based off of one scene from "the perks of being a wallflower" aka: my favorite movie of all time.

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ethan sat overlooking his typewriter from the 50's. it was ancient, but it still worked. he wore a suit that was gifted to him by y/n, along with the typewriter. she told him to write about her and to make it beautiful. she was a senior that changed his life forever. well, y/n and her stepbrother patrick who was an openly gay man. unlike his ex boyfriend, brad.

last night was their last time in town. in the morning they were off to college, which meant saying bye to each other.

"it's so unfair, ethan. it's like, i choose people who don't give a s.hit about me and i make it out to be love."

"we chose the love we think we deserve," he quotes his favorite english teacher.

"why didn't you ever ask me out, ethan?"

"because of the thing with your boyfriend and everything going on and-"

she cuts him off. "have you ever been kissed before, ethan?"

"n-no," he stumbles.

"do you love me?" he fiddled with his fingers before he nods. "no, not as a friend but actually love love me?" he nods once more.

y/n brings her lips to his and he reacts. his mouth moves with hers and she pulls back with a smile.

now the memory swirls around in his head as he sits in front of his window. tears are falling down his face as he thinks about it. "stop crying," he wipes his tears away and bangs his head. "stop crying. stop crying." the memories of y/n fill his mind and he can't handle the pain.

it was all too consuming.