R-18

We were both in bed, staring at the ceiling.

Lying here right now beside him triggered memories of our countless conversations. Isang taong 'di namin 'to nagagawa. Bigla niya naman akong hinila palapit sa kaniyang katawan, pressing his chest firmly against my back.

He then played with my hair as we cuddled. The air was filled with a comfortable silence. I couldn't help but turn to him to study his face, noticing the changes that a year had brought upon him. Ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng opportunity to look closely at his face.

His once shaggy hair was now neatly trimmed, framing his face with a newfound maturity. His eyes, always filled with curiosity, seemed to carry a deeper wisdom.

My man... Very pogi.

"Tell me about college, Clementine. I never really got the experience that... So tell me what happened sa last year mo," he said before getting my hand to fidget with it. I pursed my lips before remembering what happened after he left last year.

"Well... First day back sa university ay masaya naman dahil my professors admired my passion for filmmaking. Nakita nila past works ko at kahit nga doon sa mga una kong short films when I was in first year na-a-amaze sila e," I softly chuckled as I told him every single detail.

"But even so I was doing well, behind that facade was an exhausted little girl na sobrang drained na. Kasi nahihirapan ako kung ano ang uunahin ko e, 'yong pangangailangan ni Dad o 'yong akin. I did my calculations and almost 150k ginastos ko! Buti na lang galing 'yong kalahati roon sa scholarship ko, sa part time job ko sa university, tapos 'yong binigay mo pa sa akin na pera."

Habang nagkukwento ako sa kaniya ay tumatango tango lang siya, and making subtle reactions. I was still weirded out about his new... Persona of his. Medyo tahimik kasi talaga siya at hindi ako sanay. But I know that it's still him, and that I can still feel his purity... and genuine motives sa akin.

"Marami pa ngang naiinggit sa akin e! Kasi ako ang paborito, kahit noong mga terror profs namin! Kaya nga tuwing napapagalitan mga kaibigan ko, ako ang ginagawa nilang shield pucha," reklamo ko and Silas just laughed. Umayos naman ako ng upo saka siya hinarap.

Tinaasan niya naman ako ng kilay. "Ikaw? Your family?" I asked again, baka kasi ngayon mas marami nang details. I want to connect with him again just as how we did last time.

"I told you already, Clementine. Barely has changed sa household namin but I know that I'm getting there. Maybe after this summer, okay na kami—I just need to take a breath here in Manila with you," I heard him sigh before laying back down on my bed.

I can feel that there's something he isn't telling me but I can't force it out of him. But I really like that his walls are built up so high right now.

The hours flew by as we shared stories of accomplishments and setbacks, catching up on the events in each other's life that we had missed. That we could still connect on such a deep level even after being apart for a year was evidence of the strength of our relationship.

It was already almost three in the morning and we're still talking about how he's already got his own office but doesn't have the validation of being an heir of their company which is completely BS!

He's getting mistreated, yet he's still choosing to stay. If I were him itatakbo ko na lang 'yong pera! "Hindi ko puwedeng itakbo ang pera namin, Clementine," he said with a low chuckle at agad naman ako lumingon sa kaniya bago umiling. Paano niya nabasa ang laman ng utak ko?

"W-wala naman akong sinabi ah?" I said and he rolled his eyes.

"Oh please. You're always like an open book when you're with me, babe. You have your judgy face on, and I know you're thinking of something ridiculous for me to leave the company of my father," he scoffed and I just smiled awkwardly.

Bigla naman kaming natahimik, waiting for someone to say something and he did. "Let's go back to Palawan? Expenses are all on me because I know you still don't have a job," he said with a big smile and I just stared at him before shaking my head.

I saw disappointment wash over his face before holding my hand, "Bakit? Come on! We have to go back there and relax kasi we've been through a lot," he said at umupo naman ako ulit para i-handa ang sarili ko para i-explain sa kaniya na magiging busy na ako.

"Silas... Kailangan ko na mag-hanap ng trabaho kasi ayaw ko nang mahuli pa sa career ko. I already had been held up a year, at ayaw ko nang mag-sayang pa ng panahon," I told him and he still seems to not care. Buti na lang willing pa akong i-explain pa lalo sa kaniya ang sitwasyon ko.

"As much as I want to go with you, I have plenty of plans coming this week as well as the following week. Very hectic ang schedule ko dahil I have to go on interviews, meetings, and a load of other things for me to become my dream since day one," I told him.

"Hindi ba puwede 'yan i-reschedule, babe?" Tanong nito sa akin at bumuntong hininga naman ako bago umiling ulit.

"I'm running out of time, Silas," kalmado kong sambit sa kaniya. "I want my Dad to see the first movie I am going to direct. Hindi naman na kasi ako magsisinungaling sa sarili ko na mahaba pa siyang mananatili rito. Kaya ako nagmamadali magkaroon ng trabaho para kahit papaano ay makita niya ang bunga nang kaniyang paghihirap noon," I said, becoming annoyed already. Sana naman maintindihan niya na.

"Okay, but... A few days won't hurt naman e," he said in a hopeful tone and I looked away from his eyes. "Postpone the meetings, Clementine. Please? Hindi naman kasi kailangang humanap aga—"

"It's not that fucking easy, Silas!" I shouted before standing up. "Ikaw kasi kahit... Kahit ayaw sa 'yo ng mga magulang mo... Nandiyan pa rin sila saka hindi problema pera sa inyo! Sorry kung hindi mo maintindihan nararamdaman ko... Kung hindi mo alam kung saan ako nang-gagaling."

I said something that could probably cost us a fight but instead of him getting mad, he was worried and looked like he was genuinely sorry. I was so frustrated because ano ba ang mahirap intindihin sa sinabi ko?

Wala naman e!

Tumayo na rin si Silas at hinawakan ang aking braso pero agad ko inalis iyon bago siya ismiran, "S-sorry, Clementine. We can schedule Palawan in some other time kapag okay ka na..." Sambit niya sa akin pero inirapan ko lang siya bago lumabas ng kwarto.

I ended up outside sa garden namin to compose myself and recollect my thoughts.

"Tangina kasi..." I whispered to myself before closing my eyes, trying to erase what had just happened. I felt tears escaping my eyes but I immediately tried to wipe them off because I just look very stupid right now.

After a few minutes, Silas approached me cautiously as if I'm an untamed wild animal that could hurt him. He sat right beside me and he wrapped his arm around my waist, pulling me closer to him.

"I'm sorry... I won't do that again," he apologized with a soft and calm tone. I just sighed before leaning onto him.

"Let's go back inside, babe," he said before standing up. He looked like he was genuinely sorry for what he did. Kung sa ibang tao iisipin nilang sobrang babaw ko, para sa akin hindi.

Big deal talaga 'to kasi future ko ang nakasalalay dito e. I'm the one to decide on what's going to happen in my life in the years ahead of us right now. And every simple setback or delay sa akin would cost something in my future and I don't want that to happen.

While we were both staring at each other, I got the urge to kiss him.

So I did.

It was soft, gentle... It was perfect.

We found ourselves back in the bedroom. I sat down on the bed—surprised when his hand smeared down my throat to rest on my skin above the neckline of my nightgown.

"If I were to propose to you right now, papayag ka?" He asked in a low tone, and I gave him a confused look. He's not serious about this, right?

"Silas, it's three in the morning and we're about to have sex, and you ask me that?" I asked and he gave me an amused smile before he moved me slowly until he sat on the edge of the bed, pulling me in between his legs.

"We are?" He asked, as he placed his hand on my cheek before kissing me softly on the lips. I was already feeling something pooling under my panties, and it's embarrassing if he finds out I'm already wet for him. "Do you want me to fuck you until sunrise?" He whispered and I bit my lip before slowly nodding.

I can't believe that we're going to have make up sex.

"I'm your first, right?" Silas asked and I again nodded. "Remember I said that I'd teach you what we can do with our mouths?" His voice silken as his fingers trail lightly over the top of my breast, along the edge of my cotton nightgown. I shivered before answering him.

"Mhm," I barely was able to talk.

He grinned, "Well, tonight... You are going to find out what I can do with mine hmm?" He stated, as one blunt fingernail scrapes lightly over the fabric, snagging against my nipple. Tangina! He really knows kung saan ang weakest spots ng katawan ko whenever we do this.

Umayos ako ng pag-hinga at wala sa sariling sumabay sa galaw ng kaniyang mga kamay. Narinig ko naman siyang tumawa, "I love how your responsive your body is to my touch." Even though he was doing me such a dull sensation, it still makes me crazy.

Nawala ang kaniyang kamay at naramdaman ko na lang ito bigla sa aking puwet at agad naman akong napa-ungol when I felt a wet heat on my left nipple as Silas opened his mouth around it, soaking the fabric with saliva.

It was a flash of pleasure that raced me to my core. "Mmm," I moaned. Ang sarap e! Ngayon ko lang ulit 'to naranasan after a year of being dry. Naramdaman ko ang kaniyang ngipin against my hardened nub, lightly biting it, causing me to squirm.

"Silas... Fuck," I said... Barely catching any breath. He stopped for a second to kiss my lips and we both stared at each other before laughing, "I feel weird."

"You just want me, babe," he said.

"I do," I confirmed before biting my bottom lip. He smiled proudly before removing all of my clothes. He sucked on my breasts again, and I jumped when I felt his cold fingers in between my legs.

I saw him smirk when he felt my wetness at umiwas lang ako ng tingin dahil sa hiya. Napasigaw naman ako noong bigla niyang ipasok ang dalawang daliri. "Ah! Tangina mo..." Sambit ko sa kaniya at natawa lang siya bago simulang ilabas pasok ang kaniyang daliri sa akin.

Sobrang lakas ng kapit ko sa bedsheet ko dahil sa sarap nang kaniyang ginagawa sa akin. "That feels so good," I said at pinagpatuloy niya naman iyon gawin sa akin. When I was close to finish, nilabas niya ang kaniyang mga daliri bago sunggaban ang aking mga labi.

Hinubad naman na niya ang kaniyang damit, and I saw his fully erect shaft again. Bigla naman akong napalunok because I swear it was bigger! "Touch it," he said as he placed my hand on his dick.

I moved my hand up and down, and I heard him groan. "You don't know how much I was horny when I was away from you. The pictures weren't enough for me to masterbate!" He said and I laughed before putting his dick in my mouth.

He wasn't expecting that, and I felt his member twitch in my mouth. I bobbed my head up and down, swirling my tongue, and I could really see the pleasure from his eyes. When he was about to come, tinanggal ko ang miyembro niya sa aking bibig at tinulak siyang pahiga sa kama.

"Can I top?" I asked him, and he grinned before placing both of his hands behind his head, giving me full control. Umupo ako sa kaniyang mga hita, and teased him with my wet folds as I grinded on it.

"Should I rail you now?" I asked mischievously and he chuckled.

"I should be the one telling you that but— AH! Gago..." I placed his dick inside me before moving fast and slow, edging him. Noong nainip na siya, nilagay niya ang kaniyang kamay sa aking bewang bago ako gabayang umulos.

We ended up fucking the whole night at naabutan na namin ang araw sumikat. I checked my phone and it was already six in the morning. Noong sinubukan kong tumayo para umihi, bumigay ang aking mga binti.

"Should I carry you to the bathroom?" Silas teased and I rolled my eyes at him before walking slowly to the bathroom.

"Should we still sleep?" He asked and I shrugged my shoulders. We decided not to at naligo naman kami agad nang sabay but we also ended up fucking there. Walang tigil talaga 'tong si Silas!

We changed into athletic attire because we wanted to get our cardio up so we went for a jog. Nakakapagtaka nga dahil hindi pa ba cardio ginawa namin kanina? Nakakapagod din kaya 'yon!

"Pag-uwi natin sa bahay niyo, you should dress up. I'm taking you out to go shopping so that you could pick up your graduation gift from me," he said as we made a stop at a bench to catch our breaths.

"Isn't sex enough as a graduation gift?" I asked and he chuckled.

"Kung may bata na ngayon sa loob ng tiyan mo ayon ang graduation gift," he winked at agad ko naman hinampas ang kaniyang braso. Tinawanan niya lang naman ako bago ulit tumayo para ayain na ako pabalik. Nagsimula na siyang maglakad kaya sinundan ko naman na siya.

"Bad joke!" I shouted at umiling iling lang siya bago magsimulang tumakbo ulit.

When we arrived at the mall, he bought us coffee so that we could stay awake. Kanina pa kami ikot nang ikot sa mall pero wala naman akong gustong bilhin. Ayaw ko rin kasing gumastos na naman siya kasi ang dami na niyang ginastos para sa akin last year.

We made a stop first sa food court dahil gusto ko muna umupo. "Kasalanan mo 'to e! Kung hindi mo 'ko pinuyat, e 'di sana may tulog tayong dalawa saka hindi masakit ulo ko," I rolled my eyes at him and he scoffed before giving me an amused look.

"You were the one asking for more rounds, Clementine. I just obliged," he whispered and I glared at him. Noong hindi ako makapag-decide, dinala niya ako sa Burberry para bilhan ako ng maliit na bag.

"Good morning, Ma'am, Sir. How may I help you today?" A saleslady approached us the moment we entered the store.

"I'd like to see a perfect handbag for going to the office," he said. "It's for my wife over here." Nanlaki naman mata ko noong sinabi niya iyon pero ngumisi lang siya sa akin.

Grabe ka, Silas. You should make us official first before you go around telling strangers that I'm your wife. But... I'm not complaining.

"How about this one, Sir? A medium Catherine Bag. All leather, perfect for day-to-night occasion," she smiled at us. Silas only gave a quick glance at the bag before looking at me.

"Do you like that?" He asked me and I nodded. "Okay. Please wrap this up for us, thank you."

That fast? Kung hindi ako nagkakamali this bag costs more than a hundred thousand pesos! He's seriously not going to spend that much, right? Kasi hindi ko naman kailangan ng mga original na ganiyan.

Kahit nga 'yong mga tag i-isang libo lang sa greenhills okay na sa akin e!

He tapped the card on the card reader before getting the large paper bag. "Where are we going next?" I asked and he pointed over at Celine at agad ko siyang pinigilan. "Hold on, babe. You don't have to buy so much! I don't deserve something so pricey."

He shook his head, "You deserve everything, Clementine. Besides, isang taon akong wala so I'm gonna buy you a year worth of gifts... Just because."

Hindi ko naman na siya napigil. He bought me clothes from Celine, a watch from Rolex, matching pairs of shoes from Balenciaga, and Dior makeup and skincare. Dinala niya pa ako sa H&M para raw hindi na gano'n ka-mahal e para sa akin sobrang mahal na nga no'n?

Kung kokolektahin ko lahat ng resibo ngayong araw, we probably spent over a million pesos! Sabi niya no problem lang daw kasi may ipon siya from working and allowance from his parents.

To end the day, he took me to dinner before we went back home. Sabi niya sa akin na baka sa hotel siya mag-stay for a few days to catch up with his work at para rin hindi niya ako ma-istorbo. I told him that it wouldn't be necessary but he insisted kaya pumayag na lang din ako.

"Come here, I want to show you part of my thesis," I told him as he was drying his hair with a towel. Umupo siya sa tabi ko at pinlay ko naman 'yong video.

I showed him the four minute video that I made from our videos back when we were traveling together. It was a realization that I had months after he left the Philippines for him to also reach his dreams.

Noong natapos 'yong video, nakita ko na may luhang pumatak sa kaniyang mga mata. "Hey, why are you crying?" I asked him as I turned off my iPad. He chuckled before trying to wipe the tear pero umagos ito bigla.

"Why d-did you make your thesis about me?" He asked and I smiled.

"Because you're special to me, and this video is very close to my heart," sagot ko sa kaniya. "Kailangan ba ng iba pang sagot?" He shook his head before pulling my wrist, making me sit on top of him.

"Thank you," he said.

"Para saan naman?"

"For making me as someone that is special to you," he answered. "I... Love you."