Felix

*Hmmm... I am still so tired. And somehow I feel a little cold.

Here. Here is it nice and warm...*

I snuggled into the warm spot and sighed.

*Oh? What's that noise I hear? What's that thudding sound?*

Even more I pushed my head in the direction of the sound.

Dudum... Dudum...

*Is that a heartbeat?*

Tired, I opened my eyes and felt something holding me.

*Who...?*

Slowly I turned my head upwards and looked straight into a beautiful sleeping face.

Suddenly the memories came back and my face started to heat up. Immediately I turned my head away and panic overtook me.

*Fu...!! Me! Him! Damn it!*

Completely overwhelmed with the situation, I first tried to reconstruct what had happened:

I wanted to talk to him. He danced Play with Fire for me. We kissed. Then his mouth was everywhere. Finally, he gave me a blow job and I fell asleep...

*Quintessence: I didn't talk to him and I got an orgasm from a guy.... Shit! What am I supposed to do now? How do I react? Why did he do this? I thought he didn't want me? Why did I allow him to do that to me? I can't expect him to have feelings for me now. Or can I? I was probably just in the right place at the right time. Actually, I want to talk to him, but I don't think that's a good idea right now. As long as I don't know what's going on in the other person's head, I'd better hold back. Despite Chan's advice. Shit, what time is it anyway*

I thought I fell asleep on the floor against the wall, but Hyunjin must have carried me to the couch and fell asleep too. Unfortunately, I had snuggled up to him earlier and was now lying on top of him.

*How embarrassing!*

Fortunately, he had remembered to put on a shirt....

Preoccupied with myself, I didn't notice at first that the taller guy had moved under me.

"Hmmm... Lixie? Are you awake?", I heard his sleepy voice.

*Shit! Quickly pretend to sleep!*

I squinted my eyes and tried to breathe calmly. But then I felt him press a kiss on the top of my head and I had to hold my breath. My heart was pounding like crazy and I was afraid he was able to hear it.

I heard him sigh. He tried to push me off him as gently as possible and as far as I could tell with my eyes closed, he got up and walked out of the room.

I immediately sat up and searched my cell phone.

*What time is it anyway?*

It was almost one o'clock in the morning.

*Goddamn...!*

Of course, there was nothing unusual about going to bed late from time to time, but I had 21 missed calls and 7 messages from Chan:

Channie ❤️

20:03

Hey kiddo! Hope it went well ;)

21:54

Are you two still at the studio? Everything's good?

22:36

Felix?

22:59

Is everything okay?

23:13

Please call me back as soon as you read this, I'm worried. Hyunnjinnie is not answering me either :(

23:49

Lee Yongbok!!!! Please tell me everything is fine with you?!

00:14

Son of a bitch Felix!!! I'm heading to the studio now!!! You better be ok!

Just as I was about to call Chan, the door opened and Hyunjin looked at me a bit startled. He probably hadn't expected me to be awake.

"Hey," he cleared his throat and looked down at the floor in embarrassment.

"Hey", I replied, wanting to slap myself. 'Hey?' How stupid was this only getting a mumbled hey past my lips?!

What had happened stood between us and I could not yet guess the aftermath. Neither I nor the long-haired could get a word out of our mouth and there was an oppressive silence.

"Lixie?" he then dared and walked towards me.

Again, panic spread inside of me. I wasn't ready for his words, no matter what they were.

Upset, I looked down at the floor at my feet while still sitting on the sofa, cell phone in the right hand.

"Lixie, I...", he started, but then my cell phone rang.

Gratefully, I answered it immediately without looking to see who it was.

Hyunjin

I woke up when I noticed Felix snuggling up to me. It felt so good.

After he fell asleep with his head on my shoulder, I got tired too. I decided to lay him on the couch and myself next to him. Shortly after, I fell asleep as well.

"Hmmm... Lixie? Are you awake?", I asked still a little sleepy. I received no answer. He was still asleep, according to his breath.

He was lying on top of me, his head on my chest, which made me smile.

After a sigh, I pressed a kiss on his hair and tried to get him off me gently. I really needed to go to the bathroom.

Glad not to have woken him up, I ran to the bathroom.

As I washed my hands, I looked in the mirror.

*What have I done? What did we do? Was it the right thing to do? Hopefully it wasn't too rushed like last time. But he definitely liked it!*

I splashed water on my face, hoping to get some clarity. After this action, which went further than the previous one in my room, one thing was clear for sure. We had to talk. Because we could not go on like this.

*First he wanted, then suddenly no longer, then he pretends as if nothing happened. Suddenly he is jealous and finally this happend? How is one supposed to understand this?*

Completely confused, I made my way back to Felix. When I opened the door, I was surprised to see that he was already awake and staring at his cell phone.

"Hey," I barely managed to say, looking down at the floor in embarrassment. I couldn't look him in the face yet. He returned my hey.

*we really need to work this out now*

With all my courage, I asked:

"Lixie?" and walked up to him.

"Lixie, I...", I was about to continue, but I was interrupted by Felix's ringing cell phone, which he answered immediately.

"Lee Felix! Damnitwhatisgoingonwithyoutwo?!"

I heard Chan's voice screaming through the cell phone. The little boy had to hold the cell phone away from his ear so that his eardrums wouldn't burst.

"Why don't you calm down, Channie!" said Felix into the cell phone, his face contorting.

"You want me to calm down?! I'll be there in 2 minutes and I hope you have a good explanation for me!!!" he continued shouting, following by the tut tut sound as he hung up.

Felix swallowed dryly, stared at his phone and then up at me.

"What do we tell Chan?"