I don't know my worth. I feel that i am worthless even when others tell me otherwise. I despise the fact that others can so easily identify themselves and i am stuck over thinking and repeating the same mistakes i made in my past to feel something. Just so that i am reminded that i am human too and despite all these laws pressed against me and my people because yes, we are people too, i still feel like nothing. The nothingness that i am, drowning in the midst of all my thoughts, my subconscious telling me that it's all over like an alarm clock repeating that i have to retreat and end my dreams; return to reality, the reality that tortures me every day as i try to forget what my past has bestowed upon me so i run. Run away like my ancestors that ran for their dear life. Abused and mistreated, but never defeated.