Hyunjin

The days flew by. So far, we did not really have an opportunity to spend time together. But I planned to take the next step with my Felix... I did some further research on the Internet, to what exactly pay attention to.

Barely noticeable I shook my head, because we were gathered to have a look at the MVs. I needed to stay focus. Our Hyung announced that Red Lights was played next.

When he started the video, I actually wanted to see Felix's reaction, but unfortunately, he was sitting in front of me.

When the video came to an end, our band members congratulated us, and Felix also approached me with a smile and gently stroked my arm. Immediately my skin tingled under the hoody where he had touched me.

But when I looked at his face, I noticed that his look had changed a bit.

*What's with that face? Is he sad? But why?*

"I'm going for a walk.", Felix informed us shortly after and I already thought this would be the chance to be alone with him. That's why I offered him company, but he wanted to go alone. Unintentionally, his rejection hurt a bit, but I accepted his decision.

He had been gone for a while now. I was bored in my room playing on my cell phone while Bang Chan was on the bed working with his laptop. There was a knock at the door. Immediately I jumped up hoping it would be Felix, only to look into Jeongin's eyes a little disappointed right after.

"Hey Hyunnie... Do you have a minute to talk?" he asked, looking at Chan.

"Alone..." he followed up, looking down at the floor.

I nodded and he said that Jisung wasn't in their room right now. That's why I followed him.

*What does he want to talk to me about? Is something bothering him?*

We stood there, facing each other for a while, but he couldn't look me in the eye.

"Jeongin, what's wrong?", I asked him worriedly.

"I... Hyunjin, do you have something going on with Felix?", he asked me, looking into my eyes at that moment and that's when I saw it.

He was hurt and sad. But why?

"N-",

"Don't you dare lie to me! You think I don't see how you look at him? The way you always grope each other, conspicuously more than anyone else? Do you think I'm an Idiot and don't notice?!",

Completely perplexed, I stare at him. By now tears were running down his face.

*What is his problem?*

"Jeongin, what's wrong with you?", I asked, trying to avoid his accusations.

"YOU'RE asking ME what's wrong?! Tell me, don't you know or do you not want to understand?!" he yelled at me, his hands clenched into fists on his body.

"NO! Tell me what's going on!!!", I yelled back now, having no idea what he was getting at.

Completely surprised, he strode up to me, grabbed me by the hoodie and connected our lips.

*What the hell?!*

He had acted too quickly, I couldn't react at all and just as I was about to push him away, I saw someone standing at the door.

*Shit! FELIX!*

Roughly, I pushed Jeongin away from me:

"Felix, wait!!!", I yelled and ran after the boy, but was immediately held back by something.

"See? You're always running after him!" cried Jeongin and I looked at him, startled.

I couldn't process the whole thing right now.

*Jeongin had kissed me... Does that mean he likes me?*

I didn't have time to worry about the maknae right now.

"I can't, please, I have to go after Felix!", I desperately said, tore my wrist loose and rushed to Felix's room.

Locked.

"Felix please open up! PLEASE!", I shouted and banged on the door, but he didn't open.

Then from inside I heard the little one's heart-wrenching crying. As tears ran down my cheeks, I continued to pound on the door:

"Felix please, let me explain! Please, please! Let me in!", I sobbed desperately.

"What's wrong?", Jisung came running up and looked at me, scared.

"Hyunnie! Shit, what happened? Are you okay?" he immediately came up to me and grabbed my hands. The hammering had scratched them open, and they were bleeding.

Minho also came running. Scared as well, he looked at me, then at the door. He seemed to understand that something was completely wrong, because he quickly pulled me into our room, locked the door and pulled me to my bed.

Questioningly he looked at me, but I couldn't move my lips. Snorting, he rolled his eyes and pulled me into a hug. He didn't say anything until I calmed down and pushed me away from him again:

"Now stop messing up my sweater and tell me what's going on."

Stuttering, I told him what Jeongin had done and that Felix saw it and had locked himself in the room.

I thought I heard a "I saw it coming," but I might have misheard as well.

Of course, Minho's advice was to talk to him, but only after Felix's shock had subsided. After that, I crawled into my bed and refused to eat dinner. I just wanted to close my eyes and sleep.

I wanted this day to end quickly. Tomorrow I would try to talk to him. He would understand.

He had to!