For once I am sitting here in the sidelines
Making my boundaries and making them clear
And it's strange watching the group of boys
Laugh and drink and be merry with each other
And I sit in honorable remembrance
Of every silly life I lived in my head
I don't know who I might have been
Had I chosen one way or the other
I take a deep breath and flee the bar tonight
There's school tomorrow, I'm tired
I'm reminded that I've never truly stayed out
But it's me that I am choosing right now
And maybe one day
Maybe in another life
But tonight I am for myself
And not the will of others
Tonight I listen to me