In every relationship both patner need to hold the rope in both side else it will get loose in one side and fall on the ground.

I woke up from the sleep and walked in the bathroom. I stand infront of the mirror and look myself. My eyes were all puffy and red. I took long breath to hold my emotion as I really wanted to cry again but stopped gulping my saliva to control my cry.

I brushed my teeth and walk outside still wearing same clothes.
My eyes fall on sanskar who is sleeping peacefully.

" He is really good men" slight smile come on my lips.

" He is shivering " I picked up AC remote and reduced temperature. I walk in the room and come with blanket and cover him up. He shuffle little but sleep again.

I walked towards kitchen and made breakfast for both. I was busy to arranging breakfast when he come.

"Good morning " He took my attention. I lift my head and greet him back.

"How are you now?" He come towards me and lift tray of breakfast and walk towards balcony.

"Not so fine" I pick two cup of tea and walked behind him.

He put breakfast tray on table and sat on the chair. I also sat on the chair while forwarding glass of tea to him.

I just moving my fingers on cup of tea thinking what should I talk to him.

" so what you are going to do now?" He asked me breaking silent between us. 

" I don't know but I have to search job first then house " I just answer as this two thing more important to me as for now, I can't  leave here to long.

" if you need I can suggest some job and about house you don't need to hurry. You can stay till you can find good job" He offer me help.

He must be really good men else no one care girl who like me. 

"Why are you doing this?" I asked just to know the truth from his mouth. 

" I am feeling guilty what ever I did with you" He said taking long breath. He is really calm.

" But it was my work to please men and I got paid for that. You are just customer then why you are feeling guilty?" I asked him. I feeling shame that I choose that option for family whom I nothing to them.

" Because  I never hurt someone and it is my huge mistake and it happens Because of alcohol effect and my friend. Other mistake is  that  I cheat my wife and I really don't able to understand how I have to face her. " He said making me shock.

" You are married?" I asked him shock as I felt little disappointment in my heart.

" Yes and have daughter also" He said rubbing face with his palm.

" How can you do that? All men are same. I thought you are good person" I said angrily.

I know I don't have right to say anything to him but how can he cheat his wife.

" I don't know She will feel bad or not listening that I cheat her?" He continued. This sentence made me confused. There is sadness present in his face but not that much regret.

"What type of relationship they have?"  My mind alert me listening his sentence.

" Feel bad or not mean?" I asked him due to curiosity.

" I don't know why I telling you which I never share with anyone. My heart is feeling heavy. I never share this with anyone but I think I can't able to hold anymore. I need someone to listen to me" He said looking towards me.

" Wait is he crying?"

His eyes is moist, he is really crying but why ? Is he feeling guilty  to cheat his wife or anything more?

" Will you listen to me?" He asked me with hopeful eyes were I just node my head.

" our marriage is proper arrange marriage. She is traditional and good person. First meeting only I liked her. Our parents send us to talk on the terrace, she did not talked with me just gave me answer in yes or no.  she did not asked me anything about me and I thought she is nervous but she agreed for marriage. I was so happy to get marry " He paused.

One day before marriage She told me that she is pregnant and she love someone. She told me if I want l can cancel marriage.

I really felt heartbroken but I was thought for many hours. Her father literally begged infront of me to keep her happy. If I had cancel marriage then both families reputation had ruined, so I decide to marry her only and accept her with baby without telling anyone reality.

I told her if she want, she can cancel marriage. I will support her. I asked her about whom she love and is he know about her pregnancy? She said no. she did not cancel marriage.

If I told my family I know they may be accept it but I don't want to feel her down. It may be difficult for her.

We married. First night she told me to stay away from her and don't expect anything from her. I told her I will accept both of them and told her to take her time.

She told me she don't wanted to marry me. It just her parents blackmail her to marry me and she told about pregnancy to me so I can cancel marriage.

I tried to make friendship with her but she did not talked to me and said stay away from her. She good with everyone, she keep my things ready like ideal wife but communication not there between us.

We are just stranger, I tried my best to work this marriage. I gave her space to adjust. I tried to talk evey possible way without making her uncomfortable but now I tired to pretend to be happy infront of my family.

Atleast she should talk to me like friends but no.

I did this marriage thinking it will work. I was ready to wait for her how much day, month or years to move on but their is no conversation between us, if no conversation then their is no hope for any relation.

But now it's suffocating me and I can't share this with anyone. I am done to work on this marriage alone.

I always wanted my life partner who listening to me. I wanted to make her my friend first before making wife,  I  wanted to share my small small things with her.

I  am not able to concentrate on my work. It been 2 years for our marriage but there is no any hope. Now I stopped to making efforts. I am just done. " He stopped. He is looking vulnerable. His frustration voice telling the reality of their relationship. He was crying.

I got up from the chair and walked towards him and placed my hand on his and slightly squeezes to make him cry.

I felt bad listening his side, his wife is lucky to have him. He atleast try to work his marriage. He gave her space.

" I will not blame her as I don't know her side but Sometimes relationship are too complicated,  we try our best to balance but result not in our hand" I  try to console him.

It may be difficult to his wife to get over from her past relationship and I don't know her story but it's not difficult to keep friendship. Atleast she can tried to keep communication between them.

Hope she did not loose men like him who did so much for her but he unknowingly cheat her don't know how she will react as no one deserve this.

Their relationship are too entangled

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♤ Sanskaar ♤

After sharing I am feeling good which I holding from too long. I have my friends but I had fear if they share with my family.

About swara I know she will not discuss with anyone. I feeling relaxed letting my inside things out.

I don't know how Ragini feel after knowing cheating but I will tell her. Whatever she will give me punishment I will take.

For me, I felt like our relation is died somewhere. I don't have fear of our relationship will end, it just I have guilty to cheat as I am not the men who cheat.

" I always wanted to love someone and get same love but our relationship in just entangled "

To be continued.....

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