Jungkook knocked on Taehyung's door with nervousness in his body. Perhaps a tinge of excitement, but mainly a creeping anxiousness. He tried being optimistic;

It was Taehyung. Why should he be nervous? If anything, he should be happy to see him. They'd achieved such closeness in the past few weeks. They were reaching closer to December, November on its end, and things were jolly. Fitting.

The door opened, and Jungkook felt his eyes lighten at the sight of Taehyung. Grey hair falling on his eyes, no bandana, a black sweater, and sweatpants. So comfortable. Taehyung made Jungkook feel comfortable.

"There you are," Taehyung whispered, grabbing Jungkook and pulling him into the room, closing the door rather quickly. Taehyung pressed their lips together, and Jungkook hummed and kissed him back, gripping Taehyung's shoulders. Taehyung pulled away, and then looked at Jungkook closely, brushing his thumb on Jungkook's bottom lip.

"Where'd you go?" Taehyung asked softly, and Jungkook looked up at him, their small height difference seeming ever so prominent at times like this.

"I-I was with Jimin. Don't worry, Taehyungie- I-I was only gone for a day!" Jungkook said, and Taehyung reached forward, wrapping his arms around his waist.

"I know but... I missed you." Taehyung mumbled, pressing his lips against the nape of Jungkook's neck. "I like- like having you around."

"Y-you do?" Jungkook squeaked, getting that fluttering feeling in his heart he only gets when Taehyung's around. Taehyung grabbed Jungkook softly and pressed him against the wall next to his desk.

"Duh," Taehyung said, and then smiled, kissing Jungkook's lips quickly, and pulling away. "So, what're you up for today? Wanna get a little kinky? Want me to- to bend you over the desk and spank your ass until-"

"No! God, Tae, you keep mentioning the spanking thing, I'm gonna have to spank you-" Jungkook started, and then got turned around and pressed against the desk. Taehyung wrapped his arms around his waist and kissed his neck.

"I hate you," Taehyung said while smiling, and Jungkook giggled, closing his eyes in pleasure.

"Hmm... Tae, I needed to talk to you about something," Jungkook said, and Taehyung hummed.

"Yeah, yeah- later. Lemme fuck you right now," Taehyung said, and Jungkook groaned.

"No Tae, it's important to me!" Jungkook whined, and Taehyung squeezed his butt. "Alright baby, tell me."

Jungkook felt Taehyung kissing his neck. "I talked to Jimin. We're friends again, and- and I kinda came out to him." Jungkook said, and Taehyung smiled.

"Aw, Kooks, that's great," Taehyung whispered, and Jungkook smiled, feeling warm lips tickle down his neck.

"Yeah- um- I... a-actually, I wanted to- to tell you something. How- how I've been feeling for- t-the past few weeks... with the two of us h-hanging out so- s-so much and stuff," Jungkook stammered, and Taehyung hummed, continuing to suck on the spot.

"A-and- um- well, basically... Jimin found- found out about the two of us, a-and then he told me, actually, he told me he thought you and I were-" Jungkook started, but then felt Taehyung stop kissing him.

"Jimin what?" Taehyung let out faintly, and Jungkook turned his head.

"Oh- Jimin kind of found out about the two of us. It's actually kinda funny, he-" Jungkook started, and then felt himself get turned around rather roughly and pushed against the wall. Taehyung's eyebrows furrowed, eyes turning a shade darker.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" Taehyung snapped, and Jungkook felt himself falter, frown reaching his face. "You fucking told him??"

"No-" Jungkook started, confused as to why Taehyung was acting like this. "Babe, relax- I-I didn't tell him, I just-"

Taehyung grabbed Jungkook's waist tightly. "How the fuck did he find out?" Taehyung gritted his teeth, and Jungkook felt the anxiousness of telling Taehyung turn into pure chest wracking nervousness.

"H-he was in- in t-the that day- in- in the mall- a-and-" Jungkook stammered weakly, and Taehyung's grip tightened around Jungkook's waist, pinching Jungkook. "T-Tae it- it hurts-"

"Of course- of fucking course, he heard us in there, god! If you weren't so fucking needy for once he wouldn't have known shit!" Taehyung shouted, and Jungkook let out a pained whimper, trying to pry Taehyung's hands off him.

"Tae- y-you're hurting m-me-" Jungkook cried out, and Taehyung moved his hands, stepping back from him in frustration.

"I-I'm sorry! I just- he- he walked in- h-how was I s-supposed to know?" Jungkook squeaked, and Taehyung's eyes flared with red, looking away. "Why- w-why're you so angry? Just- c-calm down-"

"Did you tell him we were together? Did you tell him I was your- your boyfriend or some shit like you did to that fucking waitress?" Taehyung snapped, and Jungkook shook his head quickly, eyes growing big.

"N-no, of- of course not-"

"Did you deny it?"

"N-no- I-I- yes, I-I mean-"

"What the fuck did you tell him, Jungkook?" Taehyung snarked with his voice rough, and Jungkook could feel his unsteadiness reach his hands, which turned shaky.

"I-I just- I t-told him we- we w-were fuckbuddies- a-and- he s-said he found out b-because Y-Youngjae h-heard us in the showers that- that one time-" Jungkook let out, and then saw Taehyung grow angrier. Jungkook ducked his head and then saw Taehyung turn around, clenching his fists tightly.

"Youngjae knows?" Taehyung growled lowly, and Jungkook felt that in the pit of his stomach.

"I-I didn't tell him anything, I swear- he- he hasn't told anyone- I-I think-"

"You think?" Taehyung started, turning around to look at him. "You're so fucking dumb, Jeon- why the fuck didn't you go to him and deny it?" Taehyung shouted. "He could tell Mark- or-or Jackson- or- fucking hell," Taehyung grumbled, rubbing his face with his hands.

"Tae," Jungkook let out, confused. "Don't- don't get mad, this is something we can fix. It's not that serious, calm-"

"Of course it's not that fucking serious to you, Jeon. You're gay," Taehyung snapped, looking at him. "I'm not. I'm straight. I did one stupid fucking thing that I'm gonna regret for-fucking-ever," Taehyung said, sitting down onto his bed, clutching the bedsheet tightly.

Jungkook felt like he was getting punched in the gut. Stupid? Regret? Jungkook could feel his stomach churning, heart physically aching. "T-Tae- I-I-"

"Stop calling me that." Taehyung snapped, and Jungkook nodded quickly, a lump stuck in his throat.

"I-I'll talk to Jimin a-and Youngjae- I'll-I'll tell them t-to not-"

"God just shut the fuck up!" Taehyung said lowly, and Jungkook froze. "Just, leave me alone," Taehyung said, looking away still, tensed.

"Okay- I-I'll go," Jungkook said softly, turning towards the door. He looked at Taehyung wearily, but then opened the door and walked out.

Taehyung would come around, he thought inwardly. They always fight and make up, they do. Jungkook closed the door behind him and began walking towards his dorm. It'll be fine.

///

"He said WHAT?!"

"He told Youngjae-" Jimin started, looking frustrated. "-That he'd break every bone in his body if Youngjae even thought of speaking up about this thing. And as if that wasn't clear enough, Taehyung punched him in the face."

Jungkook frowned. "Oh, god- why's he so annoying? Youngjae- h-he's so sweet," Jungkook mumbled, rubbing his face in frustration.

"Someone needs to control that boyfriend of yours, Jungkook. He'd been an angel for the past few weeks, I prefer to keep it that way. I'm scared he's gonna say something to me, so I'm just... not making eye contact." Jimin said.

"Do that. I'm gonna go talk to him." Jungkook said, getting up from the bed in their dorm room and heading towards the door.

"Don't-" Jiming started, and Jungkook looked at him confusion. "What if he hurts you?"

"Taehyung wouldn't punch me, Jimin. Relax. Have some faith, the dude put his penis in me." Jungkook scoffed, and then headed for the door and walked out.

Jimin blinked blankly for a few seconds and then grinned to himself. "I knew he was the bottom,"

Jungkook walked towards the school cafeteria. When he walked in, he saw Taehyung throwing a plate into the dustbin (even though they're not disposable). Jungkook sighed. "V," Jungkook said sharply, and Taehyung merely heard him and walked past, walking out of the cafeteria and into the hallways.

"V, you need to talk to me," Jungkook said as they walked down the hallway. "You can't just go around threatening people like that! Youngjae didn't do anything wrong, the poor guy just overheard! Goddammit Taehyung, would you stop being such a-"

"Keep my fucking name out of your mouth, Jeon," Taehyung growled, and Jungkook stopped in his steps. He gulped, feeling his heart falter as it did.

"O-okay. I'm sorry. But- can we just... talk it out? Youngjae isn't gonna tell anyone, and Jimin isn't going to either." Jungkook started, walking closer to Taehyung. "They understand it's a private matter, plus it's not like-"

Taehyung pushed Jungkook back, making him get shoved against the wall. "Did you tell him I was straight, Jeon? Did you?"

Jungkook cowered his head. "I-I- d-did, I-"

"No you didn't! Because you didn't understand a single thing I've told you this past month. I'm straight. I don't like boys. You were a stupid mistake I made, nothing else," Taehyung said lowly, and Jungkook felt a stab to the heart. Mistake?

Before Jungkook could speak, Taehyung did. "What the fuck did you not get by me telling you to leave me alone yesterday?" Taehyung rasped, and Jungkook looked down. "Just fuck off. Fuck off, you got it?"

"S-sorry-"

"Shut up." Taehyung snapped loudly, and Jungkook flinched at his tone, and then nodded hurriedly. Taehyung turned around and walked away, clearly seething with anger.

Jungkook clenched his fists, feeling himself grow weaker at his words. He couldn't fight back, god, he just couldn't. He liked Taehyung too much to say anything back to him. Knowing how Taehyung really was. it changed Jungkook's perception of him altogether. He isn't like... this. Taehyung's nice. He's sweet.

He just needs some time.

///

"You're gonna WHAT?!"

"I'm gonna go talk to him," Jungkook said.

"It's been like a day, Jungkook. I wouldn't do that if I were you. I know you know him better and stuff... but I don't want you getting hurt." Jimin said.

"He won't hurt me, Jimin. Stop saying that! He's nice, he just.. gets defensive over the gay thing." Jungkook said, and Jimin sighed.

"That's not the kind of hurt I mean," Jimin mumbled, but Jungkook didn't hear him. "Fine, do what you want. I'm gonna hang out with Jin and Namjoon so we can prep for the next math test."

"You do that." Jungkook chuckled and then headed towards the door.

Jungkook walked to Taehyung's dorm. Jungkook just needed to sit him down and calm him. Taehyung lost his temper often, it was common. Jungkook can make him relax, he can make him better. Taehyung's mad over the gay thing- but- but Jungkook can assure him that everything's fine. It's been a day since they last talked, so Taehyung should've simmered down by now.

Jungkook knows he's being an asshole right now, but there's a cute boy who Jungkook fell for in there somewhere.

Jungkook reached Taehyung's door and heard some voices coming from inside. Jungkook knocked on the door once, and then twice, and then three times. Jungkook looked down, tapping his foot against the door.

He waited for a few seconds. One... Two... Three... Four...

Jungkook knocked again. This time, he fumbled with his fingers, not knowing what to expect, what to see-

The door opened, and Jungkook looked up and saw Taehyung. Jungkook's breath hitched.

Taehyung was shirtless, leave for loose sweatpants and a messy headband. Fuck, Jungkook could feel his heart skip a beat at that. He loved how Taehyung looked. Everything about him, just-

"H-hi." Jungkook let out. "Listen, can- c-can we just... talk? I know you're mad right now, a-and you have the right to be! Just- hear me out? Please?" Jungkook said softly, and Taehyung looked at him, expressionless.

"This isn't a good time, Jeon," Taehyung said sharply.

"You- you always do this, V. You push me away. I want to make an effort for this- this relationship, don't you?" Jungkook asked with a tilt of the head, and then Taehyung expressionless eyes looked faintly.

"Relationship?" Taehyung let out in confusion, and then Jungkook heard;

"Babe, is someone there?"

Jungkook froze, and Taehyung's hand tightened around the door handle. Taehyung moved a bit, and Jungkook could see behind him.

Could see a girl sitting on his bed, wearing Taehyung's jersey and nothing else, with long black hair falling onto his shoulders, clothes sprawled everywhere.

Jungkook felt his heart get crushed into a million pieces. It was Eka.

Jungkook looked at Taehyung with big eyes, and Taehyung looked away.

"O-oh," Jungkook let out, and then felt this crawling feeling up his spine, infiltrating his senses, a wringing pain around his gut.

"G-guess that means we're over." Jungkook let the words out, coming out faintly, barely coherent.

"Yeah," Taehyung replied, and Jungkook looked up, and that's when he saw them. His eyes. Disinterested, emotionless, cut off. That's when Jungkook realized. Had they ever been touched by emotion? Or was Jungkook just another toy for him to fuck and forget?

"Sorry," Jungkook whispered out. "H-Hope you have fun," Jungkook said, letting out a forced small smile.

Taehyung didn't even look at him, just slammed the door in Jungkook's face, and Jungkook felt those million pieces of his crushed heart get crumbed, like dust.