I hate you for loving me

 Cause how could you?

how would you love 

 such a scattered soul 

 who will always be wandering

 in search of herself. 

And  I would lose you 

 by hating myself 

Cause how would I love you, 

when I couldn't even love myself.

 Maybe it's meant to be, 

for you to be here 

 when everything inside me 

collapse for good or for worse,

 I am not sure.

 Why would you love me? 

 Love me enough,

make me want to stay sane.

For Love is so unfair,

unfair to me,

disentangled in the thoughts 

of self loathe and hubris.

And every word felt painful,

etched onto my heart,

palpitating beats of confusion.

I love you for unfathomable reasons"― A.H. Septimius