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I was alone...I kept in the small ball I was in and didn't move. I tried my best...I swear I tried my best. Every time I tried to do something right but it always backfires. I tried to love the family that took me in but they hate me...I don't blame them. I really don't blame them. I wish that I wasn't made...I wish that I was killed the day my master saw me cry. I wish the others had killed me and not injure me. This. This is torture. I was in pain... emotional and physical. Everyone hates me, I can't satisfy anyone no matter how much I tried. '..Die for all I care..' said Raph. That small sentence kept repeating in my mind. Then it hit me...he didn't love me as much as I loved him. He would show affection but not the kind that I show...He missed Leo, and that's all he wants. "You h-have n-no cl-cl-clue ho-how mu-much I w-want to..." I stammered softly, trembling. "Shut up, will you? No one cares about you." He snarled as he hit what I'm assuming is a door. Everything was in black, I couldn't see what was around me. Might as well kill me. How much I wish to be dead...

"Liar!! Tell me the truth now!" I heard the shouts of my master then the lashing sounds of a whip and screeches. He was punishing one of the experiments...I knew it. I knew those sounds all too well. I'm assuming that experiment had stolen something. I was alone, they had moved me to another room as Raph would occasionally have sudden bursts of anger. I let out a soft sigh as I felt around the room,  trying to figure out what other room I've been placed...I wanted to go home...badly...It's not even my real home with them but I would rather be treated badly by them than staying here with the rest of these experiments. The door opened, at least that's what I heard, "My sweet little pet...you've been beaten and almost killed. It's a shame that you won't be seeing the light very soon..." Said a voice I recognized all too well. it made me stiff at what he said. Panicking that, that would lead to my death. I shook my head.  "No...please please let me live..." I pleaded him softly, trying hard to not cry. it wouldn't matter anyway, after all, he was in control of everything. He was the puppeteer and I'm his puppet. "Aww, are you scared of death?" He asked with a sinister smirk. I gulped softly, just listening to his voice. "It's nice to know you are the only experiment that will do exactly as I say.  Some pets are just not smart enough to even do that." Master murmured. "O-Of co-course..." I muttered softly. He just gave a soft chuckle. "Listen to me, I will take you to the lab and you'll be completely healed, there you will stay with Raphael since he's inside there being tested." He said sternly. I nodded with a soft whimper as He grabbed my wrist and began to drag me towards what I assume is the lab...I just hope things will go well...

-Time Skip-

I was able to see, I was healthy again...except now I watched over the three brothers. One would ask me where their Leo is, but I refused to answer. The other, being Raph, refuses to talk to me entirely. The thing is at this point I had to stop caring. because if I continued to care it'll hurt a lot more. The turtles have more use to us now. Meaning that Donnie, Mikey, and Raph have some type of purpose to us. Donnie is used to helping with research, Mikey was the one helping with the cooking and Raph was used as a battle opponent for all the experiments to use. I just watched them...sad that they all hated me...of course, I didn't know what to do. I was made to obey and if I didn't I'd be killed off...though not so easy but I would be at some point.  Though at this point I have no clue what I am...I want to be a part of their family..to feel emotions and to be loved by them...to have and feel a family.  I know it's a lot to ask, but I would love it so much. At this point...I don't even know what I am...or who I am...could someone please tell me?...

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All I saw was darkness I couldn't see a thing. I felt chains and cuffs on my arms and legs. I struggled to move as I felt the sweat run down my face, I pulled on the chains until I heard voices. "It's time." One murmured. "Hopefully this time he won't die...I don't want to keep doing these procedures so we can do these experiments on 'em." Another complained. "Yeah, but do you want to be fire or even worse killed by our boss just because you don't wanna do it anymore?" The first guy countered. The other stayed silent for a bit until they spoke up again. "Okay, fine." He grumbled. I was terrified when the voices stopped speaking and felt hands on me. I panicked and began to struggle against them, screeching from the terror. "Shut up!" Someone yelled angrily, I soon felt stinging on my arm, whimpering and fighting against the chains and whoever it was with me. Why can't I see?! why!? "He'll be fine once the drug takes effect." "Are you sure? Did you give him enough?" The voice asked, sounding slightly muffled. "Yes, I gave him enough. I know what I'm doing Greg." The other answered, obviously annoyed by the others question. "Alright, Alright. I was just making sure that you gave him enough. I don't want him to act out while we work on him." The man that I assumed was named Greg answered back. "He can't do much anyway." The other responded. I felt weak, so weak, no longer able to fight back and only listened to what they would say or do until finally, it went silent. 

Hey everyone! I know this hasn't been updated since like December. I'm sorry about that! It's almost the end of the year for school for me and I don't have exams anymore. Hopefully, I get to update more frequent! Have a nice day (or night) and as always continue to be awesome people!

~Stop.