Memories of Dust

I dream of a city far away.

I dream cuz there's no reason to stay.

I thought maybe for you that would change.

It seems I was way off.

I took the time to figure you out,

Got lost in your soul, lost in the sound.

I found myself completely unwound,

You were more than I thought.

You have the perfect ammunition.

Because I wasn't using wisdom.

I told you everything at random,

I have no room to talk.

Because I've already said too much.

The things I want are just out of touch,

I scored high but it wasn't enough.

I'm just not what you seek.

I thought I'd stay but I changed my mind.

Where will I go? I can't decide.

Lord knows I will leave it all behind,

Only take what I need.

Couples are never made of siblings.

You've made it clear that's how you see me.

You say that you can't make me happy,

Your sure of that one thing.

I truly think a move would be best.

I'll get there then figure out the rest.

I'm known for running, and running fast,

Far from all my problems.

Maybe I'm needy; it could be true.

Courage is something I never use,

No confidence when it comes to you.

That I am most sure of.

Purposefully embracing the pain.

Leaving will hurt, but it's all the same.

You and I will never change,

I will be the smart one.

I will leave and never let you know.

The way I feel, I will never show.

Forever I'll stay far from home,

My love for you will never be shown.

Memories of me will turn to dust,

You will forget me like all men must,

I won't forget what my actions caused,

And I won't forget the one I lost.