*stares at inbox*

*looks over at YouTube*

*looks back at inbox*

*hesitantly looks at some of my messages*

*backs away*

*has no idea what to say*

*starts thinking about a kitten I met today named Bonnie that I fell in love with and my mom almost got me her but can't afford it*

*starts tearing up*

*reads through my messages again*

*starts crying from some*

*goes to reply*

*hesitates*

*silence ...*

*pretends to not be bothered*

*goes to notifications*

*smiles but cringes when I see this:

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*wonders why someone would read through all of that*

*wonders why anyone reads this*

*wonders why 189 people follow me*

*wonders what I made this chapter called my bff about:

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*reads that*

*... gets even more silent somehow ...*

*remembers that night and starts shaking*

*starts crying*

*looks at my left wrist, remembering what I did*

*grits teeth*

*remembers how the Tuesday after that happened was the last day I talked to him*

*... silence ...*