He walked the halls of the Oxystation with a gun slung over his front hanging from a shortened tac sling around his neck and shoulder. He rested his arms and hands against the weapon as he walked down the hall. The gun was more of a redundancy than anything, if any unwanted alien was able to breach the hull of the station with the armored patrol outside than his gun was just a token sign of resistance. Of course, there was always the possibility that one of the patients would become violent and attack a staff member, but that possibility was quite low, even lower than it was in human mental health clinics. Only five percent of the mentally ill population was any sort of danger to anyone but themselves, and a large percentage of that would still, likely, never do anything bringing that number down somewhere closer to one percent.

With aliens it was even less likely, they weren't naturally aggressive like humans, so when their mental health tanked, it tended to do it with extreme anxiety and something that looked sort of like depression, though the different species presented the illness differently.

Working at the Oxyclinic had been good for him. It hadn't been long until his enthusiasm for alien life had come trickling back in, and his fear had been discarded like a sock with a hole in it. He had even offered to help with the oxytheropy that the psychologists were offering. If anything was gong to get rid of his lingering fear of aliens, it was probably going to involve spooning one.

A weird way to deal with internalized fear but there you had it.

The oxystation wasn't just for the oxytheropy. Human and alien psychologists were taking the time to learn about other species, and put together differing treatment plans for their patients. There was a high turnover rate, and not all the people who came to the clinic ended up staying, not all of them needed oxytheropy, and not all of them would do well having it considering that some of the fear the patients had often centered their issues around humans. To his surprise, he found that a lot of it centered around the Drev war.

He looked down at his watch and took a sharp right turn down the nearest hallway entering the guard quarters just as his watch reached the hour.

"Morning LT." Someone called and he waved a hand.

"Anything to report?"

"Nothing, all is quiet as usual."

He ejected the magazine of his gun, and checked the chamber to make sure it wasn't still loaded before racking it in the safebox as one of the other men stepped up to take his place on patrol.

The other group of men and women looked up at him from where they sat around a table playing cards, "Want us to deal you in."

Adam shook his head walking over to his locker and pulling out a fresh pair of light blue scrubs, "No I promised the doc I would help today."

The other humans shook their heads and rolled their eyes, "leave it up to you to want to spoon aliens."

"Spooning aliens is a lucrative job. You should try it sometime, maybe you'd finally have enough money to buy the bag you've always wanted."

"Bag?"

"YEah the nice one to cover your face." he shut the locker and grinned at the car players to let them know it was all in good fun before turning towards the bathroom, where he changed and stepped back out. The scrubs were very breazy in comparison to his guard uniform and he shivered slightly returning to his locker.

It was important for people working on the ward to be completely unarmed, and for the humans to look as non threatening as possible. A strict list of instructions urged them not to smile with their teeth, and to keep their hands and feet covered at all times. He wasn't entirely sure if the fuzzy socks and mittens were entirely necessary for that, but apparently some of the aliens interpreted human nails as claws, and some genius had thought that covering them up like this was very nonthreatening.

Looking in the mirror he had to admit it worked.

In his light blue scrubs and the fuzzy white mittens, he looked more like the easter bunny than he did a killer.

But then again, in real life he didn't look much like a killer either.

He turned to walk out the door flipping off the people geering at him before remembering that he was wearing a mitten, which kind of negated the point of the gesture.

From there he wandered back up the hall and was buzzed into the ward after waving to the camera. He went through a few metal detectors which pinged on his leg, but they let him through anyway as he stepped into the hall and up to the staff room where the other workers and a few psychologists were having a break.

He took a seat in a chair and idly watched the TV.

HE looked around at the people who wore similar clothes as him and noted, not for the first time, that it took a special kind of person to do this job. All of these people were remarkably docile and relaxed people, and as far as he knew the vast majority of them had no shame. Despite humans being prone to cuddling pretty much anything and everything, its was pretty hard to spoon an alien and not feel awkward about it, but these people right here, they either enjoyed it or they were damn good at faking it.

Adam wasn't good at faking anything so he was the former.

HE shifted slightly in his seat thinking about some of the aliens on the ward before his mind inevitably shifted to.... To him.... The alien that he dreaded seeing the most.... A big, tall hulking creature that wandered his nightmares and made his leg ache.

The Drev.

The Drev with eyes like the thing that had stolen his leg.

He put a hand to his head feeling a bit dizzy. He had only had one PTSD related panic attack since getting here, and that was only because he had been accidentally exposed to the Drev unexpectedly one day and without knowing that he was on the ward. It had been embarrassing for him as he tried not to let anyone know about his condition, but based on that incident he had been forced to come clean.

Ever since that incident he had been quietly forcing himself to get closer and closer to the Drev despite the psychologists telling him that it was perfectly acceptable for him to step off the ward if the Drev was on.

But adam didn't like that mentality much.

He had always felt, ever since returning from the Drev war, that people were too soft on him. They always sat there and told him that it was fine and whatever he needed to do was important, that he couldn't blame himself if he couldn't handle something. They were all very forgiving and very understanding, but that's not what he wanted. At some point, he felt that it was acceptable to get up in someone's face and tell them that: no you aren't doing good enough and that you behavior isn't ok.

He wanted people to ask more of him, not less, and he wanted to get better not stay stagnant.

If other people wanted to spend their days medicated and avoiding the things that made them hurt than that was their decision, but he planned on healing all the way.

It was a thought that he espoused only for himself and did not apply it to others.

Their mental health was their business.

Either way, he was going to make something out of this, and had slowly been approaching the Drev on the ward over time. He didn't know if the Drev knew, and it didn't matter to him so much, but he did have a bit of his own agenda.

The door creaked open, and one of the psychologists stuck her head into the room looking around for a quick moment before her eyes fell on Adam.

"Lieutenant, can I speak with you for a moment."

For a second Adam's heart stopped a little. Was he in trouble? Had he done something wrong?

He tried looking at her face to see any signs of displeasure, but she was a difficult woman to read, so he stood slowly and followed her from the room and back into her office where he took a seat.

She sat across from him at her desk hands folded together. SHe looked him over with eyes that seemed to bore into his sole, "How are you doing, Adam."

He shifted nervously in his seat, "Er... I thought I was a staff member not a patient."

"Just humor me."

"I'm good."

"Any panic attacks recently."

"No ma'am."

"Are you being truthful."

"You and I both know I'm shit at lying."

She grunted and clasped her hands together looking at him with a stern expression.

HE shifted awkwardly in his seat, "What"
"I have... a mission for you, though it is one I worry might jeopardize your mental health if it goes wrong, and the mental health of my patient as well. If it goes right however I think it would do BOTH of you a world of good. What I would be asking you to do is.... Of questionable ethicality."

That made him nervous. "What do you mean by that?"

"I mean by asking you to jeopardize your mental health, I could be in serious violation of a couple of major statutes in my field, however assuming you do it willingly it might not be so bad."

Despite his apprehension, his curiosity won out, "Go on?"

"Kanan."

"Cannon, WHat?"

"No, Kanan, the name of the Drev on the ward."

Adam shifted in his seat, stomach churning, "Oh.... go on."

"Have you noticed he has a limp."

"I.... suppose I haven't looked closely enough."

"Well he does, and you want to guess where he got that limp?"

He had a pretty good guess, "The war?"

"Exactly."

"And..... I suppose you think...." He trailed off

"He lost everything during the war Adam, his mate, his honor, his home. He is injured and exiled, and at this moment there are very few people in the galaxy that can even partially understand what he has gone through." She leaned back in her chair looking at him, "I think, that having someone like you to speak with about what happened would be,.... Beneficial to both of you." She paused, "DId you know that human and Drev psychology is surprisingly similar...."

He shook his head, "Well it is, and I think the two of you would recover faster if you had something to work on together."

"With all due respect ma'am, my papers say I'm recovered."

"The UNSC isn't exactly known for their in depth medical reviews Lieutenant. I know they overlooked some things. Either way, it's your choice."

***

Adam stood in front of the door. His hands were sweating leaving the inside of the mitten's sticky and unpleasant. He felt nauseous, but swallowed to hold it down eyes wide as he stared at the door. What was he doing?
What was he doing?

He took a deep breath.

Not being a coward, that's what he was doing. He reached a hand up and knocked on the door before he could chicken out. There was silence and the knock seemed to echo down the hall for eternity. He waited, and waited, and waited, and assumed at some point maybe he had caught the large alien sleeping, but then the door opened.

His human knee went weak, and it was only the prosthetic that kept him standing as he stared up at the huge, hulking figure.

Adam was, tall 6,2 to be precise, but this hulking behemoth had to have been around or over nine feet tall, with blood red armor, and four bulging arms. It stared at him with bright golden eyes that brought echoes of his past welling up into his ears. He felt as if he was about to fall over, but then the creature turned and trundled back into the room, snapping Adam out of his trance.

He was breathing hard, and he thought about turning back, but instead, he stepped softly into the room leaving the door open just as crack as he moved inside.

The room around him was dark, and the floor was scattered with crumbled pieces of paper.

A box of markers lay on the ground to one side. He looked down to see he was stepping on a discarded piece of paper, and stepped back to look down, realizing the drawing there was of a tree, with striped bark and spiraling branches. It looked like something out of a Dr Seus book though he recognized it as an Anum/ Anin coiltree.

He crouched down to pick the paper up.

He looked up to see the Drev had returned to the edge of his cot and was sitting down, a shapeless form in the dark.

"You mind if I turn the light on?" Adam asked.

At first the Drev didn't answer, but then he took a long breath through those strange holes in his neck and managed a deep, rumbling, "THe colors are too bright."

Adam paused then, "Well neither of us can see very well in the dark and, he held up the page, drawing in the dark can't be easy."

There was a grunt.

"I'm going to turn the lights on."

The Drev didn't stop him, and as he did the room lit up showing even more pages scattered over the floor, all drawings of Anin some of them sloppy, some of them, quite artistic for a species he hadn't thought practiced art.

He knelt down to examine a few of them, "Not bad."

He picked up one of the pictures to examine it.

"This looks like the valley between the volcanic belts."

The Drev turned to look at him, and when his eyes fell on Adam, the page slipped from his hand floating back to the floor.

The uncanny deepness of it's golden eyes unnerved him.

"You were in the war?"

Adam's hands were shaking, but he clasped them together to hide that fact."

There was a long silence between them, and then he reached down pulling up the leg of his scrubs to reveal the titanium construction underneath, "I was."

The Drev seemed surprised and looked up at him.

"You were one of them." he said it very flatly, and Adam suddenly grew very worried that the Drev would kill him in revenge for being part of the operation that decimated his people.

"One of your number killed my father."

Fuck

He went to back away but the Drev just looked down.

He sighed very deeply, "You were a strong and worthy opponent. We never had a chance."

His voice was not bitter, or hate filled. There was some measure of regret behind his words but not enough to constitute anger. And when Adam looked at the creature, he could do nothing but feel sorry for him.

He quietly walked over trying to avoid the pages on the floor and then, unsure, sat next to the large figure.

Adam was not used to feeling small, but sitting next to the huge figure of the drev, he felt very tiny indeed.

The inside of the gloves were absolutely soaking, and with some measure of annoyance he tossed them off and onto the floor.

He wiped his palm on his shirt, reached out, fingers trembling and rested a hand on the Drev's arm.

"You want to tell me about it? I.. My people didn't exactly take the time to understand yours..... Now that I think about it it hardly seems fair."

The Drev snorted ,"My mother believed that war was supposed to be fair, but my father understood that there was always inherent unfairness in battle.... The two of them didn't get along towards the end. I think I agree with my father, to assume that your species would abide by our rules of combat was.... Ignorant of us." The Drev turned to look at him, "Your species is much more efficient at war than mine is."

His hands weren't shaking anymore.

And he realized that, when he looked at this Drev, He didn't see much of an enemy at all.

But he did see someone broken by the war.... Just like him.

He looked down at his feet, and when he did his eyes came across another drawing. This one of a drev, It really only had an outline since it's carapace seemed to be white, and the way it had been rendered with such delicate care, made it pretty clear to Adam who it might have been.

He picked it up quietly.

"You.... want to tell me about her?"

The Drev turned to look his eyes resting on the picture. Adam didn't think up to this point he could read Drev facial expressions, but the welling of sadness in the creature's face was so poignant that Adam felt his own chest tighten,

Damn the human's heightened sense of empathy.

For a moment he thought the Drrev was going to tell him to get out, but, instead, he took the image and stared down at it, "Nechal.... Named after the moon..... She was the most glorious fighter I had ever seen in battle, strong, and graceful and powerful. She was not afraid to die, but she didn't let that lower her guard. On the battlefield she was a goddess of war, and off.... She was.... Kind in ways that aren't common among our people. I may have been attracted to her because of her fighting prowess, but I loved her because of the kindness she showed. Especially towards my sister... someone who needed kindness more than anyone I know."

He took a very deep breath and when he spoke again his words were thick.

Could Drev cry?
"In our people it is.... Custom not to mourn the dead who are lost in battle because their return to the spiritual realm will be glorious. It is a great honor to lose a mate in battle...." He looked down at his four hands, "But I do not feel honored.... I feel alone.... I miss her, ever day and every night I miss her, and I wish she hadn't died..." He looked up and when he did Adam was struck by the expression of pain and grief on his face.

As if he was feeling the Drev's pain in real time, he felt his chest clench again, and tears welled in his eyes. How could he not?

Anyone who didn't feel the same must have had no feelings?

"I was exiled because.... I could not follow her into the afterlife.... With my injury I should have given my body over to the fire, and maybe then I'd be with her, but I just.... I couldn't do it. I miss her every day and yet I don't have the strength to go to her.... I am a fraud among my people, a coward and a fraud and....

"Hey! Hold on."

The Drev went quiet and turned to look at Adam who was now gripping his arm tight in one hand.

"You think she'd want to hear you say that."

That seemed to take the Drev off guard and he stared at Adam with some measure of confusion.

"You said she was kind wasn't she..... Well then I doubt she'd appreciate you talking about yourself like that."

He was quiet for some time.

"Look I.... I lost my leg during the war to.... To one of your soldiers and. It's messed me up for a real long time. Hell you scare the daylights out of me, but I'm moving forward."

THe Drev frowned at him, "Scared of... us... you won?"

Adam laughed, "We didn't win anything. Nobody won, a lot of people died and a lot of people were crippled, and for what? I think about that a lot, for honor? Honor. Well maybe I don't understand what honor means because to me, it would be something worth dying over."

The Drev contemplated him for a long time.

"We may have won but we did it with scared soldiers like me, and broken soldiers like me. I'm probably never going to recover from the war. That's the difference between you and me, you guys can make it through war in one piece but me.... Humans... we may be good at war but it destroys us."

He sighed, "I guess what I am trying to say is, instead of feeling sorry for what you can't change, why not move forward. Do something you think is worth it, do something Ne-" he stumbled over the Drev word, "Nechal would think was worth it."

He didn't know what he was saying, he didn't know if what he was saying even made sense. Nerves had always made him ramble. He knew he was talking too much but he didn't know what else to do.

The Drev looked down, and Adam. as was his training made a bit of a decision.

He shut up.

Which was a feat in itself.

Reached over and hugged the larger alien. His arms didn't make it anywhere close to wrapping around him, but he hoped that maybe it would help?

He didn't know.

He was kind of just a raging idiot most of the time, so his plans were usually half assed at best.

The Drev stiffened and then relaxed. Adam's head was resting against the creature's huge planted shoulder. It felt like hugging corded steel cables.

He would have to say that being hugged by something with four arms was a bit of an experience. Most aliens didn't usually hug back, they were more the recipient of hugs, but it seemed that the Drev wasn't unfamiliar with the concept, either that or he learned fast, and damn Adam felt even smaller encircled in the arms of the huge alien.

Kanan could have crushed him if he wanted, but let him go not long after to Adam's surprise and relief.

The Drev looked at him.

He looked back

"You are strange creatures."

He gave a weak smile, forgetting the rule about showing teeth, "So they say."

It was a bit of a gamble but things had worked out better than the psychologist could have hoped. Drev are more receptive to self reflection than humans are. Humans like to internalize things, and their brains become obsessive. Drev have more control over their minds in many cases than humans do, so Adam's encouragement for Kanan to do something his dead mate would think worthwhile showed results almost immediately.

To Adam's grudging pleasure, the Drev seemed to be recovering faster than he was.

And was well on his way to recovering completely when the communication came for Adam one night while he sat lying on his bed next to Waffles, thinking about his future.

The pink roused him from near sleep and he sat up on one elbow to look at the time.

i t was only nine earth time, so he rolled onto his side and sat up, patching the communication through.

A light blue screen of holographic image filled his vision, and on the other side he could see Colonel Kelly sitting in front of him..... At least Colonel until he realized the star on her uniform.

His eyes widened slightly. He went to speak but she shook her head at him.

"I trust you are doing well Lieutenant."

"Yes ma'am. I have no complaints."

She nodded, "Good, good, I am sorry to intrude, but I am afraid this rest period is over for you. You are requested to return to earth on the next outgoing transport."

He frowned and rubbed the back of his head, "Uh of course ma'am but.... Why?"

She stared at him long and hard, 'I have a very important decision for you to make. It is one that is not going to be popular or easy, but I urge you to accept my request."

He frowned and shook his head, "You aren't making sense, What is this all about?"

"Tensions are rising between our delegates and the GA, if we don't do something soon, I am worried that this will devolve into infighting and eventually war. I have to work fast in order to stop this outcome, and you are the lynchpin that holds my plan together."

"Me." He squeaked.

"Yes, you, now Adam, be honest with me. What is your opinion on the GA and our involvement with them?"

He rubbed the back of his neck though his thoughts were adamant, "Cooperation wherever and however possible. We need them, and I believe they could due with being our allies, ma'am."

"And if I gave you a job to try and reach that goal, would you take it?"

"I would do whatever I had to do ma'am."

He was being truthful.

She nodded her head.

"Good then, it's your choice at the end of the day, but if we act now, we can change everything."