I learnt a lot living with someone else. I realized I have to share half of my time with her. Sometimes she became a big influence in my decisions.

Many times I gave in for her because of love. Like this situation. "Do you like the new swimsuit I bought for you?"

"This is a diving suit. Not a swimsuit."

"Well it's both used in the water. I have fins too." "Why would I need fins?"

I wanted to cry looking at my image in the mirror. From head to toe, my body was covered. Not an inch of my skin got to breathe.

"Now all I need is a hijab" I said sarcastically.

"Do you want one?"

Pam replicst honestly. I wanted to scream. Her honesty made me give up. She also covered herself from head to toe.

"Are you wearing the same thing I'm wearing now?"

"No."

"That's cheating. Why are you wearing something nice and I'm wearing something like this."

"I know you'll protest. I'll show you how it feels to see your girlfriend in a swimsuit."

She said and put her arm around my shoulders. "Let's go swimming."

I didn't get this. It was just a swimsuit. Everybody was wearing the same thing. Celebrity wore it for a fashion shoot. This was an apartment's swimming pool, not a beach. Who would look at me? She was too possessive of me! I needed to talk to her about this. This was my life! We arrived on the top floor of the apartment. It was late afternoon. A few people were swimming. They looked at my swimsuit and giggled. The only thing I needed now was an oxygen tank to be ready for a dive. I pouted a little when I saw Pam looking at me. What else can I do? We are here now. I had to swim. What else can I say? I walked to the pool and jumped right in. It made me less embarrassed to be underwater. Pam sat down on a chair and looked at me, like she was my parent.

"You are not going to join me?"

"Are you inviting me with that face?"

"Please wait here. I'll buy you some water."

Pam walked away to a vending machine we walked past earlier. I heard someone call out to me while I was swimming.

"Hello, do you remember me? I'm your neighbor." I paused and processed.

"I met you at the lobby and thought you dropped a 100-bath banknote. I just recently moved here too."

I now remembered him.

"Hello, yes I remembered you now."

"I'm swimming with my nephew. Good to see you again. Are you swimming alone,"

"I'm with..."

The neighbor paused and looked behind me stunned. The rest of the people in the pool also looked at the same thing. They seemed to appreciate something behind me. I felt nervous and realized it must be Pam. She took off her robe and revealed her perfect body with a small bikini. On her top was a thin white shawl covering her breast. She let her hair down and covered her left shoulder. She sat down near the new neighbor and handed me a drink.

"Here you are. I know you're thirsty."

The good-looking neighbor now looked at Pam like she was way out of his league. He looked as thirsty as I do. I looked at Pam and realized she planned this. And it worked!

"No, I don't want it." "Ok."

"Up to you then."

Pam looked at the new neighbor and gave a friendly smile. "Hello new neighbor."

"H... Hello.."

The neighbor was nervous when she talked to him. He looked so nervous that he didn't know where to put his arms and legs. I couldn't believe she was jealous of me and did this in return.

"I saw you before. "

"I...I just moved in here. I've seen you before."

I swam out away from the two of them who now chit chat so friendly. I got out of the pool and walked to Pam. I covered her with her robe fiercely.

Pam looked at the robe and acted surprised. "Let's go. I'm done swimming."

"Why?"

There was a smirk on her lip that couldn't interpret into something else. I was so pissed that I just walked back by myself.

"It's ok if you will stay."

I didn't look back. I didn't know if she followed me. I came back to our room, took a shower and already got dressed. Pam wasn't back. She was still on the rooftop swimming pool. My anger was now at the roof. My jealousy was boiling to the max until I heard the door slam. Pam walked in with a robe over herself but she was dry, She didn't go in the pool. She smiled when she saw me

"You're done showering."

"Why did you come back so late?" "I was chatting."

"But I was here."

"Well, you told me it was ok if I will stay. I thought you were ok with me talking to the neighbor. What did I do wrong?"

I looked at her surprisingly. This was her other angle that I never met. She is usually a calm person but she actually could be a mean and sarcastic person. I was the only one who saw this part of her. Should I be proud?

"Are you jealous?" "Yes."

"That's cute."

She laughed and now I understood what she meant when she didn't want me to wear a swimsuit,

"Please don't wear this again." "This is so expensive."

"Do you wear it often?"

"This was my first time, I don't usually swim. I don't want people to look at me.

"Why did you wear it today?"

"I wanted you to see me but then other people would see it too. I also wanted to show you that no one wants their girlfriend to be too revealing. It wasn't a good feeling."

"I'm going in the shower. We can talk about this later."

Pam walked into the shower but left the door slightly opened. "Pam, where do you keep a scissor?"

The sweet face poked out from the door and pointed to the table at a stationary corner.

"In a red cookie box in my drawer." "Is it sharp?"

"The scissors are supposed to be sharp."

I walked to the table and took it out from where she said. I held it in my hand and estimated how sharp it was. I walked right into the bathroom where Pam was about to take it off. She was surprise that I now held the scissor in my hand in the bathroom in front of her.

" Huh? "

CUT!!!

I cut a tiny string in the front top part. It was now in two pieces, covering some of her breast and cutting the lower bikini too.

"Why do you cut it? That's too bad." "So you don't wear it again."

The sweet face was now smiling despite her almost naked body in front of me. We looked into each other eyes like we were talking, till Pam broke the silence,

"You're happy now. I'm going to shower."

"I'm mad at you for talking with another man. You have to make it up to me."

"How should I do that?"

I pushed the sweet face into the tub and looked at her slyly. "Just be still and let me do whatever I want. "

Sometimes I was so naughty that I guilty to Pam. I did whatever I wanted to her. It had been two months that we lived together. Everything was sweet like before. Only we had more fights like normal girl stuff. Pam was very nice but she was super jealous too. I just realized that I was a jealous person too. But I didn't want to show it too much. I didn't want to spoil her. She seemed to enjoy it when I was jealous at the swimming pool. Sometimes she flirted with other people and asked me with an innocent look.

"Do you get jealous when I do that?"

At the coffee shop, the atmosphere between the manager and me wasn't that bad. At the beginning, there were some tensions between us. But he seemed to accept it. He told me that he wasn't mad at me because he already liked me. He didn't tell anybody about Pam and I because it was a private matter. The manager was mature and asked me to pass a message to Pam that he still wanted to be friends with her. There wasn't any awkwardness between us, so Pam still visited me at the shop as usual.

"I think you look more beautiful, Ruk. "

Nene, who recently started her part time job here, said this when I was cleaning a table.

"What should I do with this flattering?" I said shyly.

"Well, just smile at it. You're more beautiful because of happiness. Happiness that comes from love."

The cute girl looked at me.

"Does love really make everybody more beautiful?" "Stop that. What love?"

"People around here talk about Pam and you all the time. Is it true?"

I didn't answer the question but smiled. The cute girl seemed to understand that.

"That's nice. I usually don't care much about love, whether it's women or men. But your relationship made me expand my horizons. Now I'm looking for women too."

The definition of my relationship was a bit weird. I shook my head and disagreed.

"I don't know. I usually like men, but Pam is exceptional." "You mean Pam will be the only woman you like?"

"Yes, I think so."

"I think I understand something then."

Nene stood there contemplating something. I smiled to Nene after I finished cleaning the table.

"What are you thinking now?"

"If it's a man, I can only like the manager." "Do you like the manager?"

I looked at her admiringly. I felt good for Eak that someone finally fell for him. What she said afterwards made me nervous.

"But if it's a woman, I can only like you." "What do you mean?"

I didn't pay much attention to what she said but the cute girl looked me straight in the eyes.

"I'm serious about it. I really liked you for a while."

Silence in the shop was now too loud. But I was saved by the ring on my phone.

"I need to get this."

I walked away and looked at my phone. I was surprise to see the caller ID...Kawee.

"Hi there, what's happening? "

[Where are you? Are you studying?]

"What happened to you? Your voice doesn't sound ok. " He gave a big sigh but didn't give more detail.

[I wanted to see you now. I'm at your apartment but you're not here. I'll go see you. Where are you now?]

I hesitated to tell where I was. It wasn't a good idea to tell him that I had a part-time job. Pam stopped by here quite often too.

"Wait there. I'll be there. Give me an hour." [Hurry! Or I'll kill myself again.]

"What the fuck is wrong, Kawee? Why are you talking like that?" [I don't want to live anymore. I wanted to see you. Please come.] That wasn't good. Damn it!