A/N:  Another NSFW chapter.

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I really don't remember what the airport looked like when we were shuttled off. I feel like it would have impacted me in some way had there been a crowd of Army and reporters, but with how hollow I am feeling I am not sure that those facts would even be able to register properly with me right now.

Now we are shuttling off in separate SUVs, and I literally don't have a clue who I want beside me right now. Well, that's not true because I want them all within arm's reach. Of course I can't have that though due to the limited size of the SUVs. Perhaps we should buy one of those vans for ourselves in the future. I'll have to find out the name of the model though. I wouldn't be surprised if at least one of my soulmates is already considering it honestly.

I barely register that it is Jin and Hobi that sit on either side of me. Each of them takes one of my hands in each of their own and thread our fingers together. They each try to offer words of comfort, but I am simply too out of it to focus on what they are saying.

It's almost lunchtime by the time we get home. The house is eerily silent. I would have welcomed the sound of the staff busily working right now, but it's a Thursday; they don't work today. I glance down at the display of my phone that hasn't been used in weeks. It's July 2nd. Over a week has passed now since my birthday. It seems like a somewhat selfish thing to discover right now so I push that fact in particular out of my mind.

The world starts coming back to me, and I am once again able to somewhat regain my focus. "Let's get her stuff upstairs." Namjoon prompts the others.

"I'll put everything away for her," Hobi offers.

I find myself saying. "I could use a shower."

Hobi nods. "I will make sure you have all your favorite toiletries in there first then."

Once again time seems to pass me by in a blur. It's only after I am left alone to my own devices that I finally get up to take that shower that I claimed I had wanted. I go through the motions automatically to get everything clean, but once the conditioner is rinsed out of my hair I find myself lingering underneath the showerhead.

Jin finds me there, after the water has turned cold, shivering. He steps in completely clothed, not complaining in least since he is instead focused on how he is immediately acting as my source of comfort. Comfort I realized I needed but couldn't bring myself to ask for.

I honestly don't know if it's the ordeal of the kidnapping finally getting to me, the news about Rebecca, my lingering sadness for Joshua, the jet lag, or a culmination of all the events that have me feeling this way. Good thing none of that seems to matter to Jin right now. He doesn't ask me to talk about it. Despite the fact he should probably go to his room to change, he doesn't leave my side.

He dries me off before pulling the covers back to get me in bed. Then he peels off his own wet clothing, puts them in the hamper by my bathroom door, dries off himself with another towel, and gets in beside me. "Sleep Princess." He commands me, and my whole body willingly listens.

Luckily no nightmares chase me into my slumber. When I wake back up it's to a room darkened by the fact that the sun has left the sky. The thick blinds remain open allowing me to turn over and gaze at the handsome, naked man still cuddled up to me. I trail my eyes down his beautiful fair skin and lightly coast the pads of my fingers to follow my gaze. He doesn't awaken right away, only twitches slightly in his sleep. I focus my gaze downward though and notice how his cock is growing hard and lengthening before my eyes.

Well, one part of his body is waking up. A dangerous idea comes to mind as I duck under the covers and usher him fully to his back. I ghost my fingertips over his velvet-soft skin. While I traditionally love to explore them for moments like this I decide that I don't want him to wake up right away before I am able to implement what I have in mind.

I lightly grasp him so I can line him up to my lips and take his half hard cock into my mouth. I lick lightly up and down his shaft as I coax him to grow hard to my ministrations. It's when I have taken him into my mouth as far as I am able that he begins to stir. I hum up and down his cock and his fingers tangle into my hair. "Oh heavens, Princess, what you do to me."

I smile against him at his response before I continue the way I chose to worship his cock. I feel his body start to go rigid, so I reach between his legs to lightly fondle his balls as I entice him to completion. His salty release coats my tongue, but that must not bother him when he pulls me up from my position and entwines me around his body. He kisses me with a fierceness I don't remember him having before. He pulls away on a groan and admits to me. "I think that might be my new favorite way to wake up."

I chuckle for a moment before taking his lips once again with my own. Jin's kisses are sweet and sinful all at the same time, and while I was able to turn myself on as I took him into my mouth, my needs grow almost unbearable as he starts to nip lightly at my lips. Luckily for me our kisses are already awakening his body once more. I don't even have to prompt him as he positions me right where he needs me. I take his cock in hand, lightly teasing him with my fingers for a moment since I didn't get a thorough enough chance to explore him. I don't take too much time to torture the both of us though before I line up the tip of his cock so it is notched at my entrance and sink down on him. We both groan in unison at the sensations.

His hands go to my hips, and I allow him to guide me at the speed he wishes me to use. On every pass I feel the wonderful sensations grow more and more intense. Because his hands are busy I take either breast in my own hands and begin fondling them in time with our rhythm. I forget momentarily what the sight of that does to him, and gasp in surprise when his hips thrust up fiercer into me.

Our body rhythm then changes, both of our hips thrusting in a syncopated repetition that has us both breathing harshly. Harmonious moans leave our mouths as we chase our release. He lets out a guttural groan when his release stutters out of him in repetitive spurts, and I reach between our bodies stroking my clit so I can tumble with him soon after.

He helps guide me off his body and pulls me to the side. "I never meant for tonight to be more than a way to give you comfort. I didn't lie down in bed expecting anything."

I smile at him so he knows that I understand. I decide to not only reassure him verbally but to also tease him a little bit. "I know that. But, how would I be able to resist Mister Worldwide Handsome himself lying naked beside me in bed?"

He smiles affectionately at me for a moment before his face grows more somber. "I meant what I said though. I wanted to comfort you. I wasn't sure how to go about it though. You weren't saying anything, which is wholly unlike you."

I sigh, because I know he's right. "I just feel numb right now." I frown after those words have left my mouth. "Not with our lovemaking; I hope you know that without me having to say so. That was an itch I couldn't help but scratch." I smile at him again before continuing. "But no, I honestly don't know what all I am feeling."

He shifts to his side so that his right hand is cupping his cheek and propping him up as he looks me steadily in the eyes. "Why don't you try to talk it out then?"

So, I start with the first thing that I should be worrying over. "I honestly don't know how I feel regarding the kidnapping anymore. I mean I missed you all terribly while I was locked up and conscious, but I think it's because I spent a majority of the time unconscious that made it so I didn't fear the situation as much as I probably should have. No one really hurt me, and honestly the plan that they had in place on what to do with me wasn't that horrible either in the grand scheme of things. I should have been more scared than I was when they alluded to what they planned on doing with me, since they would have to adapt their original plan."

Jin makes me pause and has me explain to him what I had overheard. I hadn't realized that I hadn't shared this much with any of them specifically since they all had to leave the room as I talked with the chief alone. "I guess I can see how that might give you some sense of peace, and if you were barely conscious you weren't really given too much time to properly process the situation while you were awake."

I nod. "I am scared of the fact that both Youngmi and Hye Rin haven't been found yet. I highly doubt we have seen the last of them either. I have to admit that fact does send a chill running up my spine when I take a moment to really think about it."

He nods at me. "We will try to do everything in our power to find her before something more happens."

"Regarding Rebecca... I feel like I should be mourning her more than I am. I mean don't get me wrong I am exceptionally sad that she is gone, but I think more of my sadness is leaning toward how Joshua has to grow up without her now. Heck, I think I am more confused and angry that no one is offering up an answer regarding her illness. I feel like I should be more angry at the CDC for taking her away from her son, but at the same time a part of me is okay with it because at least Joshua didn't have to see her suffer and die before his eyes. Does someone his age need closure like that? I mean I don't think so. I think he is probably too young to fully understand the concept of death." I sigh. "I think it's my confusion that is exhausting me, and I think I am feeling guilty that I am not wallowing more in the sadness right now."

He caresses my cheek. "The point is that you admitted it yourself, you are in mourning but other emotions are doing their best to supersede those emotions. Heck, they are somewhat succeeding too. I think part of your reaction to it is because you are simply overwhelmed. Not only that though..." He pauses as I see that he is trying to grasp the proper words he wants to say. "I think it's the fact that all this is happening a world away from you also. You are geographically detached, which makes the whole thing seem like a surreal nightmare you can't wake up from."

"I.." I don't have words, but I don't need them now. Not really, because the fact of the matter is he gets it.

Our stomachs start growling since we missed supper. We decide to meet in the kitchen after Jin excuses himself to his room to put on a pair of pajamas, and I do the same before heading down to meet him. He beats me there and I notice a piece of paper he has in hand before he crumbles it together into a ball. "Apparently we have plans tomorrow night."

I arch an eyebrow in confusion, but he doesn't offer me any explanation other than the fact that we will be having guests. We put together something simple to eat, and once we are done we both go back to my room to get some more sleep. I'm tempted to set an alarm since my sleep pattern is sure to be wonky, but my eyes grow drowsy before I can even bring myself to do it.

A/N:  Since there are only a few chapters left and once the story is finished, and I plan on revealing my bias afterward I was curious what everyone is thinking currently.  Of course I will ask this again at the end of the story, but I am curious what everyone is currently thinking.  

I'll reveal it during the beginning of the question answer section.  Which like I said I plan to try to make more of a discussion thread.  Feel free to start thinking of questions you might want the answer to outside of who my bias is, and alternative POV bonus chapters or just bonus plot chapters in general between now and then.