Today is different. I once saw a twitter post from a famous writer who took a photo of the sky and noticed that the color of the sky in each day was different. I never knew that before until now. Was it our feeling toward the sky that was different? The clock on the wall showed 8am. I sat on the bed quietly, while Pam also awaked in a pile of comforters on the bed. We both awaked for a while but no one said anything.

Tick tick tick.

It was so quiet that I could hear the second hand on the clock ticking louder and louder. I could hear a mosquito flying around near my ear. It annoyed me. What happened to me today? Why would I pay so much attention to my surroundings, rather than talking to the person next to me on the bed.

"What time is your class?" I broke the silence. "10am."

"Do you always wake up this time?"

"Yes, around this time. I still got time for breakfast after I take a shower. What about you? Any class today?"

"Yes, I have a class at 10am too."

Silence....I think I need more cocktails. I was me again today without alcohol and it was hard to explain where were that crazy, brave move came from. I was so shy I couldn't even look at her. We did a lot of things last night. My heart beat faster thinking about it again.

"You can go in the shower. I'll go down and buy you a new toothbrush. I used yours last night."

"Why do you have to buy a new one?" "You said you'll throw it away."

"So you do remember last night."

Oh, I wanted to smash my head onto the closet because I knew how my face was now. But Pam could still keep her face still, emotionless. She had better control of herselt.

"Yes, I remembered every detail."

Now the sweet face turned pink. Who could forget about that? That was a couple hours ago. I was tipsy but not totally wasted.

"Ok, you'll get me a new toothbrush and I'll go into the shower."

Even so, we both sat still on the bed. The sweet face gestured to me to leave while most of her body was still under the covers. I was surprised that she hadn't moved.

"Why do you have to wait till I'm gone to go into the shower?" "I don't have any clothes on."

I looked around on the floor. Our clothes were scattered around everywhere. There were Pam's shorts and my t-shirt. I looked down on myself wondering what I was wearing. Oh, I was wearing Pam's shirt.

"Well, you don't have to be shy. "

I said with a smile but I still couldn't look her in the eyes. "How come you're not like last night."

I rubbed my face nervously and gave out a big sighed. "I don't know."

"I don't know either,"

"I think we should smash this small wall between us."

I said with determination and crawled into Pam, who was now still under a big thick comforter.

"We should stop being so shy."

The sweet face hugged the comforter tighter than before when I tried to pull it out. I looked at the sweet face affectionately.

"I'm still not used to this." "I saw it all last night."

I said it bravely and acted as if it was the most normal thing. "We are both girls, there's no need to be shy."

"Why do you make me naked alone?"

The beautiful face looked at her shirt on my body and gestured. "You take it off too."

Ok, I understood how she felt when I asked to see her naked. I was nervous but still nodded.

"Ok, I'll take it off." "Let me see yours first."

She's a good negotiator. I would be a bit shy if I had to take my shirt off at midday like this. So... .

" let me go into the cover with you. It's a bit too open here." "No, I'm naked."

We negotiated like a tug of war. At the end, I managed to slid myself under the cover next to her and took off the shirt I wore. The point of all these was just to break the ice. So we could quite being so shy. Pam and I was under the cover together. Both of us tried to pull comforter toward ourself. We both quiet for a while until Pam saw something and mentioned it.

"Ruk, let me see your shoulder." "Yes? Sure."

I showed my bare shoulder to her. She looked guilty and touched it gently, like she tried to heal it.

"Does it hurt when I touch it?" "No, it doesn't hurt."

"I left my teeth mark here."

She paused when I remembered what happened last night. When we both almost at the climax, Pam bit my shoulder hard. I didn't feel anything at all, like my concentration was somewhere else. And now we're both in a normal situation, it was so embarrassing to see evidence of our lust.

"Seem like I'm not the only one left with marks."

I said when I noticed marks when I left on my breast. I pulled the cover down and this time there was no resistance. I looked at her smooth bright skin full of red marks and felt guilty. Last night I was so carried away. "So sorry I did these. How do I make it go away?"

"They will be gone. No worry and they are under my clothes. No one can see them if I don't let them."

"But you let me see them, how should I fix these."

I leaned down and kissed those marks while Pam also kissed on my shoulder.

"How to fix this?"

"Will it be ok if you skip breakfast. You might be a bit late."

I asked while I was still busy with those marks around her breast. I didn't care if the comforter fell off already. Pam laid down and smiled at me.

"I can skip breakfast for a day it won't kill me. I can eat something else. "

I smiled to the sweet face while my hands touched her slender body. Now I knew what to do.

"I'm glad I'm your breakfast today."

We almost didn't make it to the class this morning. When Pam wore her white dentist gown that I liked, I couldn't resist but tried to take it off again.

It was a long wrestling match. We left almost at 10am. The sky was so different today. My heart beat happily. Pam looked at me all the time and that made me didn't want to leave for a class. But it was time for her to go.

"Have a nice day. Call me once you're there." "Love you."

This time the old joke was so funny, it made me laugh. It really came from the heart.

"See you later." "Bye."

Our hands still clasped tight while two trains passed us by. The beautiful face looked sad and finally let my hand go.

"I really have to go. " Pam said.

"See you later."

I looked at her getting on the train and walked to the other side of the train track where I supposed to go. It was only two minutes and I already missed her. It was so sweet. I didn't understand a single thing my teacher said, as I expected. Whatever she said had came out the other ear. I paid the tuition fee just to sit in a lecture room and drew some cartoon, walked away and worked part-time job in a coffee shop. Today the coffee shop was quiet. I only thought about myself, until I forgot the other important thing.

"Did you know Pheme already quite?"

I forgot that Pheme still existed. If I didn't hear this from the manager, I was still in my own world

"When did he leave?"

"He called yesterday to quit. He said he didn't have time to work. He also asked me to be nice to you. Is everything ok between you two?"

"Yes."

I wasn't sure if that called ok or not. Since then, I had no contact with Pheme. I didn't reach out to him at all. The past two days were very eventful. I could forget about small little things. But I shouldn't forget about Pheme. Oh, thate myself!

"I'm happy to see that you're ok. I was worried that you'll be sad when he left."

"I will be sad if you scold me."

"I won't scold you. Pam might not be happy with me."

I smiled a little. I wanted to laugh at his sarcastic tone. He should know who owns her. I am actually a possessive lover.

Ring Ring

The bell in front of the shop's door rang A customer just walked in. I surprised when I turned around to see a familiar face.

"Bitchy Bua, no, I mean Bua."

I called out to her automatically. Bua wear her sunglasses, waved to me and sat down. A few minutes later, Titang and Nutshell followed in.

"Do we have an appointment?"

"Of course, it's so hard to make an appointment with high school friends than having Justin Bieber as a husband. "

Titang said and flicked her fingers,

"Take the order. Don't be too casual with your customers." "Yeah."

"Your treat."

"You bitch, you treat me like a slave and ask me to pay?"

I complained jokingly. I wrote down the order and passed it to the counter. I asked permission from the manager and later took a break and sat down with my friends. Today the coffee shop was not busy. The manager was relaxed.

"What happened why are you all here? Her boyfriend is back?" I asked curiously before Bua pursed her lip.

"Even if he is down on the floor begging, I still won't go back."

"What was that last night then? You were so sad and drunk moaning for him."

"I just wanted to cry it all out."

Bua moved uncomfortably on her chair.

"Actually, I'm here to say sorry to you. I learned from them about what I did in front of your girlfriend she was ice cold when she saw I kissed you."

I looked at her annoyingly. Bua put her two hands together and bowed deep gesturing a deep sorrow.

"I'm so sorry."

"Yeah, forget about it." I brushed it off,

"I wasn't that big of a deal."

Titang who always had senses, noticed some happiness surrounded me, moved her face closer toward mine.

"Something good happened last night?" "No."

I responded with a still face but with close friends who knew me inside out would notice it.

"We argued a little bit but it's ok now. She knew now that Bitchy Bua is a real drunk bitch, and kissed around."

I looked at them all realized that they could just call if it was about that. They were all here for some reasons.

"Why are you all here?"

Bitchy Bua was always an impatient person. She saw all friends were quiet, so she decided to ask out loud.

"Is it true between Pam and you?"

I quickly put my hand over her mouth. I didn't want the manager to hear this. I pointed at her fiercely.

"Why do you have to be loud?"

Bua pointed at my hand asked me to let go.

"Ok, I won't be loud. But what are you so afraid of." "Do you think I should have a press release?"

"Stop being so sarcastic and tell the story. I wanted to know about this. Is it true?"

Bitchy Bua now looked so excited and wanted to update the details.

"I got confirmation from Nutshell and Titang that it is true. But I need to hear from you."

"Is it that exciting?" "Come on!"

Her voice was loud again and then she lowered it down tried to stop herself. "You can sleep with anyone in this world but not Pam!"

"Why?!"

"Because you're a pile of junk and she is an angel. An angel doesn't suppose to live in a dump site. Think about it, an angel is flying around the dump site. It won't be a nice image to see."

Bitch...

"Did you two already fuck?"

This classic question was always a must to ask. It was a common question like asking "Did you eat food yet?" But this common question made audiences so excited for an answer as if they were waiting for an Oscar announcement for best actor. I pursed my lip.

"You are so dirty. What kind of person do you think I am?" "Isn't it feel weird having your brother's ex as your girlfriend?"

Finally Nutshell asked the question someone never asked before. Bua's excitement paused a bit and now she paid attention to Nutshell's question instead.

"Yeah, your brother was in bad shape because of Pam. We all saw what he went through. He has a family now but it is still weird."

Bua sighed.

"Dating your friend's ex is bad but this is your brother's ex and almost cause him his life. What your family would think about this?"

"I haven't thought that far. "

"You should! Especially if you wanted to have a long-term relationship with her. One day Kawee will find out."

"But Kawee is married. What right does he has to be jealous of Pam?" "If you date my ex, I would be angry too. Do you understand that?"

I was in a good mood today but they were here to asked a heavy question. A bell rang signaling someone just walked through the door. I got up but paused after I saw a white dentist gown in a slender body. She smiled at me.

"Ruk."

"Pam."

Each step she took brought me further and further away from my worry. I looked at her in the white gown and fall in love with her over and over again. We almost cuddled if it weren't because of my friends.

"Hello Pam."

Bua greeted her and smiled beautifully: The sweet face halted and looked agitated a bit. If I had to guess, it must be from the kiss last night. Like I said the sweet face was very jealous!

"Hello."

Pam greeted back. Bua realized how she felt, so she started to be nice to her.

"Please sit down. This chair is very clean. You can sit with your white gown here I just cleaned it."

All friends looked at her and shook their heads. Pam sat down quietly and puzzled why Bitchy Bua was so sweet.

"Pam."

Bua called her and put two hands together and lifted them up high, gestured to apologize to Pam.

"I'm sorry for what I did last night. I didn't kiss just Ruk. When I drank I kissed everyone in the bar, even a street dog. Please don't be mad at Ruk."

"It's not a big deal."

Pam smiled and the tension relieved. Last night wasn't like this at all.

"I don't want Ruk to go out at night. It's dangerous. I was worried about her."

"I promised there won't be next time. If I'm going to kiss her again, I'll call you first."

"I don't think I'll say ok to that."

The sweet face said with a cold smile. Everyone felt the cold, including me. Titang looked at both of us and asked like she knew nothing before.

"But why are you so possessive of her? Do you want to share us about something?"

Her question made everyone quiet. I kicked my queer friend under the table. We hadn't talk it through. I didn't even know what she think about our relationship whether she wanted other people to know about it or not. Pam looked at me and nodded.

"I'll let you speak."

Now all eyes are on me despite the fact that they already knew the story. They were watching a movie when a woman and a man was about to get married.

"Pam and I are close because..."

I looked at Pam shyly. I felt my ears flushed red. "We are dating."