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"If only you had loved me right"

【Ｉｆ　ｏｎｌｙ】

1428, Goryeo

Yang ran down the corridor of the large palace, trying to get far away from her room where her husband and his pregnant wife stood tauntingly in front of her. Tears stream down her face, letting out the hurt she felt in the past fe
w days.

From her husband hiding his first marriage to him hiding the child that his first wife is carrying. What else does he have to confess next? Was he ever planning to be honest or was it all a lie, a facade he was building in front of her?

Her barefoot legs ran down the unknown open ground trying to find an exit from this dungeon of lies. But to her dismay, a large brick wall came in front of her indicating the ending of the palace.

She turns around to the ground she ran past, looking at the huge palace that she just wants to disappear from. A sharp shout echo into the air, her heart crying out and cursing the life that she can't help but hate more and more every day.

Her petite body slumps down on the ground, her legs not being strong enough to support her anymore.

Everything hurts.

"Your majesty?"

The silky voice of the only person she thought she knew, calls her out. She thought she could trust him, out of all the liars she has around her. She thought he would at least be her friend but all he cared about is to be the security general.

Pathetic of her to think he'll ever be the same.

"What do you want?" She hisses raising her head to look at him. The white bandage around his torso peaking out of his opened hanbok as he stood there. His skin looking paler than before and prominent dark circles surrounding his eyes.

"What are you doing here your majesty?" In a feeble voice, he asked. His body slouched a little not being strong enough to stand.

"None of your business." She snapped at him trying not to feel any remorse as she gets up from the ground to get away from him. Her life is already a mess and now she doesn't want Byeong Suk to add to her misery.

He has already done enough damage.

But just as she was about to walk away, Byeong Suk's held onto her wrist stopping her in her track.

"Come with me"

"I want 2 kids" Yang said with a big smile plastered on her face. Her big almond eyes shining bright in the daylight as she looks down at Byeong Suk laying down on her lap.

"Where did that came from?" A tint of pink spreads across his face, his ears turning red but he tries his best to hide it. He lifts his head up from her lap staring at her with a smirk but still, his heart is beating out of his chest at what she just said.

"1 girl and 1 boy" She leans back on the tree still smiling like an idiot while Byeong Suk looks at her with hearts in his eyes. Just how much he wishes to marry her, have babies with her, and grow old with her. Every time he thinks about it his heartbeats picks up but now when Yang said it herself, he doesn't know how to contain himself.

He leans down towards her peaking her rosy cheeks one by one taking her by surprise but that didn't stop the smile on her face from stretching ear to ear again.

His palm rests on her waist, thumb gently rubbing her skin over the hanbok as he peaks her forehead then her nose. His lips inches closer to her lips making her close her eyes.

"You do know how babies are made right?" He whispers above her lips making her heave out a breath. She clutches onto his bicep unknowingly pulling him closer to him.

"I don't know" She whispers with a mischievous smile curving on her lips but it didn't last long before Byeong Suk captures her lips with his cherry ones tasting the fruit they just ate.

His one hand cupping the side of her face caressing her cheek as he devours her lips that he can never get tired of. He can kiss her a thousand times but the butterflies that erupts in his stomach everytime his lips touches her, never gets old.

"I love you, princess."

Through the forest behind the palace, Byeong Suk walks ahead of her leading the way to an unknown place. Yang waddles behind him, a streak of dry tears on her cheeks.

"Where are we going?" She asks trying to hold onto her hanbok that keeps getting stuck on the bushes.

"You'll see"

And just as he says that the forest ends and bright light started shining. Yang hears the sound of a river flow and as she thought there was a river ahead of them.

Byeong Suk stops and lets her walk in front of him. She watches the water calmly flow and the orange hue of the sinking sun reflects on it making it more beautiful with each passing second.

The beauty of nature calmed her mind instantly giving her a bit of peace that she needed.

"I found this place last year" He said taking his shoes off before walking towards a big rock by the river and sitting down on it with his feet hanging in the cold water. He pats down the space beside him signaling Yang to join him.

She took a deep breath before taking off her shoes that Byeong Suk gave her before coming here and sat down beside him. Her feet went into the river, cold water making her shiver a bit.

"Whenever things seem hard, I use come here" His eyes stared into the void of the flowing river. Yang noticed a small, unnoticeable smile stretching across his lips. She knows how much Byeong Suk likes nature. When they were kids, he always used to visit the beach. She remembers all of it.

Byeong Suk knows how healing nature is and how much Yang needs it to cope with whatever is happening in her life. He doesn't want to talk to her but that does not mean he doesn't know what is going on with her.

One look in her eyes and he could see what she is feeling.

"I know I'm in no place to tell you this, but maybe you should give him a chance"

Her eyes widen a little but she chose to stare at the scenery before her ignoring completely what Byeong Suk just said.

"I know he lied about a lot of things.." Byeong Suk added noticing her silence. He understands where she is coming from. He knows she doesn't like lies and he knows how much it hurts her.

He turns toward her looking at the side of her. He notices her jaw clenching at his words but she needs to know. After all he had done to her, the least he can do is tell her what's best for her.

"His majesty is a good guy just give him sometime." A chuckle left past her lips. Her eyes rolling back for a moment before she stares back at the river.

"There was once a guy who used to say he loves me but he still left me without an explanation or a goodbye."

"I don't think I have enough patience to trust anyone anymore" She said looking straight at Byeong Suk without an ounce of emotion on her face.

• • •

Um... how should I say this..... I'm sorry guys :( 

I know I had been MIA for a very long time and tbh I can't give a proper explanation for that. 

I have entered adulthood and life is getting more and more complicated. I am loosing interest from fanfictions in general bcz I started seeing idols and idols crushes in a different light. 

though this book has been my most favourite and the first ever work that I didn't gave up on. I still want to write It but my will to do the imagination is draining as I'm getting older and idk if I even have enough time to complete this book. 

I always wanted to be a writer and I still dream of it but job and life in general has been weighing me down a lot. i hope you guys can understand. 

I can't assure you if I'll be updating it regularly or even weekly bcz I'm not sure of my schedule. also with a massive writers block idk when i can think of what will happen next. I did try a lot of story mapping methods but they don't seem to work for me. The epoch i have published till now seems to be lacking my expectations and that contributes this nagging feeling of writing it again rather than continuing it. 

But seeing the love it has received till now, I can't bring myself to re-write it. 

So I've come to the conclusion that I'll try my best to complete it and deliver the best possible story that i can to the readers. I don't want to disappoint you guys. I'll try my best to write further no matter how much effort and time it takes.

I hope you guys keeping supporting me through this books so that i can complete it and give you something good to remember. 

sorry for the long rant. I love you guys <3