The birthday of Sivaangi is today. She did turn 18 today, in fact. But, she is not content. Due to her ongoing vomiting and physical aches, she is extremely exhausted. She occasionally experienced extreme hunger and occasionally disliked food. Above all of them, she is attempting to make sense of something that is occupying her thoughts on a continuous basis. It could be a fear of the future, a fear of not believing people, a fear of society, or a dread of caring for the baby. She is now a mother, and she doesn't have any idea about it. The responsibilities are scaring her a lot, and the reality that she is not even a degree holder is leading her to the worst situation.

She tries to leave all of this behind but is unable to. Despite being able to see how she is feeling, Raju and Rakshan are unable to comfort her. because everyone they encountered was either passing judgement on her character or freely advising them to leave the baby. Even the milkman, paper guy, and vegetable seller startled her by giving advise and frightened her by sharing their own experiences, so she is currently not even leaving the room.

Her only option is to seek counselling. The doctor is working his magic to compel her to engage in an activity that will help her get rid of these ideas. She has so far been successful in that to a 50%. He forced her to create a drawing of the idyllic setting she wanted to live in. He forced her to sing a song to her child every day. He required her to adhere to the diet plan every day.

She may now only play with him as a friend. He hasn't given her any advices to this point, but he has consistently supported her and worked to improve her health.

She is on the way to hospital now, just to get blessing from the doctor.

In counselling room,

Sivaangi-"Doctor, Epadi irukeenga (Doctor how are you)?", she started the conversation.

Doctor-"I am fine kathu-kutty, Nee epadi iruka (Fine. How are you)"

Sivaangi-"Enaku inaiku birthday Doctor (Today is my birthday, doctor)", yes that is her, now-a-days she is not answering the question how are you.

Doctor-"oh, appo ithu thaan right time, Unkita onnu kekalama kathu-kutty (Oh, Then this is the appropriate time, may I ask you a question?)?"

Sivaangi-"sollunga Doctor (Yes doctor)"

Doctor-"Unaku un amma-va pidikuma(Do you like your mother?)?"

Sivaangi-"illa pudikathu (No, I don't)"

Doctor-"ethavathu reason iruka (Is there any specific reason for that)?"

Sivaangi-"avangaukku enna pudikathu, mathavanga pesunathukaga enna pakama vitutanga (She left me unattended while listening to what others had to say.)"

Doctor-"ethanala (Why)"

Sivaangi-"Paiyan porapannu ethir pathanga pola, aana nan poranthuten. Mathavanga kindal panavum, kuthi pesavum enna othuki vachutanga (I was born, but she is expecting a boy. she was ridiculed by others, which caused her to leave me.)"

Doctor-"un dream un amma mathiri nee aguratha kathu-kutty (Do you desire to resemble your mother in some way?, learning little)?"

Sivaangi-"Ethu? doctor nan pesurathu ungaluku saria kekutha (What? Are you hearing me when I speak?)?"

Doctor-"ellam kekuthu, un amma unaku panatha nee unake theriama un kulanthaiku panitu iruka. (I did, indeed. But without realising it, you're raising your child carelessly and imitating your mother.)"

Sivaangi-"enaku puriala (I didn't get you)", she said in a confusion.

Doctor-"nee pregnant ah irukanu unna ellarum ethavathu solranga, athanala nee kulanthaia pathi yosika matikra. appo nee-um un amma mathiri thane iruka? (Others' opinions were sparked by your pregnancy, and as a result, you forgot about your child and became depressed. Thus, you emulate your mother's behaviour while neglecting the child. )"

Sivaangi teared up a little,

Doctor-"nan unake theriama apadi iruka-nu sonen kathu-kutty, ipo unaku purinchuduchu na, aduthu enna pannanum-nu yosi. antha kulanthai unna nambi intha ulagathukku vanthirukku, antha kulanthaiku ellame nee than, Neyae antha kulanthai ah... (You understand now that I indicated you were doing this without realising it, so consider your options. Your baby just believes you because you are always there for it.)"

Sivaangi-"illa doctor. Nan promise panren, ini mathavangalukaga yosichu nan papava marakka maten. Nan kulanthai-a pathukaren (No doctor. I swear to take good care of my child and not give a damn about what people think.)"

Doctor-"piranthanal valthukkal Kathu-kutty. nee epavum theliva, thariama irukanum. mudincha konjam santhosamavum iru, inaiku special day, athanala nan ethuvum pesa porathu illa, nee enna venalum enkita pesalam share panalam. evlo neram venaum pesalam. (Be confident and direct. If you can, be joyful. As today is a special day, I'll listen to what you have to say. With no time restrictions, anything can be shared.)"

Sivaangi-"enaku romba payama iruku doctor (I'm Scared doctor)"

Doctor-"adada, sari athuku munnadi oru question ketka maranthuten ketukava(Oh God!! Before that i ahve to ask you one question. May I?)?"

Sivaangi laughed and said, "kelunga (yes)"

Doctor-"nee yar kooda iruka (the people you live with)?"

Sivaangi-"Raju anna, Malini anni kooda. apuram thangam vanthu thinamum papanga (Raju brother, Malini, sister-in-law and my thangam, who will make daily visits to me)"

Doctor-"oh unaku un anni-na pudikuma (Oh do you like your sister-in-law)?"

Sivaangi-"romba pudikum. sola pona, neenga pesum pothu enaku nan Malini anni mathiri oru nalla amma va irukanum en papaku nu thonuchu. avanga enaku amma mathiri (A lot. I wish I could be a nice mother like her as you speak. She is like a mother to me.)"

Doctor-"hmm, un anna (hmm, Then your brother)?"

Sivaangi-"Raju anna enaku appa mathiri, romba anba irupanga. enakaga ellame panuvanga. nan ippo veetla irukurathu kooda avanga veetla yarukume pudikala, athulaium anni-oda amma ku suthama pudikala. but annavum anni-vum enaku than support panranga. Ippo varaikum anna en mela kovapattathe illa. enna thitinathum illa. dad's little princess mathiri nan en annanoda litlle princess. (Raju brother is much like my dad. He is really beautiful. He will go to any lengths for me. The mother of my sister-in-law also doesn't like that I remain at her house. But he and my sister-in-law have only ever supported me and stood by me; up to this point, he hasn't reprimanded or become furious with me. I'm my brother's little princess, just like mine.)", While speaking, she grinned and grinned a little.

Doctor-"appo thangam (then thangam?)"

Sivaangi-"haan, thangam enoda crime partner. Anna konjam strict-uh but thangam enna ketalum tharuvanga. ena asai patalum seivanga. Ippo thangathuku salary kammi than athulaium enaku than neria selavu panranga, next month increment varum nu solirukanga vanthidanum. thangam enna thinamum paka vanthiduvanga. Paavam romba tired ah irupanga varum bothu, analum enna pakama oru naal kooda irunthathu illa. Naan-na avlo pudikum thangathuku. (Yeah. My companion in crime, he. Brother is always strict, but my thangam always complies with my requests. He is still working despite his low pay right now. I hope he gets his rise as promised next month. He always comes to see me even if he is quite exhausted. He loves me so much.)" , she said in a enthusiastic tone.

Doctor-"sari kathu-kutty, etho bayama irukunu soniyae ennathu? (Okay, a little learning. You mentioned being afraid of something. What is that?)"

Sivaangi-"bayam-nu illa, oru kulappam (Not scared of. But confused.)" , She gave it some thinking before speaking. She realised that they were with her and not to be afraid of anything, which is what he wanted. He made her to grasp that.

Doctor-" enna kulappam kathukutty (What is confusing you, Learning little)?", he asked with little smile and satisfaction.

Sivaangi-"ippo enaku neria responsibilities iruku, aana nan inum oru degree kooda padikala? epadi ithellam pathuka poren nu ninacha konjam... (My responsibilities have increased, but I still haven't finished my education. As I considered each of these....)"

Doctor-"inum unaku romba vayasagidala kathu-kutty. papa porakkatum apuram padi. athuku apuram ellamae thana nadakkum (You are not too old, Learning little. You can study after the baby is born. Everything will proceed naturally.)"

Sivaangi-"hmm, enaku oru asai (hmm, I have a wish)"

Doctor-"enna kathu-kutty (What is it, Learning little)"

Sivaangi-"unga peru enna (What is your name)?"

Doctor--"atha nan solla koodathe kathu-kutty. Ne venumna enaku oru nalla pera vai, unaku pudicha mathiri (I am not allowed to tell that Learning little. you can give me a name as you like)"

Sivaangi-"en solla kodaathu (why you shouldn't say)?", In anger and disappointment, she asked..

Doctor-"nan ippo sonna, nalaiku en perula yaraivathu meet panna athu nana irupeno nu unaku oru doubt varum, athu vendam-nu than solrathu illa. athoda inga rules iruku soll akoodathunu (In the future, if I say my name, you might not be sure it's me if you're supposed to meet someone with that name. And we are forbidden from saying some things by law.)"

Sivaangi-"okay appo nane peru vaikuren (Then I will keep a name for you)"

Doctor-"hmm, ipo nee 6th month la iruka kathukutty, romba gavana irukanum (hmm, Now you are in sixth month, you should be more careful)"

Sivaangi-"haan (okay)"

Doctor-"walking ellam poria daily (Are you keeping to your daily walking schedule?)?"

Sivaangi-"thangam kooda poren (Yes, with thangam)"

Doctor-"yoga, exercises ellam daily panriah(Are you following your daily workout and yoga schedule?)? "

Sivaangi-"annan kooda yoga center poi panren (Along with my brother, I'm going to a yoga studio to practice)"

Doctor-"diet plan ellam sapdariah(Are you following your diet plan)?"

Sivaangi-"anni kodukuranga (Sister-in-law is giving as per the plan)"

Doctor-"un papa ku songs ellam paduriah (Are you singing songs for your baby)?"

Sivaangi-"hmm daily um moonu thadavai paduren, light ah othaikuthu papa (Yes, three times daily and can feel the baby movements too.)"

Doctor-"Enna varanchutu irukeenga ippo (How about your painting)?"

Sivaangi-"papa va varaiah arambichuruken (I've begun to paint babies.)"

Doctor-"okay good. ippo epadi iruka kathu-kutty(Okay Good. How are you now)?"

Sivaangi-"nalla iruken Doctor(I am good, Doctor.)"

Without her knowledge, he forced her to respond to the first question. He is always like that, but when speaking with him, she will be herself, also the name for him is something she is seriously considering..

Rakshan, Raju, and Malini overheard the entire dialogue as they continued their session. They shed a few tears as well, and they can be seen in all of her responses.

The days went by happily with schedules and sessions. At the seven-month mark, they planned for the baby-shower event, and that's when the next problem surfaced.

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Parvathi Suresh Sharma.