That was the ending of my matchmaker duty. I officially introduced my manager to Pam. The stern face manager changed immediately to a cute little boy in front of the beautiful face. I was now his permanent wingman, his buddy, his friend. I now can take a break as long as I want, talk on the phone, or chat and no one will scold me. My colleagues knew why I was spoiled and they envied me. Pam visits me more often than just one day a week. She came on Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday, 3 days a week, just the days I work.

" I don't want to come here on other days. I have you to talk to If I come on the you're here. "

We became close again like sisters, more than like a sister of a boyfriend.

" The manager is smiling all day. His heart is like a big balloon full of air. The person he's in love with is sitting and talking to him. Helping other people like that, you'll go to heaven for sure. "

Pheme stood next to me and looked at the two people chatting. " It's a nice thing to see. "

" Yeah.. "

I admitted with ignorance. It's nothing that special to see. To be honest, I think a charming woman like Pam should be with someone more than a stern-faced coffee shop manager like Eak.

" Do you still have a problem with the manager? " " Not really. "

" If you're not so excited about them, why did you introduce Pam to the manager? "

" I just introduced her because he wanted to know her. "

I replied casually. Pheme gave me a little push on my shoulder and smirked at me like he knew something.

" Are you jealous? " " What?! "

I looked at him with confusion.

" You're obviously jealous. Are you afraid she will love him more than you? "

I slam the cup I was cleaning down to the table because I don't like what he was suggesting. I was a grown woman, not a small little girl that was jealous of her big sister.

" That's nonsense. "

" Why are you mad? "

Pam visited the coffee shop and sat for a long time until I finished work, then we will grab dinner together after work. Now we're like friends who share and exchange everything. My University life is very simple. We talked about my classmates or I told her about my day at work. The sweet face always listened to me and smiled, she paid attention to everything I said like she enjoyed it

" Seriously, I think the guy near the door is looking at you. A stare like that can erode you, you're beautiful, you have to be carefull. "

" I would be fully deteriorated. I've seen a stare like that since I was young. "

If someone else said this, I would raise my eyebrows because it sounded

like a narcissist. But this was Pam, she was perfect from head to toe. I knew that was all true, even I stared at her often.

" A stare that admired you, must have made you feel good. " " Why is that? "

She asked curiously.

" We all like a bit of attention. " " I felt a bit uncomfortable. "

This was another side of her I didn't know. People looked at her admiringly, but it made her feel uncomfortable. How did that make you feel?

" How. "

The sweet face walked ahead of me. I followed her slowly. I looked at her back and felt appreciated and jealous a bit at the same time. What have you done to be so perfect in this life? I believe people who walk past her must feel the same thing.

" Whatever I do, wherever I go, I feel people are looking at me. There are both people who looked with admiration and some without good intentions. "

" We can't make everybody like us, even Buddha couldn't do that. "

I borrowed the line from somewhere I couldn't remember. But It seems to fit in this situation. Pam turned around and smiled back at me admiringly.

" Yes, that is true. But I don't like being stared at, It makes me nervous about what other people think of me. I don't want to move, to smile, to laugh, to talk with anyone. I'm afraid people will misunderstand me. "

" That make you a quiet person? "

" I'm not a quiet person, I chose not to talk. I think it's the safest thing to do, not to show your emotion. "

We walk coordinately. She sighed when we talked about this. " Do you feel under pressure not showing your emotions? "

" I think expressing your feelings is more difficult. My father said my eyes are too attractive, it could be misinterpreted by other people. Don't make eye contact with other guys. "

I totally agree with this point. Her eyes were magnets of guys and maybe girls too. Sometimes I like to look in her bright brown eyes reflected with the sunlight. It was so appealing that I wanted to get closer, But it was like the story of Icarus, who flew too close to the sun,his wings got burned and down.

If love is as warm as the sun, men who are attracted to Pam were crushed inside out like my brother, Kawee. Dangerous but attractive.

" Why are you quiet? "

Pam turned and looked at me. Those dangerous bright brown eyes caught me by surprise.

" Why are you surprised? "

Pam laughed and padded my head lightly. I looked down on the floor shyly and laughed it off.

" I was thinking about what your dad said, your attractive eyes. You caught me by surprise with your natural gaze. "

" Should I wear sunglasses? "

" No! Don't do that, I like your eyes. It would be a shame If I didn't see it. " I smiled shyly and she nodded understandably.

" Then I won't wear them If you like my eyes. But just that? Are my eyes the only thing you like about me? Anything else? "

" Everything about you is nice. "

" Did you already see everything? " " Well... "

The picture of her that day when she was drunk popped into my head. I thought I saw almost everything except what's underneath that tiny panty.

" Are we finished talking about your eyes? "

" Let's change the topic. "

Pam laughed and put her arm around my shoulder while we continued walking together.

" My dad said don't look at the man If I don't have feelings for him. I didn't quite understand this until my cousin who is three years older than me tried to take advantage of me. "

" What!? "

" Yes. "

Her sweet soft voice changed swiftly to a harsh and cold voice.

" He was trying to take advantage of me because he thought I was inviting him. "

" And what happened? "

I didn't even dare to ask how it ended. I might just scratch on the surface of her deep wound.

" I ran and I let myself free. My cousin told my dad that I was looking at him seductively. But I loved and adored him like a big brother. That wasn't right. "

That was a downside of being so beautiful. I never had thought about this. The arrogant good-looking woman might only want to keep a distance from people just to protect herself.

" Now I know why you're so quiet."

" Since then, I don't want to talk to anyone. Women don't like me because they think I'm cocky or trying to steal their boyfriends. Men thought I was inviting them to play. I don't like that kind of romantic relationship. It's always about sex. It's disgusting. Can I just have a sincere relationship without that dirty stuff? Like friends, buddies. "

" Like me and you, Ruk. I think it's beautiful. "

I knew now why she felt disgusted about that. The sweet faced Pam has a problem other people won't understand. I just realized that today after that explanation.

" Yes, I think our relationship is beautiful. "

I took a step to be by her side and gave her a big smile.

" I am not as beautiful as you. That's why I want people to love me. " " Is it not enough these days? "

" No, not enough. I haven't found the right person. I have to keep trying. "

" Huh? "

" I expressed myself openly to other people to make them understand how I feel. If I was mad, I showed that I'm mad. If they don't like me, they can move on. It's like I screen people from the start. " " Yes, I see your point. "

" I tried hard for people to like me, that's why I envy you who don't have to try at all. You just be, but people like you. "

" You are a sincere person. "

" An introvert like you could be sincere too. Some people are open and opinionated, like me, could be fake too. "

Seemed like my statement could make her laugh, and gave the world some colors.

" No, you're not like that. I know you express whatever you feel. " " No, not everything. "

" Like what? "

I tried to think of something I had hidden. " Actually nothing. "

" See, I told you. I knew you. "

Her confidence made me a little bit shy.

" I knew you too. You are not that quiet. " " Have you ever heard me being loud? "

The beautiful face giggled teasingly. Pam will always keep her best image. It was always slow and elegant, which went with that pretty face.

" Pam laughs a lot but mostly with me. That's how I know you're not quiet. "

She looked at me considerably.

" That's true, I don't laugh that often. I mostly laugh with you. You're the only one I usually laughed with. "

Thump!

Thump!

My heart boomed and beat harder when I heard from the pretty face that I got a privilege to see and hear her adorable laugh.

" That's true. I wonder why I'm the only one who sees you laugh. "

I was taunted. I sort of expected a serious answer. The sweet face leaned forward with her arms behind her back and looked at me with a serious face.

" Because of Ruk. "

" I love funny people. " " Yes. "

I looked at her, who was about to burst out a big laugh again. " I love your face now. "

I was her comedian. . . We both walk alongside each other without knowing a destination. Our conversation was obscured with something. It made me come up with more questions.

" If you hated a romantic relationship that much. "

I stopped right at the middle of the sentence to pull her attention toward me.

" Yes,? "

" Why did you date Kawee? "

The question took her by surprise. She stopped walking and looked at me before she said.

" The letter. "

" What letter? "

" The letter that he sent to me. I love that letter that's why I decided to date him. Just that. It's a bit old school. "

That letter? . . . The sweet-faced woman kept walking forward. I felt my heart beat strangely. I wasn't sure why I felt like this toward her. It was pain tangled with happiness. Will anyone understand what I feel?

" What happened, why did you stop walking? " " Yes. "

I kept up with her like a duckling following a mother duck. Pam squeezed my hand tight as if to make sure I was really there.

" Don't get lost. "

I looked down shyly, feeling like a girl out on a date even if the other person was a girl. I guess It was normal for whoever spent time with Pam to feel special. Was I feeling too excited?