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hi

josh 🧸:
oh hi! funny seeing you here

lol

i'm scared

idk how to tell you this

josh 🧸:
i really like you tyler

i don't think anything you say can change that

unless you're a murderer, like i said

well

i guess i'll just start with this

bren & ry think i'm a virgin but i'm not

josh 🧸:
ok and?

why would i care about that

idk

i just

i wanted you to know the truth

josh 🧸:
i appreciate you telling me, and it doesn't change the way i feel about you at all

if it's any consolation, i'm not either

well i figured that

josh 🧸:
just sayin

but there's more

josh 🧸:
mkay

and this is the thing i'm most scared to tell you

josh 🧸:
please don't be a murderer

i'm not

josh 🧸:
phew

well that's a relief

i literally don't know the best way to go about this

um

okay

so

uh

um

josh 🧸:
tyler it's okay

you don't have to tell me

no i do

you don't understand

it's like

a part of who i am

especially in relationships

josh 🧸:
???

ugh

ah

okay

okay okay okay

josh 🧸:
okayyyy

ok so

here i go

a few years ago i started exploring a part of who i am

a lot of people have never heard of it or don't understand it

it's part of the way i function as a person and as a partner and is my most healthy coping mechanism for dealing with things i've been through and struggle with

a lot of people think it's weird because they don't understand it

and also because some people sexualize it which is not the case for me at all and i think those people suck

i really hated this thing about me and tried to change it but i almost ended up killing myself so

my therapist said maybe i shouldn't do that and should actually just accept that this is part of who i am and that that's okay

which is easier said than done but

i still haven't even said what it is have i?

josh 🧸:
no you haven't

but don't worry i'm following

gulp

okay

well let me first just start with this i guess

do you know what age play is?

josh 🧸:
no idea

ok well it doesn't matter anyway

that's the like sexualized version of it

not my thing

josh 🧸:
yeah we don't like that

no we don't

but since you haven't heard of it

i'm assuming you haven't heard of age regression either

josh 🧸:
is there a difference?

yes

age play is a kink

age regression is not sexual at all

josh 🧸:
so what does that mean

so someone who age regresses can literally mentally age down to the mindset of a little kid

when they're in that state some people call it little space

and basically in little space the person is like a little kid version of themself

and basically

i age regress

so

basically

ah

AH

AHHHH

basically

i have a little space

josh 🧸:
oh ok

that's all?

well i mean

there's a lot more to it

but yeah basically

josh 🧸:
okay cool

for the record i have never heard of that before so i just saw some childish mannerisms n stuff and viewed them as part of you being your cute self

like it doesn't change the way i view you at all

really?

josh 🧸:
yes silly

why were you so afraid to tell me?

well bcuz like i said people don't understand it so

i didn't want you to think i'm weird

josh 🧸:
i do not think you're weird

you're just tyler

cute, little tyler

hehe

okay

well but there's more

josh 🧸:
like what?

being in a relationship with a little can be a lot

josh 🧸:
how so?

because i don't just want a boyfriend

i want a caregiver too

josh 🧸:
what's the difference?

well

you'd have to take care of me when i'm in little space

and stuff

josh 🧸:
i'd take care of you regardless of what head space you're in

but what if i'm not good at it? like what if i do something wrong?

i mean brendon figured it out so i think you'll get the hang of it

lol

but we'll just have to learn from each other

and be honest and communicate

like in any relationship

josh 🧸:
lmao

okay i can do that

and there's more

josh 🧸:
yes?

so i'm not the greatest at taking care of myself

josh 🧸:
i've noticed

whatever!

so ok not every little has rules

but i think i would like a few

josh 🧸:
rules?

yeah like

brushing my teeth

making my bed

finishing my homework

just things like that to help me look after myself

josh 🧸:
ohhhhh ok i see

that is of course

if you still want to be with me ... ?

josh 🧸:
tyler

i want nothing more

it would be a pleasure to take care of you

you just might need to be a bit patient with me while i learn the best way to do that

hehe

okay

so you don't think i'm weird?

josh 🧸:
why would i think you're weird?

because i'm me

i like kids shows and playing with toys and sippy cups and pacifiers and baby talk

josh 🧸:
that doesn't make you weird

just makes you tyler

well some people think it's weird

josh 🧸:
good thing i'm not some people

true

so

now what

josh 🧸:
let's go out for dinner tomorrow

we can talk about it more then, yeah?

and i can officially ask you to be mine

EEEEK

ok!! omg

josh 🧸:
omg what!!

omg i like you so much and it's hard to believe you don't hate me rn

josh 🧸:
tyler lmao

i promise i do not hate you

i do not think you're weird

i want to be with you and that includes all of you

even little me?

josh 🧸:
even little you

this all makes so much more sense now

wdym?

josh 🧸:
just thinking about the juice incident specifically

but there's been other times where i've felt like everyone was helping you protect a secret from me

now i get it

sorry

josh 🧸:
don't be sorry

it's hard to be vulnerable

this is huge!

i'm really proud of you for being honest with me

and i am so happy that you feel comfortable enough to share this part of yourself with me

thanks

i miss you

josh 🧸:
ik i'm sorry

i miss you too

i'll be done with this assignment soon

gonna try to finish it before i go to bed or before dinner tomorrow

and then we can spend more time together?

josh 🧸:
yes

especially if you're going to be my boyfriend

you haven't asked yet!

josh 🧸:
i said tomorrow!

i am not asking you over text

fineeee

josh 🧸:
how are you feeling?

happy

excited

nervous

josh 🧸:
same same and same

i'm going to get to work so i can get this over with

why don't you go back to coloring me some more cute animals

i already taped up the other one you gave me

maybe you all can watch another movie

whaaat you did!?

ok i can do that

can i let them read our messages

easier than explaining

josh 🧸:
of course you can lol

go color and watch movies

and don't forget to text me before you go to bed

one more thing

josh 🧸:
yea?

well

littles usually like to call their caregiver mommy/daddy

so

is that okay with you

like

would it be weird if i called you daddy

just when i'm in little space

josh 🧸:
not weird

if it would make you happy then yes absolutely do it

ok but you won't think it's weird?

josh 🧸:
nope

just cute

promise?

josh 🧸:
i promise

okay

josh 🧸:
ok now go do your cute little tyler things

i'll be slaving away over here

text me later

kk

have fun

josh 🧸:
you too <3

<3

(a/n: sooo like you should totally go check out the new joshler fic i started writing! it's inspired by jennifer's body and is called sacrifical <3

ALSO OH MY GOD?? thank you so much for your guys' support!?!? we've officially hit 100 votes ahhh! thank you thank you thank you!)