Dollie (Jisang)
*Takes place a few weeks after chapter 58, when Yeosang spoke to Jungkook about letting Jimin go and the whole he's not his Gem anymore thing*
Jimin stares at his bare upper body with a deep frown on his swollen lips. His neck and chest is littered with hickeys, a few scratches and unintentional bruises. Even after his shower it still looked so horrifically cringing, as if he just crawled out of a horror movie.
As sad as it is, he was already use to this sight over many times in the past.
Karma and Jungkook were needy and he was there to provide.
As always.
He knows one day he's going to escape somehow, he just needs to wait until Seokjin gives him his new identity and then he'll be gone. So far away from here to forget this pain and struggle of being here as a caged animal.
As his cold eyes follows how his fingers graze over the bruise on his abdomen, he couldn't stop himself from feeling disgusted.
All they care about is if he's here, that's it. They don't care if he's happy or how he feels, just to have him here on a damn leash.
Like how he past masters wanted him.
Those dark thoughts instantly snaps away when he hears a soft knock against his door that followed with a soft creak of it opening. From the large body mirror, Jimin could see Yeosang peak his head inside but instantly turns away.
"Oh I'm sorry, I didn't-"
"It's okay," Jimin sighs, turning to look at him, "It's not like you haven't seen a shirtless person before."
Slowly Yeosang looks at him, keeping his eyes steady only on the bruises under his eyes before entering the room and closing it behind him.
"I just came to see how you were doing."
Jimin just barely twitched a smile as he slowly turns back to the mirror, "Well as you can see, I'm doing fantastic."
The small broke tone in his voice was barely there but Yeosang caught it, making him frown in displease. He knows what type of messed up thing Jungkook and Karma are doing to Jimin, and it's so fucking unfair. He hoped that yesterday after he spoke to Jungkook that maybe he could've swayed him into thinking just something, anything, besides keeping Jimin here hostage.
Sadly that only resulted with their fight and now Jimin is standing in front of this mirror, looking so broken and in pain that he's trying to hide behind the storm of his eyes.
Slowly he walks up behind him, seeing some faint scars on his back, "Scars," He whispers lowly, raising a hand and slowly trails the small one on Jimin's spine, "They're so small."
Jimin flutters his eyes close to the soft touch on his back, fighting back that need to sob to the horrid memories that followed those marks, "My pimp made me get laser surgery to have them removed. It was so much worse.... So.... Horrifying."
The crack that shattered his tone only made Yeosang raise his head up, seeing the tears in Jimin's bright eyes through the mirror. Carefully he moves his fingers up his skin and wrapped his arms around his waist comfortingly instead.
The blonde haired male whimpers under his breath, leaning against Yeosang's embrace like a blanket to this cold in his chest, "I can't deal with this anymore. I-It hurts... M-My body hurts, my soul hurts, everything hurts. I can't take it anymore..... I don't w-want to feel anymore."
Yeosang turns Jimin around and hugs him tight, letting the man complete break apart in his embrace without another word. Jimin was not having it, let alone could he barely stand as he screams against Yeosang's chest, letting his body completely unleash its years of pain.
"They fucking h-hurt me and didn't even apologize! Who t-the fuck d-does that! Why is your father doing this to me if h-he promise to p-protect me! W-Why!" Jimin cries loudly, slamming his fists against Yeosang's chest, "Let me go! You're just g-going to end up like him! Y-You're going to deceive me a-and break my heart! It can't break more than it already is! It hurts! It f-fucking hurts"
Yeosang squeezes his eyes shut in pain for the other as if he's being stabbed by knives. Who knows how long Jimin has been keeping up with this emotion to not feel, to have everything caged up in his heart, to not trust anyone, to not have a voice.
This is his breaking point. The two people he trusted with his literal life betrayed him, and now he can't leave.
He can't pursuit his dream to be free.
He can't.... Live.
"Jimin please-"
"YOU DON'T FUCKING GET IT!" Jimin shouts, managing to escape Yeosang's arms to face him with his broken angry eyes, "THEY TOOK EVERYTHING FROM ME! MY DIGNITY, MY AIR, MY SOUL, MY DAMN LIFE! I HAVE NO VOICE! NO ONE WITH ME! I'M SO A-ALONE! I ALWAYS END UP LIKE THIS, AND I CAN'T ESCAPE IT!" And with his full strength he slams his fist against the mirror on the dresser, shattering it to pieces with his bloody hand, "FUCKING REFLECTION! WHY AM I SO FUCKING HOPELESS! W-Why can't I.... P-Protect myself."
Yeosang swallows back his own sobs when Jimin slowly drops to the ground on his knees, hugging his body with his face scrunching up as if he's been shot, "I-I can't breathe anymore without feeling s-suffocated. I don't want to fucking be alive!" He wails pitifully, burying his face on the floor, "Please kill me. Make this pain just stop... Make it j-just stop."
There's only so much a person can hold in before they break apart. Jimin has had many moment where in his life he has felt so hopeless to break apart, but he never gave into that feeling just to be strong and have hope that it'll get better.
Now, he has a healed bullet wound on his back and has to be like the smug doll he was before to his two psychopaths just to prevent another more moment of torture. Even as they fuck him, pouring these pretty praises to his ears, he can feel the chains around his body as the mark him away from his freedom.
He trusted them and they lied.
And now Jimin is only left to stare at the broken fragments of his life with a scream, with no one to hear him.
He can't do this anymore!
Yeosang slowly gets to his knees beside Jimin's body, holding back his fragile heart begin stab with every sob that would escape Jimin's lips and places a hand on his back, "Let it out, just let it out."
That's the best he can do for him now as he calms down, be an anchor.
The vulnerable small male only drops to his side and curls his body as he faces the long body mirror, "I need it to stop...... I n-need to stop feeling anything because than.... It won't h-hurt so much," Jimin squeaks with such a fragile quiver in his voice, "What's worse is that I brought this upon myself. I shouldn't have trusted them to keep their word. I s-shouldn't have let them grow emotional with me because t-then maybe.... I w-wouldn't be feeling like this.... It's m-my fault."
Now there was nothing holding back Yeosang's tears as it cascades down his cheeks, feeling so useless since he doesn't know what to do to ease Jimin's pain. He's tried talking with Jungkook about letting Jimin go and now he.... He isn't even his gem anymore.
And Yeosang can't leave him.
Jimin doesn't deserve to feel like this. No one ever deserves to feel like this in general.
And Jimin should never carry the blame for the abuse he's being treated with.
So with a thick gulp, Yeosang whispers, "You shouldn't cut off your emotions Jimin," A pained sob follows Jimin lips to hearing this, "It's okay to feel, that's what makes us human. So feel this pain, let it devour you, just so you won't feel this similar pain again in the future."
"I'm n-not human," Jimin hiccups drily, wiping his tears with his bare arm, "I'm j-just a d-doll.... A fucked up d-doll."
By now Yeosang hugs Jimin's body like a protective blanket, nuzzling his face against his neck beside his ear, "You're more than that..... You're more than that to me."
And he means it. He never thought he would ever admit something like this to the other male, but now this is something Jimin needs to hear.
That he matters to someone.
Jimin shivers to the words, blinking his tears, "W-Would you keep me caged up like they do?"
"Never," Yeosang says instantly, meeting Jimin's eyes through the body mirror and slowly raised a hand to wipe away the remaining tears from his cheeks, "You deserve to feel human."
Human.... Must be nice to feel human.
A hope Jimin has lost hope in a lot time ago.
Yet with this moment here, he only curls more against Yeosang's body with his uninjured fingers interlacing with his, and that alone felt a moment of bliss, "Can you stay with me forever? I know you don't like me, and I can be a bit annoying since I'm always in your business, but if we go on our separate ways when I leave this place, can you come find me again? Can you show me how it is to feel human and not like a doll?"
There was a comforting silence that followed this question, especially as Yeosang presses a soft peck against Jimin's head and holds his body like a delicate teddy bear, "I will always come back to you Minnie, I promise."
That was all the reassurance Jimin needed in order to gather a glimpse of hope for his future, something to look forward to. He doesn't know where this dependency for the younger began to blossom, but he feels like he can rely on him like an angel.
With him it feels like he's not so entirely broken as he sees himself to be.
"Oh and I hope you do know that we need to clean up that mess you made, eventually."
A small snort escapes Jimin's lips, making him turn around to meet Yeosang's eyes, "I can clean it up in the morning."
Yeosang grimaces at him and takes his injured hand delicately in his, "I was talking about this mess," He snickers, leaning to press a kiss on his palm and then moves to press another kiss on his forehead, "And the mess here. Let's not forget the one here," And he moves down, pressing a sweet peck to where his heart is on his chest, "A mess that's not impossible to heal with time, love and patience."
The smile on Jimin's lips is wide now, feeling his cheek flush a bright red when Yeosang pulls him closer by the wrist, staring down into his now cleared eyes that aren't filled with pain as they use to be.
"I know one day you will achieve happiness Jimin," He whispers, moving his hand to tenderly caress the dry tear marks on his cheek, "And when you do, best believe it'll be the day I will tolerate you maybe a little more."
Jimin gawks his lips, landing a playful shoving his shoulder with his none injured hand, "Wow, good to know you only appreciate me when I'm happy."
"Because your happiness means everything to me, even if I don't show it," Yeosang says back softly, making Jimin's smile slowly falters down as his heart fills with a soothing caress of warmth that he never thought he was ever capable of feeling before.
Someone genuinely feels happy for his happiness?
That's so..... That's so pure.
Jimin never had... Someone like that in his life.
To hide away the strong thump of his heart and his redden cheeks, Jimin leans and buries his face on Yeosang's chest, curling up to him like a koala, "Can you hold me a little linger before we heal my wounds?"
Automatically Yeosang wraps his arms around Jimin and let's out a heavy sigh to how complete he feels. Almost like a missing piece to a puzzle, and they fit together just.... Perfectly.
"Best believe I will hold you for as long as you want me to, and then we can work on healing your pain away."
And Jimin smiled.
Right here, in this room, laid two bodies on the floor, letting their thoughts float away from the pain of tomorrow or the struggles in their lives they're currently living in. For this moment it felt like somethings are finally being stitched together to make sense.
Something they both don't know what it was yet.
But it was nothing yet something.
And they both fell in love with it.
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A/N:
Alright let me take a moment to breathe...
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.....
I have no words....
Jimin's mental break down reminded me of when Jungkook had his in Woosung's room, and that just finished me off to breaking my heart.
It's funny how I initially never thought of having Yeosang that relevant in the story beside appearing a few times, let alone to have a connection with Jimin at all.
Yet..... This was the most pure and soft pair in the story! Aside from Seokcas since we didn't see much of them due to them not being too obvious about it, but like..... This was such a nice connection between two souls coming together.
Now I'm sad again.
Uh.... What are we going to do man, I don't even know, I guess to just be sad :'(
So before I did have a bonus chapter of their life after this, as in how they were in the present, but it got deleted when the story got deleted :(
But I would take any recommendations on what you guys would like to read for a bonus chapter from here on out!
I PURPLE YOU!! <33
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