[im awful at updating author note #100000000]

i was looking through my imagines and j realized i haven't written a smut since february! stay toned beautiful baby's, next week is smut week.

also (self-promo) check out my books
Target Helpline (which is completed)
SUCKER | CESAR DIAZ (on my block)
my other ethan dolan imagines

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i was in deep shit.

the longer i kept the secret in, the longer i felt guilty. ethan smiled at me and it only made things worse.

"are you alright?" he asked.

i bit the inside of my cheek and nodded. "yes!" i said a bit too loudly. "i mean, yes."

he looked at me sideways. "what are you hiding, y/n?"

"me? hiding something? pfft, you crazy?"

"y/n."

i now felt my nerves getting to me. i shook my foot and began to gnaw on my nails. i was not going to keep this secret, grayson was sure going to kill me.

"grayson said he was going to date meredith!"

ethan looked shocked. "w-what?"

"they were talking for a while and he really likes her. he said that he was going to ask her out but he wanted to see if you were okay with it first, which he knew you weren't, so he's waiting for the right time to tell you." i couldn't control the endless amount of words that spilled from my mouth and i wish i wish i could've.

ethan looked hurt, which was an emotion i don't see often. "okay."

i looked to him confused. "okay?"

"okay," he repeated. "if he wants to go after my ex, i'll go after his."

i stumbles over my words. "w-what?"

he leaned in and placed a kiss on my lips, leaving me breathless. his hands ran over my spine and mine through his dark brown locks.

the kiss ended abruptly when grayson entered while snickering. "about time you two got together."

"she's your ex, gray."

"yeah," grayson chuckled. "from third grade!"

"kinda like how meredith was my girlfriend a couple of years ago, and you decide to talk to her and ask her out? what kind of brother are you?" ethan spat.

i felt trapped. "guys, stop."

grayson looked to me with daggers in his eyes. "you told him? god, y/n! you can't keep one secret?" he yelled and ran his hand through his hair.

"this isn't her fault. she didn't lie to me," ethan said. "you did."

"look eth-"

"fuck you, grayson! hope you have fun with my sloppy seconds, make sure to tell me and how my and kian's dick tastes when you kiss her."

i couldn't help but laugh. it was inappropriate and it drew attention to me, which did not turn out well...for grayson.

"you hypocrite! now you and my ex girlfriend are dating? yeah, you make sure you tell me how easy she is in bed." grayson smirked. i felt an uneasy feeling in my stomach.

ethan leaped towards him and punched grayson in the jaw. he went down to the floor with a thud and clenched his jaw. "don't you ever talk about her like that, next time i'll do more than punch you."

he grabbed my arm and dragged me out the house. i had so many feelings and so many different emotions, i didn't know when i began to cry.

"hey, hey. it's okay, sweetie. don't cry," he cooed.

i tried to talk but only whimpers came out. "i-i-i-im sorry.

ethan laughed. "don't be, now come on. let's get ice cream."