"(Y/n)?"

I turned my head quickly. "Yes, Kaminari?"

"How come you never use your quirk?"

Silence.

I knew this moment would come. Nothing good ever lasts.

He and I had been left on our own as Mina and Kirishima needed to discuss something with Aizawa. We saw them off and decided to walk around a bit for the remaining ten minutes before class. Our conversations were incredibly lighthearted, and I know Kaminari didn't purposely make me uncomfortable, but that did nothing to make me feel better.

Maybe to have friends...I need to trust other people.

I took a deep breath. "When my quirk first manifested, I almost killed my childhood best friend."

Why the fuck did I word it like that-

Kaminari stared down at the ground in silence, his eyes seemingly glued to his shoes.

Fuck, fuck, fuck! I gotta fix this.

"I-I promise, I'm not dangerous, I just-" I stumbled over my words. "I didn't know how to control it, I was a dumb little kid."

I felt a lump build up in my throat. I needed to elaborate. It's too late to go back. Maybe I can make this better.

But..why did I want to tell him everything?

Before I could filter myself, words began to fill my mouth to the brim from years of being held back behind my bitten tongue. I lost hold on them and felt as each individual letter slipped off, one by one sealing my demise.

"I have the ability to both crystallize and control blood cells. I can control both people and blood that falls outside of a wound. I can also harden blood after it's exposed to oxygen. This all probably sounds like gibberish to you, I mean, it's so weird to have two quirks, but it's even weirder to have a couple of confusing ones, yanno?" I let out a weak laugh, hoping I hadn't scared him off. "I don't use it because it's an awful thing to gain power from pain. I probably just ruined our friendship and you'll probably never speak to me again. I'm a monster, I'm really sorry. I-"

Before I could continue, Kaminari's arm wrapped firmly around my waist. His hand planted itself gently on the back of my head, beckoning me to collapse it onto his shoulder.

What the fuck am I doing? Have I been deprived of friends for this long?

"You are not a monster," the blonde whispered softly.

Kaminari's kind words immediately broke down the walls I had worked so hard to put up.

Tears cascaded down my face. I bit my lip to choke them down, but it was already too late. There I was, pathetically sobbing into his shoulder after knowing him for a mere day.

I pulled away. "I am so sorry. I'm being ridiculous. This is ridiculous. Thank you for your kindness but I'm not worth the energy. I'll see you around, Kaminari."

And with that, I was halfway across the hallway, leaving him speechless.

I'm a desperate fucking idiot. I've tried so hard to push my emotions down, yet they always come, like a leaking faucet falling from inside my eyes...

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