Felix

It was once again time for a show! I was excited because it was THE VOGUE Pop Show!!! OMG!!!

A little distraction would do me a favor.

When we head out, everyone was excited (like me) and talking crossways in the car.

Once we got there, we were lead right into a meeting room and presented with the detailed program.

"As you know, we plan to do the so-called friendship test with you. For this we first have the "Talks", in the second step hugging or eye contact and in the end the trust fall.", began the person responsible for the program.

My band members gave some aah's and ooh's.

Even myself can not refrain from an Ohh! and I excitedly clapped my hands.

The program manager explained the various steps and then said:

"And now we do the groups. Bang Chan and Changbin you start, then Felix and Hyunjin, Lee Know and...", I didn't listen any further.

*Wait, did I just hear right? Me and Hyunjin?!*

Abruptly I turned my head and searched the eyes of the longhaired. He also had his eyes on me and they met.

His dark brown eyes captured me instantly and for a moment my world stood still. Absolute silence.

When was the last time I could look him in the eyes like that without the blush rising? I didn't know.

He seemed caught up in this moment too, because he did not turn his head away as he usually did. But held my gaze.

I thought I saw a twinkle in his eyes, but our moment was abruptly interrupted by the squirrel's voice:

"... That leaves me and Jeongin! This is going to be great!" laughed Jisung and everyone stood up.

The shooting began.

While Channie and Binnie had their turn, everyone else sat on the couch and watched. I sat on the far left and right next to me Hyunjin.

I tried to concentrate on the questions, but when I heard them, I got even more stressed.

*I'm supposed to answer all this about Hyunjin? What if something slips out of my mouth?*

My foot began to bob up and down nervously.

Then suddenly I felt a big hand on my leg. I looked down and then at the owner of the hand, Hyunjin.

He gave me a typical Hyunjin smile where his eyes turn into little half moons and my heart stumbled for a second before settling into a faster beat.

I decided to give him a smile as well and placed my hand on his. He gave my leg a quick squeeze, sending a thousand butterflies through my stomach with that simple touch.

...

Now it was our turn and we had to answer all the questions. I was the first. Of course.

What are Hyunjin's strengths?

*Hmm...*

With this question, several images of the long-haired flashed into my head.

*His moves? His well-toned body? His soft lips...*

*Ahhh, Felix what are you thinking again!*

"His size!", I finally said, trying to cover my nervousness with a laugh.

Ha, Ha!

*Oh my goodness, was that giggling coming from me?*

"He's very tall and I like that," I finally add, continuing to try and fight through the questions.

Relieved, I finally was able to switch places with him and he had to answer the questions.

Excitedly, I listened to him talking about me:

"He is very very loving. I've never met anyone as kind and angelic as Felix."

*Angelic? Had he just said that? *

"One of Felix's strengths is his voice, which is very deep. I'm envious of that," he continued.

*He? Envious? He has everything after all!*

I was very surprised that he was envious of me, because I was rather envious of him, since he was so tall, good-looking, could dance and sing.

When he talked about our relationship, he surprised me again.

And then came step 2: one minute eye contact or hug.

I was about to choose eye contact when Jinnie got in front of me and immediately took me in his arms.

Because of the many cameras and the looks of the members, this hug was anything but pleasant. I was too busy trying not to let anything of my emotional chaos leak out in front of the camera that I completely forgot to enjoy the hug.

Hyunjin

The whole questioning was uncomfortable for me and just like Felix I had a few slip-ups in it.

I tried to make sense of his answers. Whether he felt something other than friendship towards me, but only the word "brother" kept coming up.

Secretly, I was looking forward to the hug, and I also immediately wrapped Felix in my arms without him being able to choose eye contact.

What a disappointment. All the cameras and people's stares ruined that hug. It was horrific...

...

With a disappointed feeling in my stomach, I walked up and down my room. The others all went to get something to eat. I, on the other hand, had excused myself and headed towards the dorm with a "I'm not feeling so well."

Then all of a sudden I heard the door.

*Were they back already?*

Then a hesitant knock on my door and a shock of blonde hair poked its head in.

"Jinnie? Are you okay?" asked Felix, while stepping inside.

"Ah? Hey Yongbok! What are you doing here?", I asked in surprise, standing in the middle of the room.

"I thought I'd check on you. Besides, I wasn't that hungry," the little one confessed.

"You shouldn't have, Felix."

Thereupon was an awkward silence and we just looked at each other. Something hung in the air between us, but I couldn't grasp it.

I broke the silence with my question:

"What did you think of the whole Vogue friendship test?"

"If I'm honest, there were just too many cameras and strangers...", I heard the little one say and I had to grin.

"Why are you grinning like that?" he asked in amazement.

"I was thinking the exact same thing. I couldn't really enjoy the hug with you.", I finally slipped out. I immediately covered my mouth, but it was said.

Felix looked at me, his eyes widened barely noticeably, and suddenly he moved toward me. He stopped in front of me and spread his arms:

"I think we should delete this memory and repeat that hug at Vogue. The cuddle king can't take a bad hug like that," the little guy said, looking me straight in the eye.

Completely surprised by Felix's offer, my heart started to pound like crazy.

*He wants me to hug him now? Is this another "Felix is affectionate" thing or is there more?*

Again and again, the same thoughts plagued me as soon as the little blond performs such maneuvers.

*What does he want? What do I want?*

When a slight doubt (doubt about me?) flashed in his gaze and he almost wanted to put his arms down, I threw myself into his embrace.

It was so much better than Vogue.

"Much better." he replied, as if he could read my mind.

I was aware of his warmth and how he slowly stroked his hand up and down my back. I did the same to him.

We'd never had a hug like that before. At least not of such a private nature. And I liked it. Because it was Felix.

At that moment, part of my emotional turmoil dissolved and I finally admitted to myself:

I like Felix a lot and am attracted to him.

With this admission, I gave myself completely to the hug.

I felt his hot breath on my collarbone and got goosebumps.

My head rested on his shoulder and his hair lightly tickled my face. I sucked in his scent. He smelled of something flowery, even fruity.

I didn't dare speak, afraid of ruining the moment. Felix was silent as well.

I played with some hairs on the back of his neck and shortly after began to lightly squeeze his neck.

In response, Felix pressed me even closer to him.

Because the little one had moved, my lips touched the spot on his neck just below his earlobe.

I felt my hot breath bounce off his neck and I shivered slightly.

My breath was going a little faster and I had a feeling he was the same way. Afraid that the little guy might break off the hug at any moment, I gathered my courage and decided to go as far as he would let me.

When Felix started stroking my back again, I noticed how his up and down movement slowly made my shirt go up.

Whether intentionally or not I couldn't tell. When my shirt slid up the back far enough that my skin was exposed, he continued to stroke, even over my bare skin.

Through the contact of his fingers to my skin, I was again overcome by a pleasant shiver.

He was not yet willing to loosen the hug, neither was I.

I slowly stroked my lips over his skin on the neck and accidentally touched his earlobe.

In response he did a barely audible intake of breath.

I repeated the movement and reaped the same reaction.

*Is this one of his sensitive spots?*

Again, I did the same movement. But this time I lightly licked his earlobe, which was rewarded with a stronger reaction, almost a moan.

And still he made no effort to loosen the embrace.

I also let my tongue glide over his neck and began to spread kisses. Timidly first, but then more and more firmly sucking.

Felix's breath seemed to quicken and his hot breath penetrated through my shirt. Barely noticeable he scratched my skin under my shirt, slightly scratching over my back, which animated me even more.

Felix

I never thought we would end in this situation. I had offered Jinnie to repeat the hug.

Of course with the thought that it would give me a better overview of my feelings.

And here we are, in his room in a hug that seemed to create more and more tension.

My perception was hypersensitive and I noticed every little movement from the long haired. Even the touch on my neck with his lips. Just below my sensitive spot! I dug my head even closer to the crook of his neck.

*Breathe, Felix, breathe!*

Either I was imagine again like in the locker room, or Hyunjin was really responding to me. I gathered all my courage and decided to find out what was happening between us.

I continued to stroke his back and noticed that my movements were slowly pushing his shirt up.

*Opportunity!*

I kept going until I finally felt his bare skin under my fingers, whereupon he shuddered briefly.

*He was actually responding to me.*

My thoughts were abruptly ended, as I felt his lips accidentally (?) graze my earlobe.

My abdomen contracted and I sucked in my breath.

He repeated and my body reacted the same way.

I thought he was repeating the game again, but suddenly he licked my earlobe and a sudden gasp escaped.

*What is he doing to me?*

He seemed satisfied with my answer, because he continued and spread kisses on my neck and started sucking the skin here and there.

Still feeling his hand hot against my back.

My legs abruptly were like rubber and I my knees softened. Looking for support, I lightly clawed at Hyunjin's back.

His lips continued to move. He spread kisses from my neck upward, across my jaw, to my cheek.

Our hug loosened a little and Hyunjin put his hand to my other cheek, caress it gently.

My heart was pounding, my cheeks red from the tension that had built up. I had my eyes closed and opened them slightly. As I did, I looked directly into Hyunjin's brown eyes.

He kissed the spot right next to my mouth and looked into my eyes again.

My heart seemed to tear up.

He brushed a strand out of my face and put his hand on the back of my neck and pulled me to him.

I closed my eyes and our lips finally met for the first time.