Evan, n-no one deserves to disappear." did Connor Murphy just....stutter? Was he...crying? This can't happen, he's supposed to be the strong one in this relationship. Crap he was crying, not much but there were tears on his face nonetheless

"You wanted the truth Connor, this is it." he didn't respond. "Do you wanna hear the happy ending?" he nodded "Well all those things are still true, but now I've got one thing now that I didn't have then."

"What?" Connor sniffled wiping at his face with his sleeve.

"I have you." I moved a piece of long dark hair out of his face, he was smiling.

"Evan..." he choked out.

"I don't get why you're so sad Con, it's the past, it's over, I'm still here aren't I?"

"I just don't like to think of you doing that to yourself. If I had known-"

"You couldn't have done anything. Look babe, I...I got lucky, I found you, and I'm telling you if I hadn't I would be dead... Connor you saved my life. Now you may not have stopped me from jumping out of a tree, but you gave me my will to live again, and that's something to be proud of."

And with that Connor cupped my face in his hands and smashed his lips onto mine. The kiss was sloppy but sweet and good even though I could taste the saltiness of his tears. I wrapped my arms around his neck and stayed there, making out with Connor for what felt like hours. When we finally had to let go of eachother for air he said:

"Evan..."

"Hum?"

"Promise me something... If you ever start to think about doing that again, please tell me."

"Alright."

"Promise?"

"Promise."

"Good, cause I don't know what I would do without you. I love you Evan, more then you could possibly know."

"Oh I think I have an idea." I smirked. He jokingly pushed my arm then held me close to his warm body, and everything's okay.