The hardest thing in the world

To raise a child

With love and care

For that

I try to

Avoid the blame

To fall on them

But for every yell

Every bicker

And the nights I cry

The days where

Scratches and red spots

Cover my arms.

The night that silence follow every one

Of their arguments.

How can I help

From the red hot hatred

To form?

To blame them 

For all my pain.

How can I help

From the blame to fall on them?

For as hard as I try

No sorry's

No explanations

Can forgive

My self hatred

All the tears that fell 

And the fear that 

Clouded my childhood

For everyone of my

Anger

My sorrow

That got buried 

Under all of

My smiles and laughs

How can I forgive

The very ones who

Only gave me pain?