as six o'clock neared, hongjoong became very antsy. when he found out seonghwa was going to be watching him again, he felt his heart flutter the slightest bit. he still didn't know why he was so excited to see the boy, but he couldn't wait for him to show up.

"hyung, it's almost six. where is seonghwa?" hongjoong ran up to his brother, tugging on his arm a bit.

"joongie, like you said, it's almost six. i told him to be here at six. why are you so eager to see seonghwa today?" jongho asked and hongjoong shrugged his shoulders, "should i be offended you want to see him more than me right now?"

"no! that's not it!" hongjoong quickly defended himself and jongho laughed.

"don't worry, love. it was a joke." jongho messed up the younger's hair and hongjoong hit his hand away.

not even a minute later, the doorbell rang. hongjoong let out a high pitched squeal and ran towards the door to let seonghwa in.

"hey seonghwa!" the boy cheered and seonghwa gave him an emotionless look.

"hi hongjoong." he muttered as he walked in the door.

"ok, so i shouldn't be late. we have school tomorrow." jongho explained, "expect around nine thirty. i'll see you both later." jongho waved at his friend and brother as he shut the door behind him.

"hi hyung." hongjoong giggled as seonghwa sat in his usual spot.

"you already said hi to me." seonghwa retorted.

"i'm sorry..." hongjoong dragged out a bit, snuggling into his plush, deciding to keep his mouth shut to not anger the older any further.

as expected, hongjoong's silence didn't last long . after only about two minutes, hongjoong asked, "how was your day at school?"

seonghwa let out a big sigh, "shit, actually. failed my chemistry exam. i mean, it was expected. the topic was so difficult that i didn't even bother studying." he answered, shocking hongjoong. he's never given the younger such a detailed response, but he didn't want to question it.

"i'm sorry to hear that." hongjoong frowned and seonghwa shrugged his shoulders.

"it's not a big deal. mrs. shin always lets us do test corrections, that's why i didn't bother to study when i knew i was going to fail. anyway, i didn't fail too bad. it was only a sixty. with corrections i can get it up to around a seventy five, and that won't be too bad for my average."

seonghwa realized what he was doing and quickly regretted it, shaking his head and looking down at his phone. "i don't know why i just told you all of that, you annoy me. now don't bother me for the rest of the night, that was the limit of conversation i can hold with you at one time."

hongjoong crossed his arms, annoyed at the older. he wanted to continue talking to him so badly. hongjoong never had a real conversation with the boy, seonghwa typically only giving one word or dry replies. here, he was actually explaining how his day went, and hongjoong wanted more. he suddenly craved seonghwa's attention, wanting seonghwa's focus on him rather than his phone.

"but i want to talk to you, you're fun to talk to." hongjoong answered.

"i know, i'm irresistible." seonghwa shrugged his shoulders and hongjoong squealed and blushed, not knowing what to say.

seonghwa looked up after hearing the boy make such a loud pitched noise and saw the blush coating his cheeks. "see, my point stands. you're blushing."

"am not!" hongjoong tried to defend himself, but he knew he was lying.

"whatever you say, little kim." seonghwa replied, looking back down at his phone.

hongjoong tried to distract himself by watching cinderella, but his mind was going insane. all of his thoughts about seonghwa were leading him to one conclusion, one of which he didn't want to be true. hongjoong knew he liked boys, this wasn't the question in his head. the question was, do i like seonghwa?

hongjoong had the tendency to fall for people fast and hard. he's been this way his whole life, and it's sadly never been a good thing.

in elementary school, hongjoong made friends with a boy named wonho. within only a few days of meeting him, hongjoong was completely obsessed with the boy. one day, he even tried to kiss wonho, which unfortunately ended horribly for hongjoong. after that day, wonho never spoke to hongjoong again.

he had another unrequited love in his middle school years. he fell for sunwoo, a boy a year older than him who had just moved to hongjoong's town. after only two days of friendship, hongjoong confessed a crush he had on the other. sunwoo was disgusted, calling hongjoong names like "fag" and "freak". hongjoong was used to the name calling, so it didn't bother him much, but he still wished sunwoo liked him back.

once in high school, hongjoong even began developing feelings for one of his best friends, wooyoung. thankfully, hongjoong grew out of that crush just as quick as he got it, so he never had any awkward encounters with the younger.

but, hongjoong was feeling the way he felt about all those other boys with seonghwa. he was getting the same butterflies, the same thoughts, the same desire for attention. he knew it would end horribly just like all the others did, but hongjoong couldn't control his emotions once they started.

eventually, hongjoong figured out a way to spark another conversation with the older. he was holding his toothless plushie, the toy he got because of seonghwa's unique dragon like features. he really wanted to show the boy his stuffed animal, but hongjoong was kind of afraid seonghwa would remember that he told the older he resembled the character. after debating in his own head, hongjoong figured it wouldn't be an issue since he thought the older didn't listen to him when he spoke anyway.

"seonghwa, wanna see my plushie? i got him on friday!" hongjoong asked, excited.

"not at all," seonghwa sighed, "but i know you'll show me anyway, so hurry up."

"here he is!" hongjoong lifted his toothless plushie to show the older.

after the older got a good look at the toy, he chuckled a bit. "isn't that the dragon you said looked like me?" seonghwa said, putting on a smug smile.

a light shade of pink blushed on hongjoong's cheeks for the second time in one night. as he feared, his cover was blown. he stuttered out, "um.. well, actually--"

"it's ok hongjoong, once again, i know i'm irresistible." seonghwa smiled extra wide this time, making hongjoong's mouth fall open.

"again, no! that's not why i got this, it's one of my favorite movies." hongjoong blurted out, obviously flustered.

"hongjoong, do i make you flustered? it's ok to admit it." seonghwa scooted a little closer to the younger who began backing away.

"n-no." he rapidly shook his head, stuttering slightly.

"your stutter says otherwise. it's fine, i make most people flustered. just another name to add to the list." seonghwa moved back to his seat, leaving hongjoong speechless.

hongjoong hid his face behind his blanket and stared at seonghwa. after giving the boy a good look, he realized how truly breathtaking he was. his dark hair fell perfectly over his face, complimenting his features magnificently. his wet, plump lips were a pretty shade of pink, one hongjoong loved. he had prominent cheekbones, a beautiful contrast to his unique, long nose. hongjoong had never seen a boy so heavenly, so ethereal in his life.

"take a picture, it lasts longer." seonghwa laughed, not even looking up from his phone. hongjoong shrieked, hiding the rest of his face under the blanket.

yep, he thought, i'm definitely falling for park seonghwa.

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