Edit: This note is no longer important, you can just skip it.

At this point in life I have a lot of self doubt. I feel like I'm good when in reality there is always better.

"Practice makes perfect." My friend tells me.

Well, I've practiced and I'm losing hope that I'll ever improve. My friend's writing is so amazing and so intriguing while mine is so bleh. My technique is all over the place, I lose track of what my goal is and I feel untalented.

You may say that my writing is "good" but let's be honest, it isn't. I may have "good ideas" but the writing itself is crap.

I will continue to write, possibly create more stories until one catches my eye and I feel motivated to write and finish it.

This story was my favorite, I loved writing it and now I feel as if it's not good enough. Someone told me it was too slow, others say its too fast. Someone told me there's too much detail and not enough action and when I get to action it's too short.

What am I supposed to do? How can I improve if everyone is telling me different things?

I have lost motivation to continue, but I force myself to continue because a part of me feels obligated to write while the other tells me it's not worth it.

I know you're supposed to feel the need to write because you want to. I want to, just not this particular story for the same reason of not being what others expect. If I drift away from their desires then I lose readers and the story loses interest.

Oh whale. Sorry for not updating, I just needed to release. I have chapter 5 halfway done. I'll be making some chapters "short and sweet" to add definition to the plot and longer chapters to progress the plot.

Please carry on with your lives ( ' ▽ ' )ﾉ.