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Harry's POV

The sound of the water on my skin drowns out the sounds of my tears,water mixed with salty tears and a million thoughts. Holding on to the wall for support I scream from the top of my lungs.

I used to be happy,used to smile. I used to do a lot of things,but now all I do is cry. I'm just an empty shell and I've shut of from the world.

The world wants to know what happened to Harry Styles,where is he? Headline after headline,where is the curly brit with the infectious smile?. He's dead inside,he destroyed the best thing that has ever happened to him,and he deserves to be unhappy.

My phone's ringing for the twentieth time today,I keep count on how many times people call me. This time it's Jeff,I decline the call like I always do,he's the last person I want to talk to.My mom threatened to come to LA,but I made her believe that everything was ok, I couldn't face her.

The only person I allow through the door is my security guard,he brings me groceries and reports back to Jeff and Ben. It was the only way to stop them from breaking down the door.

I'm on thin ice with my record label,they've already given me a warning. But i don't really care.

It's been a month since I ended things with Noah,since I set him free. Every time I close my eyes I can see the anger,feel him punching my chest. The way he screamed and sobbed.

"You're a coward Harry, you can't take the heat so you just push me away". I had never seen him so angry,his beautiful blue eyes turned black,and he looked at me like I was the devil himself.

I wanted to protect him but ended up making it worse. I'll never forget the last words he said to me,"I hate you Harry ".
Did he really hate me?,I don't blame him if he does,I share his feelings, I hate myself too

I keep receiving text messages, the last one was from Ben. "Mate,it's time to stop this madness. Everyone's waiting for you to make a decision, everything that you've worked for is going to shits. Call me!".

Going to shits?,it already has. Making music and performing doesn't matter anymore,nothing matters without Noah.

Noah's POV

"He's in here Mrs. Evans". I hear voices,the mentioning of my name. I'm to weak to even lift my head up,I don't have the strength.

The sensation of someone sitting next to me,who is it?. "Baby,it's mom, open your eyes and look at me."

Mom? It can't be,she's in Texas. I open my eyes and sure enough there she is. "Mom what are you doing here?". She looks so worried and i can tell she's been crying.

"I'm here to take care of you son,this can't go on any longer. It's time to get back to life". I force myself to get out of bed,to get cleaned up and to to eat.

The past month I've been living in hell,filled with bad dreams and comments. A month without Harry.I'm so angry with him, but I also miss him.

"Are you really going to give up on him Noah?,I'm sure he didn't know what he was doing. And judging by the articles online he's not doing so good." I don't know what she's talking about,and I'm not sure if I want to.
"No one has seen or heard from him in over a month Noah, it's like he vanished from the face of the earth. I guarantee you he's hurting to".

No one has heard from him?, is he ok,has something happened to him. I was getting scared. I didn't want to be,I want to hate him for what he did to me.

"He broke my heart mom,tore me to pieces. I hate him". I could feel the tears forcing their way out.

"I know he did darling,but something tells me he didn't mean it. He wanted to protect you,he just went about it the wrong way. Go to him,be the bigger person".

I don't want to admit it,but she's right. I have to talk to him.

The next day

I was more nervous now than the first time I drove to his house for our first date. I was determined to talk to him,I'm not gonna let him get away with this. Breaking my heart and just walk out of my life.

I talked to Ben before I left,and he told me that Harry hadn't left the house since he broke up with me.

"He won't open the door Noah,I've tried several times." What Ben didn't know and Harry probably didn't remember was that I still had a key to his house,I was going in no matter what.

Even the house looks sad,curtains closed and no lights on. Putting the key in the lock I was scared to unlock the door. What was waiting for me inside?,was he ok?.

I created different scenarios in my head,everything that could go wrong. No sound only the dripping of water from the kitchen faucet.

The sight of him laid across the couch,feet up,an unruly mess of curls. He's sleeping. Soft sounds and chest rising with every breath.

My heart breaks again,breaks into a million pieces. I kneel down next to him scared to wake him. Even asleep I can see his pain,my beautiful Harry. With one hand on his cheek I bend over and kiss him on the forehead.

I decided to let him sleep and started cleaning instead. The house was a mess and I didn't know where to begin.

Harry's POV

I must be dreaming,I swear I could feel his lips and hot breath. "Dear god if this is a dream I don't want to wake up,let me sleep. I'm with him in my dreams".

What was that?,I hear noises coming from the kitchen,things being moved around. If this is a burglar I should thank him for cleaning up before robbing me. At this point I don't even care.

I grab my guitar for protection and make my way to the kitchen. 'Whoever you are I suggest you get the hell out of my house,ready to launch I hear someone scream.

"It's me Harry,it's Noah. Don't fucking kill me with that guitar".

Noah!,what is he doing here?and how did he get in?. I was more confused now than ever.

" if I look as bad a you,do then lord help us,and what are you doing here?".He looked like he'd been dragged through hell and back.

"Is that the first thing you say to someone you haven't seen in over a month?. You thought that you could just push me out of your life,break my heart and just leave. Well I have news for you Styles,that's not how it works. I'm in it for the long run wether you want it or not."

Was this even real? Or was I dreaming again. I walk over to him and carefully touch his face,his hair and his hands . He feels real and I'm not sleeping. Without hesitation I pull him into my arms.

Lifting him up I carry him into the living room and gently put him down in the couch before straddling him. I can't stop looking at him. "I'm so sorry baby, can you ever forgive me?. I thought I was doing you a favour,but I only made it worse". The agony of the past month is written all over his face,he looks worn out.

"You broke my heart Harry,you just left me,tossed me aside like garbage." Hearing him say that made my heart drop,but he was right,I just left. "I'm not proud of what I did to you. You told me from day one that you wanted to take part of the craziness,I should've listened to you".

"We'll maybe you should listen to me from now on. And don't you ever leave me again Styles". I can't stop smiling. "Does that mean you're mine again?". And with the touch of his lips on mine I could feel my heart healing, piece by piece.

Four months later

Harry's POV

We came out to the world one step at a time,to say it wasn't scary would be lying. But with Noah by my side I could face anything. The press was on us from day one,"Harry where have you been?,are you done making music?,will Noah be moving in with you?,have you always known that you were into men?".

I was good at dodging questions,and saying nothing was my best weapon at the moment, except for that time when Noah turned around and asked a pap if he'd always known he was an asshole. "Your mother must be proud of you,haunting people down for a living".

Noah's POV

Harry and I came to a compromise,he knew how much I hated my job at the cafe and that I would never let him support me financially. " I have a proposition for you, I'm a well known scatter brain,and with the new album being released soon I could do with an assistant. Do you want the job?" I didn't have to think long." It works out well for you doesn't it styles?,you get to sleep with your assistant ".
"I'm not complaining am I?"
And with that I was now Harry's assistant,planing a release party and a promotion tour.

I look up from my stack of documents to see him standing in the doorway to his home office." What's wrong baby?" With that sneaky smile I knew he was up to something.

"I've been meaning to ask you something boo. You spend most of your time here with me anyway. Why don't you just move in?, the house is more than big enough and I want to wake up with you every morning ".
The next day I moved what little I had into Harry's house,and my happiness was complete.