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everyone has mistakes, taking a left instead of a right, accidentally forgetting to turn the stove off when you left home for school. and everyone has regrets. for ethan, his biggest regret was choosing r/g/n over y/n.

it all started on a monday morning, where everything was destined to break apart, like y/n's heart. she was walking to ethan's house and saw that his friends car was there. her name was r/g/n and you didn't like her one bit. you hadn't ever been very confident and you were jealous of her. you knew she had a crush on ethan and there was nothing you could do to stop it.

you knocked on the door several times but ethan didn't answer it. your mind wondered to all the things they could've been doing. kissing, talking, or even possibly doing the devils tango. you suddenly remembered the spare key underneath a rock and rushed to grab it and unlocked the door with it.

"—and that's why im desperately in love with you, e. we should be together because i know you feel the same way about me," you heard
r/g/n confess.

when ethan didn't answer, you felt a wave of relief rush over you.

"i-i think i love—"

you tripped over your untied shoelace and landed face first into the carpet with a loud 'oof!' which distracted the other two people in the house.

ethan came running and sighed when he noticed it was you. "y/n! shit! you almost gave me a heart attack! what are you doing here and how did you get in my hous—spare key, i see."

he helped you to your feet and you saw r/g/n scowl at you from behind ethan. bitch, you mouthed to her. "sorry, you didn't answer when i knocked. thought you might've been in trouble."

"oh, my hero," ethan clutched his hand over his heart and laughed.

r/g/n coughed bringing the attention back to her. "ethan and i were having a discussion. if you don't mind, it's private."

ethan nodded to you. "yeah it was, do you mind coming back later, y/n?"

you hesitated. "actually, i kind of heard it?"

r/g/n's eyes widened. "how much of it?"

"pfft," you spoke, "not like, much."

"so you know that ethan was about to tell me something important," she grit her teeth.

ethan scratched the back of his neck nervously. "i guess i was, huh?"

r/g/n was getting a kick out of this and you didn't like it one bit. you wanted ethan to be yours, after all, he had been your first love.

"before you say anything, i have something to say," you speak. "ethan, you and i have known each other since forever. we met at a very bad place and a very good time and i'll never forget how you made me felt that one day. you made me happy and safe. but most of all you made me feel loved like no one else before. i love you, ethan dolan, so much that it hurts."

ethan had an unreadable expression on his face which made both you and r/g/n very suspicious. what was going through his head? had you said something triggering?

"i–uh, wow," he was speechless. "this has never happened to me before. i think i need time to process."

r/g/n grunted. "just choose, dolan! me or y/n."

ethan looked from between you both. his eyes were shifting back and forth like he was thinking really hard and then he shut his eyes for a while. he made you both nervous and anxious.

what if he didn't pick you? then what? what would you do? what would happen?

"r/g/n," he finally said. "i choose r/g/n."

you felt your heart shatter into a million pieces and fall into the pit of your empty stomach. you couldn't move, couldn't speak, couldn't think, couldn't even comprehend what was going on in front of your eyes. the sounds around you seemed to fade away but your body somehow found the courage to leave ethan's house with salty tears falling onto your lips.