A big thank you to harryslovehandles_for making the cover for this story,and the beautiful trailer.

Disclaimer: I do not label Harry's sexuality,this is fiction and all in good fun.

Harry's POV

Cafe Habana is one of my favorite places to hang out in LA, I love the atmosphere of the place,and the food is amazing. Only problem is I'm never really alone,there's always someone secretly filming me or wanting to take a picture. I love my fans,but sometimes I need to be alone.

Today is one of those days, I'm having lunch with my manager Jeff and the paparazzis are waiting for me outside. "You seem a bit out of it today Harry ". I was never able to hide anything from Jeff, he could read me like an open book.,
"yeah,I'm a bit on edge. There's a lot to think about. I feel pressured to make new music and I have the Met gala hanging over my head"

don't get me wrong,I was very grateful for everything in my life,I was blessed in so many ways. But at the moment I felt like I was being pulled in many different directions and everyone wanted a piece of me.

" I get it Harry, I really do. You're putting to much pressure on yourself though the fans will be there when you're ready to release something new. It's all up to you". It's been almost two years since I released my first solo album, and it's been a whirlwind of events. And after the tour ended I felt like I was catapulted back into reality.

I don't like the way I was feeling, and I was getting tired of pretending to be happy all the time. Harry Styles pop star,actor,model, always smiling never saying no to fans wanting to take a selfie. Well i  was tired of selfies,tired of smiling. "Do you want to talk to someone about this,someone professional?, i hate seeing you like this".
" like a shrink or something?no thank you. I just need to get my head straight".

"Fish tacos Malibu style?" I look into a pair of steel blue eyes. The waiter was holding a plate of food waiting for me to respond. "That's for him,I'm having the sandwich ".i could hear Jeff responding.I'm completely lost in this person standing in front of me,and he must think I'm on another planet. "Harry!" mate where did you go?" I snap out of it and take a sip of my water.

"Enjoy,just let me know if you need anything else". He puts the plate down in front of me and smile as he walks away. "What was that all about?, you were miles away". I didn't understand it myself, I seriously needed a break from everything. "Nothing, lets just eat" . After lunch I said goodbye to Jeff and headed home.

I ended up spending the rest of the day at home, phone on silent and guitar in hand. "Here to take my medicine,take my medicine treat you like a gentleman".I put the guitar down, there it was again that nagging feeling. Why was I feeling so bad?. I was sad but I didn't know why. Maybe Jeff was right,maybe i do need help?.

"Siri,call mom" talking to my mom always makes me feel better,she's the one person keeping me sane at the moment. "What's wrong darling?,I can tell something's bothering you" hearing my mom's voice almost made me cry. She and my sister Gwen was my safe haven.

"I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed and stressed,there's so much going on at the moment". I was holding back the tears,if I started crying it would make her cry to."Don't forget to take care of you Harry,you always say yes to things and you're always there for everyone who needs it",let people take care of you for once. I felt ten times better after talking to my mom,and I spent the rest of the night in my studio writing lyrics.

After a good nights sleep and a hot shower I felt much better, and I was in a much better mood. the sun was shining and it was somehow easier to breathe. Searching through the kitchen cabinets and the fridge trying to find something to eat was useless,I hadn't been to the grocery store in over a week. It was time to get back to normal. I grab my keys and head out the door.

Driving in LA was an everyday nightmare a nightmare, it's a good thing I love driving .Whole Foods in West Hollywood is my favorite grocery store. I barely made it out of my car before I was approached by fans wanting a picture and a hug. Luckily I was in a better mood than yesterday and I took my time talking to them, after all without my fans I wouldn't be able to do what I love the most. God I missed being on a stage.

Walking down the different aisles and looking at my shopping list I wasn't paying any attention to what was in front of me, and before I knew it I walked straight into someone.

"I'm so sorry" bending down to pick up the food that fell on the floor I look into his eyes again,the waiter from yesterday.

"Don't worry about it ,it's all good" there it was,that soft voice that had me mesmerized . "No fish tacos today,fruit is your meal for the week?"Or was the tacos so bad it turned you into a vegetarian?".He laughed and pointed at my shopping basked that has mostly mostly fruit and vegetables in it.

" Yeah,I'm never coming back to that place again,customer service was bad to",I do however plan on chewing a lot of gum". Standing there in the cereal ail we both started laughing.
"Come back tomorrow and I'll make sure the service is impeccable, I'm Noah by the way "he winked at me and walked away.

The next day as I'm getting ready to drive back to the cafe I'm feeling a bit anxious. I'm normally a very confident guy but this person made me act like a teenager.I'm looking at myself in the mirror, trying to tame my wild hair.I've been letting it grow since the tour ended. A pair of grey loose pants a white T shirt and my favorite loafers and a dash of perfume and Ii was ready to go.

"I'm gonna move,I'm gonna go,I'm gonna tell everyone I know looking for a home in the heart of the country" there's nothing like a little Paul McCartney to get you in the right mood, singing my favorite song made me feel less nervous.

I walk into the cafe and stop to look for Noah, he said he was gonna be here. "Can I help you?"  The sound of his voice made my heart beat faster,what was happening to me?.

  "Yes,I'm looking for a guy,maybe you know him?, tall, blond and I think his name is Noah". He looked at me and smiled, "come here,I'll get you a table".

I followed him to the back of the cafe. "Actually, I have an idea.I'm about to go on my lunch break, would you like to join me?".I thought about it for a few seconds, I knew that we wouldn't be alone. The paps would see us and I didn't want him to have to go through that. I'm used to it and I can handle it. "Sure,but I have to warn you. Wherever I go there's always a camera, are you sure you're ready for that"?.

I was almost scared to hear his answer,afraid he was gonna say no and run in the opposite direction. "Don't worry about that Harry. And yes I know who you are,I just didn't want to make a big deal out of it. There's a room in the back of the cafe where I always eat my lunch and I've never seen any paps or cameras in there, follow me".

We walk into a small room with one table and shelf's along the wall filled with different supplies. "What do you want to eat?" . He was standing right next to me and the smell of his perfume filled my nose.

Leaning over me pointing at the menu his hand touched mine and gave me goosebumps. "Why don't you choose for the both of us ?",  i couldn't think straight with him so close to me,let alone decide what to eat.

As I was sitting there I got struck with a sense of panic,what the hell was I doing?.I wanted to get up and run out of the room and back to my car.I was just about to make a run for it when Noah appears in the doorway. "Harry,what do you want to drink?". Calm down Styles you can do this, having an inner conversation with myself was something I often did to calm myself ,I even did that throughout the tour before every show."Water is fine thank you".

He walked back into the room a few minutes later carrying a tray of food." This is a cabana sandwich,you're not gonna go back to fish tacos after you've tasted this,and here is your water".

Once again he's handing me a plate,only this time he's joining me. "Thank you,it looks delicious".I grab my knife and fork to cut into my sandwich. "You'll never get through that with a knife and fork,just use your hands. " I come here a lot,how come I haven't seen you before?" I take a bite of my sandwich, "I've only worked here for a week, I've seen you around though"

I felt at ease with him. This man that I met two days ago, the man that I wanted to get to know and spend more time with. Forty minutes went by to fast,but that was all the time we had. "I hope you don't think I'm being to forward,but I really would like to see you again Harry,we can go climbing".

That's something I've never tried before, but why not, and I really wanted to see him again. "Sure why not, give me your phone and I'll put my number in".  This probably wasn't the smartest thing I've ever done, giving a stranger my phone number. But i had to take this chance.

Thank you for lunch,next time it's on me, I get up to leave ."Harry?" I turn around facing him. "I'm happy we met". I had a stupid grin on my face as I was walking back to my car,and I couldn't wait for him to call me.

On my way back from lunch I decided to stop by my good friend Ben. When I moved to LA I lived with him and his wife for almost two years,they are my family away from home. I needed to talk to someone about this, I was so conflicted. I was drawn to both woman and men,but I've never felt like this before. And if anyone could help me with this it was Brian.

"Lay it on me Harry , I can tell that something is weighing you down ". I took a deep breath to shake the anxious feeling.

"The strangest thing happened to me the other day. I met someone,a waiter at Habana. I bumped into him again at the grocery store yesterday and today I had lunch with him. I'm so confused Ben." It felt good talking about this. "It sounds to me like you have feeling for this person Harry,I've known you for years now and I can tell when you have special feelings for someone. Do you get the feeling that he likes you the same way.?"
"That's the thing,I think he does. He's funny and sweet and I want to see him again."

"Go for it mate. Just be careful ok?,the paps will have a field day with this."

That last thing made me think,I knew I had to be careful. I should probably talk to him and explain a few things about my hectic and very public life. I've always kept my love life close to my heart,everything else was public. This is the one thing that was mine and only mine.