i drove across the state
at a quarter to one
fighting exhaustion but
desperate to prove im not
as weak as they've always
made me out to be
and it's not fair that the
shadow in the mirror
as i return is not
in the shape i ever
wanted it to be
the curves are all
angled in all the worst ways
and it's sad to look at it
from the perspective of
someone who thought
it should be perfect
to shy even close to adequate