Before we start this chapter I just want you guys to know...it's very dark and escalates fast as hell.
I really can't help but think I went way to over board with this chapter and the next one. It's just my ideas come as I'm writing. Over all IM SORRY.

Now try to enjoy this very dramatic chapter ❤️

L U C Y
Me and Natsu returned home late; everyone was sitting in the kitchen except for lisanna.

She probably got held up at the tavern. "Well look who decided to show up." Gray commented and Natsu rolled his eyes. I did too a little it kinda just happened. I really hoped no one noticed it.

"I seen that." Gray said and I felt my cheeks burn from embarrassment. I hate getting to comfortable.

"Leave her alone gray, did you guys have fun?" Erza asked with a slight smile and I shrugged. "We didn't really uh do...anything." She looked at Natsu with mock shocked face.

"What! He didn't try to bust a move on you?" They both asked and I blushed and hid behind Natsu.

Of course that's what they would mean...I thought they meant like ya know...just hanging out.

"Guys stop." Natsu put an end to both gray and erzas chatter. Which I am thankful for because they were rambling and I caught something along the lines of 'I can't believe he didn't try to get fresh.'

That is something I'm most definitely not ready for...goosebumps covered my skin.

"Uhh guys I'm gonna go to bed...I'm kinda tired." I told them as I made my escape. They all gave me a chorus of good nights.

When I reached my room I jumped on the bed and just stared at the ceiling.

He opened up to me...I lied to him instead of opening up.

Guilt ate away at me...I don't want him to be mad at me but I know he will.

I lied right to his face..I'm such a idiot.

You know what to do.
No. Not the blade...please...

It's the only way...you already lied...let your emotions go.
No...

Do it.

No please..

Do. It.

Tears were streaming down my face as I silently walked to the bathroom, I found the blades in my hiding spot, which is taped under the shampoo bottle.

Legs.

I quickly slid my pants down and sat on the toilet seat, I brought the blade up and put the sharp point to my skin. My hands were shaking but there's nothing I can do to help them.

"I-I'm such a failure.."
That you are Lucy. Your father and mother would be so disappointed.

I mean who wants a damaged good?

I scream as I quickly brought the blade across my leg, cutting it pretty deep. The pain wasn't comfortable at all but it's somthing I'm used to.

Oh if only our lovely sting could have heard that scream, he would be so proud.
Kill yourself.

"Shut up!" I yelled as I brought the blade down on my wrist this time and cut it deeply.

The pain was unbearable now...I just sobbed loudly not even caring who heard.

Im not even worth being here, I'm so sorry Natsu..you got to close.

I must say I will miss you...you made me happy even if it was for a short while.
I sobbed harder; I'm still propped against the toilet, the blood is spilling down my wrist and leg.

How could I ever think I can make it past my own mind? God I'm so weak.

I'm not a fight at all...I can't believe it.
My energy is fading and I'm so tired..I have lost all my will to live.

I'm never getting away...I wasn't destined for a happy ending. It's really tragic you know? I was hoping to experience having a family one day...that's my fault for living a sheltered life.

I looked up at the ceiling my whole body shaking and sweaty. "Lucy!" Gray rushed in followed by happy.

"Holy shit- what did you do?!" He gripped his hair and then dropped down to take me off the toilet seat.

"Tell Natsu...I'm sorry." I whispered and he shook his head and took off his shirt then tore it into two pieces. He quickly wrapped them around my wounds and I tried to push him away but I'm too weak.

"Happy-uh shit. Go call Natsu and Erza!" I didn't look at happy as he left the room but if I were to see it, I probably would try to fight to live.

"Don't do-" I started but black spots covered my vision he shook his head frantically. "Listen to me right now. You can't d-Di- you can't close your eyes Lucy. If not for me...then for Natsu." He pleaded and I tried to focus on what he was saying but my ears were ringing.

My whole body is tired and in pain, I'm tired and in pain.

I always have been, ever since I was little.

{ FLASH BACK }

"Lucy darling! Your father wishes to speak to you in his office." Mother called from the speakers that are posted up everywhere around the house.

So at any given moment their voice can grace us all whom are forced to live in this prison, or they could just eavesdrop on a conversation that has not a single thing to do with them.

I walked over to the wall where the speaker was and pressed a button on the voice box that is located under the speaker.

"Yes mama, I will be there shortly." I took my finger off the speaker and backed up a bit awaiting for her response but didn't get one.

I love my mom and dad but they are both strict.

~*~
I heard yelling coming from my dads office and walked inside. Alarmed at why they were yelling at each other the sight was something no one ever wanted to see.

"D-Dad...?" I asked In horror, he growled and turned to my mother after chugging the rest of his drink down.

"Of course you would have told her to come down! Might as well tell the whole world I slept with another women!" He bellowed in anger and I flinched, my mother let out a cold laugh.

"She's the result of our love! She is what happens when you-" She poked him in the chest with a lot of force "have sex with other women! Jude, Lucy is our daughter. How the hell could you do this to us?!" I heard a slight laugh come from behind my dad and gasped as the person came into view.

"Layla calm down...Jude already has a child with me.."

Who the hell is this women?

To be continued...