as soon as he arrived to san's house party, seonghwa ran straight to the table filled with countless drinks. he didn't even bother saying hello to the party host, in the moment not caring that san was one of his best friends.

all seonghwa wanted to do was get his mind off of hongjoong. he felt like he needed to drink, and he needed to drink now.

seonghwa downed an entire beer in record time, slurping the bitter liquid down in less than ten seconds. he then took another can, finishing in about fifteen seconds. he needed the alcohol to hit him, and was thankful to start to feel some of the effects straight away.

"wow, no hello? just gonna abuse my drink table and leave me in the dust?" san walked up to seonghwa with a random girl in his arms, giving the boy a high five as a greeting.

"sorry bro, really needed a drink. i was just about to come say hi." seonghwa apologized, burping right in san's face as he spoke.

san waved his hand in his face, scrunching up his nose in disgust, "woah, how many cans did you drink already? you reek."

"two." seonghwa laughed a bit and san shook his head.

"you're crazy, park. i'll catch up with you later, i have some business to take care of." san smiled down at the girl in his arms, seonghwa now realizing it was a tenth grader named yuna.

"have fun, but not too much fun!" seonghwa called out to his friend who flipped him the bird as he made his way to the bedrooms in his house. seonghwa just laughed and finished the drink in his hand, quickly grabbing another can and taking a sip before walking towards the living room.

at first, seonghwa actually had a lot of fun. he began dancing in the big circle of sweaty teenagers, having a few random girls grind against his body in the process. seonghwa loved the body to body feeling, thankful the girls were making him forget all his problems. they were able to get his mind off of hongjoong.

hongjoong.

as soon as the name popped in seonghwa's head, he immediately stopped grinding against the girl in front of him. he removed his hands from her hips, mind completely clouded.

"what the hell man!?" the girl named yerin crossed her arms, turning to face seonghwa with an angry face on.

"i-i'm sorr--"

"ugh, keep your excuses to yourself. i'll find someone else to get dick from tonight." she shoved her hand in seognhwa's face, turning around and storming off sassily.

no, this is exactly what i didn't want to happen, this is the reason i drank so much... to get my mind off the boy...

seonghwa walked over to the couch and took a seat, grabbing his head and gripping onto his hair in frustration. he felt like the room was spinning, like he was in some sort of trap. a horror movie in his own head. his thoughts were filled with one person and one person only, kim hongjoong.

yunho noticed the obviously distraught boy on the couch and approached him, wanting to know what was messing with his friend's head.

"hwa, are you ok?" yunho asked, sounding worried.

"y-yeah, i a-- wait, actually... fuck that. no, i'm not ok. i'm not fucking ok!" seonghwa screamed over the music, startling yunho a bit.

"come with me, let's go somewhere quiet." yunho took his friend's hand, bringing him to one of san's extra bedrooms to have a talk with him.

before entering any of the rooms, yunho made sure to knock on all the doors so he wouldn't be scarred for life. thankfully, yunho found an empty room for the two of them to talk in. he sat the shaking boy on the beg, hugging him tightly to calm his nerves.

"seonghwa, what happened? you know you can tell me anything." yunho asked and seonghwa began speaking without any prior thought, not caring about the possible consequences of what he might say.

"i like someone, yunho. someone i probably shouldn't like, someone i don't want to like... but fuck, i like him so much." seonghwa let out, sounding obviously very intoxicated.

"may i ask who?" yunho questioned, hoping to not overstep any boundaries.

seonghwa paused. he knew he wanted to tell someone, and yunho was probably the most trustworthy out of all his friends anyway... at that moment, seonghwa felt like he had nothing to lose.

"i like jongho's brother, the boy i babysit. kim fucking hongjoong. oh my god, i like him so much yunho. i like that boy so much. but please, i beg of you... don't tell anyone." seonghwa began tearing up, suddenly feeling extremely emotional after confessing his feelings.

yunho was beyond shocked after seonghwa told him. he never expected seonghwa to say he liked hongjoong, but yunho was honored he admitted such a big secret to him.

"of course i won't tell anyone, it's none of my business to spread information about you." yunho smiled at his friend, reassuring him.

seonghwa smiled a goofy smile and hugged his friend tight, "thank you, yunho. i can't tell you why or how or... fuck, i don't even know. it was so weird, so sudden... i can't even begin to explain it."

"you don't have to explain it, there's no reason for an explanation. sometimes things just happen, and you can't understand why." yunho's words hit home for him. yunho had a big secret too, a secret he's never told anyone in his life.

yunho was gay, but no one knew about his sexuality. not one single person. yunho was too afraid to tell anyone because of an even bigger secret he was hiding...

his undeniable love for his best friend, song mingi.

yunho never wanted anyone to know about his crush. he didn't understand where the infatuation came from, but one day yunho realized he liked mingi more than a friend should like their friend. yunho hated himself for it, being himself up over it for years. he knew mingi was straight and would never like him back, but he couldn't control his feelings. yunho liked his best friend, and he had to deal with it.

after giving it some thought, yunho broke his hug with seonghwa and looked him in the eyes. he was having an intimate moment with seonghwa, and he felt this was the best time to tell someone about his feelings. especially since seonghwa just admitted a big secret himself and he was also pretty drunk, yunho felt like it was all too perfect to leave without admitting.

"well, now that you admitted your crush... i feel like i should admit mine." yunho said and seonghwa's ears perked up.

"who? who is it?" seonghwa asked, seeming extremely interested, "is it eunbi? maybe yewon? or yeji?"

"um, ha... no. uh, it's... it's m-mingi." yunho stuttered out, looking down to his lap in embarrassment.

"oh wow..." seonghwa trailed off in shock, "mingi? wait, but i thought you were both straight?"

"well, he's straight... but i'm not. i'm gay, full flegged homo." yunho laughed and so did seonghwa, lightening up the situation a bit, "i just never told anyone about it. i was too scared that my crush might come out and it would ruin our friendship. but since you told me about hongjoong, i felt like it was only right for me to tell you about mingi."

"well, i feel honored you told me." seonghwa put his hand on his heart and hugged yunho once again.

"you should. when i say no one knows, i mean no one. i thought i was gonna take this crush with me to the grave." yunho laughed again and seonghwa stood up, putting a hand out for yunho to grab.

"well, now we both know deep dark secrets about each other. but we better head out before people get the wrong impression of what's going on in here." seonghwa gave yunho a knowing look, looking towards the door.

yunho laughed and agreed, taking seonghwa's hand and standing up. both boys headed out of the room, smiling widely as their thoughts were finally cleared up a bit.

oop— THAT WAS A LOT OF TEA!!!

i hope y'all enjoyed!!! some more yungi tea coming up, some more seongjoong tea... i can't wait for it👹

ok little update here... i've been noticing people lowkey freaking out over san and the tenth grader, but i wanted to specify that san is only a junior in this book. he's seventeen and yuna would be sixteen. it's NOT pedophilia!!!!!!!!! trust me, i would NEVER put that in any story. in NO SENSE is pedophilia ok!!! they're both minors.

and for everyone who says "what tenth grader does this stuff?", i've done stuff since eighth grade...🥴

-vic