Author's Note : The story is in Jimin's point of view and the lyrics to crystal snow are in bold.

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Memories.

Painful, bittersweet memories.

They are like a relentless stalker, following me around, consuming every single waking second of my life and filling my dreams.

Memories of him.

The handsome boy I saw at school.

The fearless boy that stood up for me.

The kind boy who befriended me when no one else wanted to.

The caring boy who was there for me during my darkest times.

Like snow piles up, I remember what you gave me

You gave me the courage to live

The charming, charming boy who I had grown to love with all my heart.

Kim Taehyung.

When he was by my side, I had treasured all those moments with him. Now that he was gone, those times we spent together seem to grow more vivid in detail, brighter in colour. I could remember every minscule detail about him. I recalled his beautiful eyes lighting up like the dawn when I had plucked up enough courage to ask him out.

I remembered the nights we spent watching movies and playing Overwatch. Taehyung would always make suggestive faces at me when the romantic scenes came up on the screen, and I would always pull away, my face hot.

I remembered how I had felt like I was floating when his soft lips touched mine. I remembered how my first kiss had been gentle and sweet, exactly how I had dreamed it would be.

And I recalled every kiss after that.

We met each other beyond all time

So now what do we do? Can we make it work?

This fragile love

However, I should have known that good things did not last. Like a spring day, our joy together faded away.

I remembered the anguish and raw pain I had felt when he told me that he was moving away to debut as an kpop idol. I remembered slamming my door in his heartbroken face, tears flowing uncontrollably down my face. I remember crying myself to sleep that night, and sobbing throughout he next day. I could not believe that Taehyung was leaving.

Of course, there was the option of long distance relationship, but how long would that last? Unable to take it anymore, I had ended it with Taehyung over text on the day he left.

The world moves faster than we thought

How we gonna change it?

We don't know yet but for sure we will

The years without Taehyung passed flatly, with no emotion or colour. How could there be, when he was not by my side? I separated myself from him, running away whenever something about Taehyung came up. The pain of my first heartbreak was almost too painful to bear.

Love in our hearts, uh yeah

slowly started to grow

Then came that fateful day.

I don't know how many years it had been since we had last met, but all I recalled was the text Taehyung had sent me, the first one I had received from him since he had left.

Dear Jiminie hyung,

Before you remove me from your number and erase me from your life, hear me out. Please. Just this once.

I know that what I did to you was unforgivable. I tore down what years of friendship had bulit with a single sentence. I could see the despair in your eyes as you stared at me. I don't blame you for breaking up with me. After all, I deserved it. But I never got to say goodbye to you.

I never told you why that day I stood up for you against the bullies. The truth was, when I first laid eyes on you, I knew that you were the one for me. Cliché, I know. I don't know what it was that atttacted me to you. Your heavenly voice? Your charisma? The way your eyes smile when you laugh? Oh, Jimin-ssi, there are so many things that I could list here. But I knew I had to do something for you. So I did. And that was the best decision of my life.

Leaving you was the hardest thing I had ever done, but I had hoped beyond hope that you would accept it, that I could have both things that I loved -- you and my passion. Well, I know now that it was just a childish dream.

I want to hold you one more time before you disappear

Ah, crystal flies high wherever it goes

Hey, there'nothing else I want, I just want to feel a little more

Jimin, I never stopped loving you. And that's why I am writing this to you right now. Will you take me back? I know, I know, it's a impossible request, but please, just consider it. All these years, I never stopped thinking of you. Day in, day out, all that was on my mind was you. All the songs I wrote, who do you think they were about, besides you? I can't live without you any longer, my love.

Please, Jimin. Just say the word, and I will come to you. If you still want me, please meet me tomorrow at the place we shared our first kiss.

With love from Taehyung.

I did not even hesistate a single second about Taehyung's request.

However, little did I know, that would be the last time I heard from Taehyung.

When he did not turn up at the cherry blossom tree we had kissed under, I had started to worry, but it was not until that night that I had realised the truth.

Taehyung had died in a car crash on his way to meet me.

Can I touch your heart？

I want to touch it but it keeps slipping through my fingers, someday, someday.

The grief of that moment never left me. My life never got back to normal after Taehyung died. How was my soul supposed to be whole without my soulmate? Everywhere I went, I saw Taehyung. Living without him wasn't possible for me. The only thing I could do was to join him.

I did not know when or under what circumstances my soul truly left my body, but all I know was seeing Taehyung once again, feeling his lips on mine yet again, and taking his hand as he led me out of this life and into blissful oblivion.