Sivaangi-"nan sonna nambuveengala (Will you believe me)?"

Dev-"unaku en mela nambikkkai illaina vendam kathu-kutty (Don't share if you don't believe me, Learning-little)"

Sivaangi-"illa, nambikkai iruku (No, I believe you)". She inhaled deeply and began,

Sivaangi-"nijamave epadi pregnant anenu enaku theriala dev, enna yarum namba matikuranga (You can believe that I have no idea how I got pregnant. I'm not being taken seriously by anyone.)"

Dev remained silent.

Sivaangi-"ellarum enna asingama pakuranga dev, verukuranga... Nan entha thappum panala. (Everyone hates me and is giving me a disgusted face. I haven't done anything improper.)"

Dev-"yarume nambalaiya ma (Nobody had faith in you)?"

Sivaangi-"amam (Yes)"

Dev-"appo nan, Dr. Amrita ellarume unkita pidikama than palaguroma? (So what about Dr. Amrita and I—are we conversing with you while disliking you?)"

Sivaangi-"aana en amma appa-kae enna pudikala, nambala (Yet even my parents disbelieve me and don't like me.)"

Dev-"but un annanga unna mela pasam vachirukanga, un anni unaku ammava irukanga.. ellathukkum mela ne entha thappum pannalainu namburanga (Your brothers, though, love you. You look up to your sister-in-law like a mother. Above all, they had faith in you.)"

Sivaangi-"avangala vera nan romba kasta paduthuren dev, Enoda medical expenses-kaga Raj annavum Rakshan annavum evlo kastapaduranga theiruma? anni koda raj anna adhigam time spend panrathu illa. Neraiah neram office velai than pakuranga. (I am a burden to them. For my medical expenses, they are working really hard. Raj brother doesn't spend much time with my sister-in-law because they're usually busy at work.)"

Dev-"avanga life la avanga improve aga nee oru reason ma, ippo avanga neraiah kasta pattu oru position -ku vantha nalla sambaricha unaku santhosam thane?, athuku un situation oru reason avlo thaan. ithu unaku santhosam illaya? (Their next stage of development in life is due to you. The reason they were able to land a decent job with a good income was because of your situation. Are you dissatisfied with it?)"

Sivaangi-"munnadi ellam Rakshan anna adikadi ooruku povanga, ippo ellam porathu illa, Raj annavum porathu illa.. week ends kooda velai pakuranga.. ellam enala thane? (Rakshan Brother used to spend every weekend in his hometown. He is no longer going, and neither is Raj's brother. I am responsible for everything.)"

Dev-"atha yen apadi ninaikura kathu-kutty, avangalukku ini anga paka ethuvum illanu eduthuko, ellathaium vida nee mukiam nu nianikuranga, unaku nalla uravugal kidaichurukunu eduthuko (why you hold that opinion. Imagine that they have nothing to do there. For them, you are more significant than their hometown.)"

Sivaangi-"aana athala kastapadurathu avanga thaan, ungaluku theriuma.. nan iruken nu theriama malini anni ku neighbours advice pananga, raj anna kooda enna romba palaga vida koodathunu, raj annava kai kulla potuka solli...(Do you know that the neighbours suggested that my sister-in-law keep Raj brother and I apart? They are in difficulty as a result of me.)", she cried,

Sivaangi- "enaku enna pudikala dev, en udamba suthama pudikala.. Rakshan anna, raj anna kooda sethu vachu thapa pesuranga.. (I despise my body and myself. They are only spewing hatred towards my brothers and I.)"

Dev remained silent, she sobbed.

Dev-"kathu-kutty, nee un manasula ullatha maraikama pesu ma (Learning little, Even so, you haven't told me what's on your mind.)"

Sivaangi-"dev"

Dev-"ithu karanam illa,un udamba nee verukurathuku. correct thane? (You don't hate your body because of this, do you?)"

Sivaangi-"dev, aana... unaku (Dev... But you,)"

Dev-"enaku therium ma, una avangaloda sethu vachu pesurathuku ellam nee kavalai pada porathu illa, yenna atha un annni ye pathupanga... un kavalai, un verupuku karanam un udambu ippo oru aan sparisatha theduthu.. (That is not the reason, dear, because your sister-in-law will handle it. The truth is that you need a man's touch because your body requires it.)"

Sivaangi cried loudly.

Dev-" nee pakura cinema, kekura songs ellame unaku yetkatha kodukuthu, unarvugala thoonduthu.. ithu thappu illai ma, ithu than iyarkai  (You sense that more and more as you watch films and listen to music. No wrong exists in this, my dear; it is natural.)"

Sivaangi-"aana enaku ithu pudikalai, enaku bayama iruku.. enna ninache kevalama iruku (Yet I don't like it, and I feel bad about it.)" , she said in a disgusting tone

Dev-"ithula asingapada onume illa kathu-kutty, unoda ella matrangalum un anni-ku naalave therium.. aanalum avanga una divert panna than ninaichangale thavira verukala... ithulaye unaku puriayalaya ithu ellam iyalbu thaan nu (Nothing should make you feel ashamed. Even your sister-in-law is aware of all your changes, yet she never disliked you and made every effort to steer you in a different direction. Why can't you understand that it's natural?)"

Sivaangi-"dev" , she said in a shocking tone. 

Dev-"military la vela pakura ellaroda manaviyum face panra visayam than ithu, intha unarvugal yetkangal ellam kandipa irukum, silaruku kidaikum, silaruku kidaikathu. avagala ninaichu paaru, una nee strong aakiko... ithula asinga pada ethuvum illa (These feelings and longings are common among wives of military personnel, and they are not ashamed of them. Be strong and keep them in mind. Nothing should be ashamed of.)"

Sivaangi-"unala epadi ellathaium vera mathiri paka mudiathu dev, aana nan verukka enaku nadantha visayangalum karanam... avanga udambu nattuku oru nalla citizen ah kodukuthu... but en udambu en valkaiah keduthuduchu, intha udambala thane intha society enna veruthu othuki vaikuthu (How are you able to see things so differently, Dev. In addition to that, I despise my body because of my past. They have a lovely soul that will make them the best citizen in the nation. But my body is the cause of my life's repercussions, and this body is the reason that society hates me.)", she sobbed.

Dev-" kathu-kutty unaku pakkuvam illama irukalam, anubavam illama irukalam aanaa nee puthisali , ippo oru nurse varuvanga avanga kita irukura photos paaru ma (Learning little, Even though you may be inexperienced and immature, you are intelligent; just take a look at the picture a nurse is about to offer you.)"

A nurse came within seconds and gave the photo.

Sivaangi-"paathuten, intha ponnu (Yeah, this girl..)"

Dev-"nee pakura ponnuku un vayasu irukum pothu perusa onnum pannalla ava kooda padikura payan love  ah iva reject panna avlo than. but avan iva face la acid oothitan (The girl did nothing but reject a boy's affection when she was your age. He threw acid in her face as a result.)"

Sivaangi-" achacho (Oh God)"

Dev-"second photo, avanga mugathula acid patathuku apuram eduthathu.. (Second photo is taken after the incident)"

Sivaangi-"romba valichurukum la (That could cause great harm.)".

Dev-"udal valiya vida, mana vali than adhigam... Unaku unna pathi therinjavanga vilaguvanganu kavalai, aana intha ponna pathale vilaguvanga theriuma? oru kulanthai kooda kitta pogathu... Face surgery kooda panna mudiathu... (Her heart was severely damaged, more so than her body. People will only despise you if they are aware of you, whereas they will hate her based just on her appearance. Even young children will fear. We are unable to perform face surgery as well..)"

Sivaangi-"paavam intha ponnu, ippo enna panranga? (Sad for her, What is she now doing?)"

Dev-"ipavum avanga santhosama thaan irukanga. avanga udamba avanga verukala, athuku pathila court la case pottu acid ah avlo seekram yarukum vikka koodathu nu oru bill pass pana vachanga.. thanakku nadanthathu yarukkum nadakoodathunu ella steps um eduthanga, ippo nursing padichutu service panitu irukanga (She is now joyful. Instead of detesting the way she looked, he put out a case for why acid shouldn't be sold without a good reason, and the same measure was enacted. She fought and made sure that another girl wouldn't experience the same thing. She worked as a nurse and is currently serving.)"

Sivaangi-"semma dev" , she said in a exited tone

Dev-"ivangala vidu, un kooda room la iruntha ellarumae pregnant aananga thane? (Leave her, everyone got pregnant in your room, right?)"

Sivaangi-"amam (Yes)"

Dev-"athula rendu per, avangala pathi pesuna vithatha poruthuka mudiama iranthutanga thane (In those, Two perished unable to handle the curses they possessed, correct?)"

Sivaangi-"amam (Yes)", she said sadly remembering those incidents.

Dev-"unaku un veetla thorathitalum, una pathuka oru alagana kudumbam kidaichathu... pavam un koodave iruntha yaarukum athu kidaikala kathu-kutty. You are blessed (You have loving brothers to look after despite the fact that your parents forced you away. But, those girls didn't have such. You are blessed dear)"

Sivaangi-"neenga than apadi solreenga, nan blessed than avanga kidaichathuku but un-lucky um than, en kulanthai enna amma nu koopdathu (Only you can say that. I am blessed to have them, at the same time I am unlucky to leave my baby)"

Dev-"kathu-kutty, un anniya oru thadava kooda nee amma-va illa friend-ah pathathu illaya? (Learning-little, Don't you consider your sister-in-law to be a mother or a friend?)"

Sivaangi-"neengalum athaye kekatheenga, enaku ellathaium maraikurathu pudikala, ipadi mathurathu pudikala (You don't inquire similarly either. I don't want to conceal anything or make any changes.)"

Dev-"yaruku therianum una pathi? yaruku prove pananum ma nee? (To whom do you wish to reveal yourself? Whom are you trying to convince?)"

Sivaangi-"dev"

Dev-"nee 10th and 12th la nalla marks eduthuruka, epo vachum atha solirupiah ma? (YYou did well in the 10th and 12th grades. Have you ever mentioned that?)"

Sivaangi-"aana dev (But dev)"

Dev-" aana itha pathi yen ellarukum therianum-nu ninaikura?, una purinchikatha yarukum un past theria vendam nu un family nianikuranga athula enna thappu iruku ma? (But why do you want everyone to know this? Your family believed that it was unnecessary for those who misunderstood you to know about your past. Is it unjust?)"

Sivaangi stood silent.

Dev-"inum enna kelvi iruko kelu ma, kandipa nan ethukkum kovapadala... nan solrathu thappunalum sollu (Still you are having questions, I won't get angry for anything, please ask )"

Sivaangi-"en kulanthaiya vaalntha intha kulanthai kasta paduma? (If my baby grows up to be me, will it suffer?)"

Dev-"neyo un kulanthaio poratamana valkai valama, normal ana santhosmana valkai vaala un family asai paduranga. kandipa unala valaka mudium, aana athuku nee romba kastapadanum, un papavum kastapadanum.. un nilamaiah matha un family asai paduranga ma (Your family believes that you or your child must live a normal, happy life rather than a life filled with conflict with society. Yes, you can raise your child, but it will be more difficult for both you and your child. Your family wants to improve your circumstances.)"

Sivaangi-" ithunala Rakshan anna life pathika padatha? (Will Rakshan' s life be ruined?)" , she asked without hesitation

Dev-"epadi kathu-kutty? (How learning little?)"

Sivaangi-"oru kulanthai-ku appava, yerkanave kalyanam aagi mudhal manavi iranthutanganu kaata poranga (He will soon become a parent and is portrayed as a man whose first wife passed away.)"

Dev-"kadhaluku kadantha kalaththa pathi kavalai illai ma, apadi oru kadhal ullavanga un annanuku kidaipanga (Love won't dwell on the past. Your brother will undoubtedly marry such a sweetheart.)"

Sivaangi-"ithu ellam nadakuma? (Will it happen?)"

Dev-"yen nadakathu, un kan munadi than nadakuthe (Why not when it has already occurred in front of your eyes?)"

Sivaangi-"en munadi ah? (Before me)"

Dev-"amam, un Raj anna Malini anni irukangale? (Yeah, Your Raj anna and Malini Sister-in-law)"

Sivaangi-"puriala (I didn't get you)"

Dev-"Raj anna una thathu edukala, athukaga un anni una pathukamala irukanga.. un Raj anna thangatchi nu manasara ninaichathum un annium una avanga kulanthaiya ethukitanga thane? (Raj did not adopt you, but this had no impact on Malini's actions. She also welcomed you as her child when Raj accepted you as a sister. right? )"

Sivaangi-"amam (Yes)", she said with a pride tone. 

Dev-"athe pola, un kulanthaiya thannoda kulanthaiya ninaikura oru ponnu un rakshan anna va kalyanam panipanga.. unaku malini anni mathiri innoru anni varuvanga.. ellathaium negative ah pakatha maa... (In a similar vein, Rakshan will also have a girl, who will take the child as her own. Avoid negative thoughts.)" 

Sivaangi-"oru vela en papa thadaia iruntha (What if my baby presents a barrier to that?)"

Dev-"appo poi unmaiah sollu, un family ku unmai therincha pothum la, yen ulagathuke therianum... Un rakshan anna ku varapora manaivi kita nee ella unmaium sollu, kandipa unna yaarum thaduka matanga (You then speak the truth. Only your family should be aware of the reality. The person that Rakshan will marry can hear from you. Nobody will hinder you.)"

Sivaangi stood silent and thought.

Dev-"una un kudumbathukita maraika solala ma, theva illama ellarukum theria vendia avasiyam illainu than solrom.. unaku poratama valkai vendam nimathiyana valkai venum nu un kudumbam asai paduthu, nee kastapata avanga santhosama irupangala ma? (No one advised you to keep something a secret from your family; it is not necessary for everyone to be aware of it. Do you believe that your family will tolerate your sufferings?)"

Sivaangi-"illa (No)" , she said with a normal tone

Dev-"yarume unna nambathapo unna nambunavanga kathu-kutty, avangala nambi neum mudivu edu.. kandipa ellam sari agidum.. (They believed you when no one else did. Just believe them and proceed. Everything will be alright.) "

Sivaangi stared at the photo she had and processed his words.

Sivaangi-"ithu mathiri nan sathichaa thaan ellarukum pudikuma? (Do I really need to accomplish something like this to win everyone over?)"

Dev-"valrathuku sathanai thevai illa kathu-kutty, ithuku apuramum enala santhosama iruka mudium-nu valnthu kaatu, intha samuthayathula neriah nallavanga irukanga..Nambu maa.. (No need to accomplish anything in order to live. Live contentedly and demonstrate to the rest of the world that happiness is still possible. Good People are there in the society believe me.)"

Sivaangi-"apadiah? (is it?)", she mocked

Dev-"Un amma irukura ithe samuthayathula than un anniyum irukanga... Una intha nilaiku aalakunavan irukura ithe samuthayathula thaan naanum iruken.. (Your sister-in-law lives in the same society where your mother lived. I live in the same society where a man who is reason for your state lived.)"

Sivaangi-"yara yaroda compare panreenga (Why are you comparing)", she asked in the angry tone

Dev-"ellarukum ella situation-um saria irukurathu illa kathu-kutty, enna ndanthalum athula irunthu meendu santhosama vaala mudium nu valthu kaatu ma, athu pothum (Simply demonstrate to the world that one can be happy despite all of life's unforeseen hardships by recognizing that not everyone will have favorable circumstances.)"

His words took on the meaning of Vedha to her, and she began to think that everything happens for a reason and that everything will turn out okay. He stressed the family in each of his conversation to make her realize that she is one among them.

Raju, Rakshan, and Malini can hear the entire dialogue. Their feelings are conflicted and with mixed emotions. Malini began to cry right away because she couldn't handle the suffering Sivaangi was going through.

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Parvathi Suresh Sharma.