oh shit, i haven't updated in almost a month. but im back! i needed a little break from writing to take a mental break, and it didn't really help because my mind is fucked.

im such a mood.

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ethan stared at her with his brown green eyes with despair. she no longer felt like the same person, she was y/n of course, but not the one he fell in love with.

"why would you do it?" he asked with watery eyes.

she sighed while tucking her (hair type) hair behind her (skin color) ears. "do what ethan?"

he laughed with pain laced in his voice. "you know what you did, y/n. stop pretending."

"ethan, we weren't together. what i did with him isn't any of your business! he was my boyfriend." she confessed.

"i was the love of your life, does that not mean a damn thing to you?" he raised his voice.

she stayed silent.

"you've changed so much."

y/n shook her head. "fuck you."

he seemed taken aback. "excuse me?"

"i said," she poked him in the chest, "fuck you. look around you ethan, the world isn't a kind place. life fucks you from the moment you took your first breath. you hurt and ache in pain and there isn't shit you can do about it, and majority of the time the people you fall in love with will never love you back. so you deal with it, you don't make a big scene about it like a crybaby. life isn't fair and it isn't a fairytale."

ethan scoffed. "you don't think i know that? you think that im happy everyday and live my life worry free? that's such bullshit, y/n. i hurt everyday and every second even when im unaware of it. im so used to pain and how it's consumed my body because i don't have you. yes i know life isn't a fairytale but we can try to make it feel like one with the right people. even if they fucking hurt you beyond repair."