I'm missing you 

When I say that, I miss you more 

I'm missing you

When Jin had been in his elementary school days, his cousin had committed suicide over her husband cheating on her with another woman. Back then, he had thought that she had been weak and simple-minded. After all, she could have just got over it and found a new man. There had been no need to take her own life over one-sided love.

Looking at photos of you from before 

I'm missing you 

Why's it that time is so cruel? 

I hate what's between us two 

But that was before Jin had fallen hard for someone. And it was before Jin had found out how his one true love was in love with another man.

Jin had not understood the sheer pain of heartbreak you when you realised The One did not love you back. He had not understood how you felt like tearing your heart out, of how you felt like numbing your body and soul to prevent  yourself from feeling anything because it hurt too much.

We can't even see each other anymore even once, what can we do? 

Now, how Jin wished that he could go back to those moments.

How he wished he had never met the handsome, clumsy but so lovable young man named Kim Namjoon.

A cold winter breeze blew to the bridge where Jin was standing and he shivered in his overalls. He had once dreamt of standing on this bridge together with Namjoon, of gazing up at the beautiful constellations together. He had once believed that Namjoon could be his, that they would be married to each other.

Where I am, it's always winter 

In August, it's like December 

My heart can only chase after time 

On a train no one remembers 

But those were just childish dreams, weren't they? For the moment Namjoon had set eyes on Park Jimin,it had all been over for Jin. 

They had been best friends, Namjoon and him, though Jin had wished that they were something much more. It was during one of their trips to the library that Jimin had approached them and asked for help finding a book. Jin had refused to believe it then, but even though they had just met, Namjoon was already taken with Jimin. 

Jin had told himself that it wasn't too late, that Namjoon might still be his if he tried hard enough. He had invited Namjoon on not-so-stubtle dates, but Namjoon ruined it all by constantly making the topic of their conversation Jimin. As smart as Namjoon was, sometimes he could be quite slow on the uptake. It was a freaking date. Couldn't Namjoon at the very least pretend to be in love with Jin?

I wanna' go hand in hand with you 'cross the earth 

Put an end to winter 

Just how much longing has to fall from the sky like snow until spring will occur, friend

After months of this misery, Jin's world came crashing down at his feet. Oblivious to Jim's feelings for him, Namjoon had excitedly announced to Jin that he was going abroad to study, and he was taking Jimin with him. "It'll be an eye opening experience for both of us," Namjoon had gushed. "Jimin wants to pursue a career in dance, and overseas, the dance industry is bigger and better than it could ever be here. Meanwhile, I'll be studying literature at the top university. We'll be in the same place! There will be no need to have long-distance relationship!"

"You guys are dating?"

"Yes, we are! Haven't I told you?"

It was at that point that Jin had ended the friendship and excused himself from the conversation. He was done, he swore, absolutely done with Kim Namjoon.

Well, he had tried to forget Namjoon, but it was so freaking hard.

Even after all these years, Jin still had a place for Namjoon in his heart.

The dust that circles the earth 

It flies through the air 

It just flies through the air 

"Jin! Seokjinnie hyung!"

Jin froze. That voice ... he would know that voice anywhere. But it wasn't possible that he would be here ... he was abroad, studying with Jimin by his side ... what reason would he have to come back to Korea?

"Jin! Didn't you hear me?" The voice was directly behind him now. Strong arms wrapped around Jin as he was pulled into Namjoon's warm embrace, an embrace that he hadn't felt in what seemed like forever.

If I was snow in the air, would I be able to reach you a little bit faster?

"Seokjin hyung! I've missed you so much. " Namjoon buried his head in Jin's neck. "Did you miss me?"

Jin did not know what to answer. He did not know what to feel.

What did one say to the person who one has loved their whole life when they came crawling back to them after years and years? What did one say to the person who has broken one's heart into a thousand pieces?

Snowflakes falling from the sky 

Are drifting further by and by 

I'm missing you

I'm missing you

I'm missing you

I'm missing you ...

"Get away from me."

It came out harsher than Jin had intended, but even the look of shock on Namjoon's face did not deter him. "Why have you come back? I'm perfectly happy here by myself."

"I ... I thought you would like to see me."

"You thought I would like to see you? You thought I would like to see the person who broke my heart? Well, if that's what you thought, you were most definitely wrong!"

"Listen, Jin, I can explain --"

"Do you have any idea how much I cared for you? Do you have any idea how much it broke me to hear that you were in love with someone else? God, you are stupider than I thought, Namjoon. If you didn't love me, you could have told me before I made myself pine for you even more. All these years, with you gone, do you know how hard it has been? You weren't there when my parents divorced. You weren't there when I got fired from my first job. And now, you come crawling back to me to leech off my actor fame? Boy, you are one pathetic human being." Tears were running down Jin's face, but he didn't care anymore.

"I hate you, Kim Namjoon."

How much longer do I wait? 

How many sleepless nights remain? 

'Till I can see you 

'Till I can see you 

'Till I can meet you 

'Till I can meet you 

"I've read somewhere that saying you hate someone means you love them way too much, Jin. You can't fool me." Namjoon lifted a hand and wiped a tear off Jin's cheek. "It was when I was not around you that it hit me ... I can't live without you, Seokjin. Jimin is a great person and all ... but being with him, there was always something missing, and I never knew what it was. Then it hit me. It was you. My best friend. You have been with me through almost my entire life, Jin. And I want to live out the rest with you. I love you, Jin. I was always meant to. The only question is, do you still love me back?"

Snowflakes drifted down from the night sky as Jin stared at Namjoon, all his anger gone. A part of him still wanted to punch Namjoon in the face for doing all that shit to him, but another bigger part wanted to kiss Namjoon for what he had said. After all, it was what Jin had wanted all along.

He made his decision.

As the snowflakes made a carpet of snow on the floor, Jin touched his lips to Namjoon's, sealing the happy ever after he had always wanted.